YES!HE'S GOING WITH MY DECISION!NO CATS!

can't take back your words Mr. cause it's written here..

Kak Hanez's Wedding

 

To know you have marry the women of your dream...

Haven't thought of any resolutions for next year.next year it's gonna be another life-changing.anticipating?maybe.i'm anxious of what to come.but i have two things in my mind.Get myself a job and enrol myself into private Uni.InsyaAllah, praying never stops..
and the possibility of you being away too..

so much fun yesterday, i wished it didn't end.
one week left.

you are exceptional...

sometimes the people we loved the most, hurt us the most.

the other i was talking to K.we saw a cat wallked passed us.the major difference between us is that, he really really loves cats and i'm really really terrified of cats.so the conversation went something like this.
Me: "So if you have a cat, what would you name it?"
K: "Zero and Scrabs".
*silence
Me: "I asked for one, you gave me two.does that means that you want two cats?"
K: "Yes".
i can't remember what i said, but i bet it was 'noooooo'and 'OMG'.shakes head in complete disbelieved.
if we were ever to get married, he wants to have cats at home. i tried to make him promise me to not have cats but till now he hasn't promise me yet.K if you reading this,please please please, if you really love me,you have to choose.Me or cats?

HAHA.

Kak Hanez's Bachelorette Party

 don't know why i looked so dark here down here

 pictures credit to Zara

school is draining me especially when you wished that you were in your dream course.there were several opportunities that i passed off because of school.if i had more time, i would like to do baking, taking up sewing class, getting myself a driving lesson and also taking my time to read and increase my knowledge.when i do have time now, all i want to do is lie in my bed,spend my time watching TV shows, facebook-ing and twitter.those are my temporal replacement of school.i do not think of school when i do that of course.what i want to do for all these 2 years takes time.unfortunately time isn't on my side.if i don't finish up my work, it will be always at the back of my mind,bugging me.if i do something else, without finishing my work,i can't do it peacefully.like the simplest things of all, watching tv.that is why i couldnt take up what i've been wanting to do.just a few days ago, my mam told me that my dad would sponsor me to sewing class.this is the second time i said no.no because i have no time.it's sad but that's life.i hope it's not a sign that i'm not fated to sew.i've always wanted to and i hoped i could start when i have graduated. but the other issue like money will crop in.we'll see how alright.it's just that in design, you are always on the rush for time. we are chasing time,time fooled us sometimes. it sucks and it's starting to wear me down and of course, everyone else in my course.

now that it is mid december, time can you please slow down a little.because i need time.i need more time seriously..

so freaking pissed off

this is by far the most fav picture of you and me.feeling guilty cause we're not doing anything for your birthday again.i don't think you'll read this but happy 21st my friend.have fun in Korea(South of course!haha inside joke).please do bring back for yourself a korean boyfriend.and like they always say, sarang hae yo!i think that's right?

the truth is, i want to spend my whole life with you and no one else.Period.

conventional/traditional woman with modern dreams?
somehow you have already just defined me.

i find this funny.
when i just got into poly, K was few months away to serving the nation.
2 years later, he is done with NS and even got himself enrolled to Uni while i am still here stuck with school!3 years seems very long aye?i can't wait to get out(i might take back my words when i start working myself)and do something that i love to do.
now the nearer it is, the slower time gets, the harder the project is.
praying for the best.

dont want december to end because the next one month and a half is going to be really tough.
i will enjoy to the fullest!

I LOVE YOU MUHAMMAD KHIDHIR :)

>3

trying to feel positive.
school's work is truckload.
let see,about 10 drawings to do,and then rendered,a model and presentation slides.
all by next week friday(within 2 weeks), plus struggling with how to design it and issues behind it.
so far this is the worst ever but the light is at the end of the tunnel.
graduation in about 2 months time!

be back by next week :)

"Because I want to be judged for what I say and what I do,not for what I look like".
From my Sister's Lips by Naima B.Robert when she asked a woman from Cairo why she had to cover herself.

"Without doubt,the assumption is that this poor woman was forced by her husband or family to dress as she does,that she is an uneducated immigrant who probably speaks little or no English or that,steeped in ignorance,she has yet to experience the delights of Western freedoms.She is, in essence,desparate to be liberated" From my Sister's Lips by Naima B.Robert.

what western delights?wearing a dress?showing some cleavage and thighs?drinking?partying?having sex before marriage?

people come to me to make themselves feel happy.they come to me because i was the light in the room,i was the joker in the clique,i was the ball for them to start rolling,i was the laughter when they need,i was the loudest and happiest among them.when they get what they want,when they are equally happy,they leave..and everytime they leave,they took away shred of my happiness,and i, emptier than before.after all i am just there to make them simply,happy.

so is this real?
it seems real to me.

"hanging train"

i might get too self-indulgent sometimes.
having a short break from school till tuesday but hell will set loose next week.3 more weeks to our last term holiday.i can't wait to graduate and start doing something worthwhile.
K dropped a big bomb yesterday(ladies no he did not propose me)and got me thinking...

enjoy your weekend.having ayam bakar later!

Tokyo, Japan 31st Oct-6th Nov 2010

several things that i missed about Tokyo:

1. the weather!good heavens that when i came back, singapore having its monsoon season.i miss the cool weather,it's like you're in an air conditioned room when you step outside.

2. the service!the service there was pretty good compared to Singapore.the cashier speaks softly, yes even the guys.they always thank you.i like it when they give your change, they will always give you the notes first, then the coins.

3.the weird(in a good way) fashion sense of the Japanese people. they wear anything and everything without caring about what people might be thinking of them.i saw a lady who wore hair curlers out.the weirder, the better.it was really nice to see every single Japanese people dressed up, unlike Singaporeans who wear their smelly boxers to buy mcd breakfast.seriously.

4. i miss their clean toilets and the toilet seats!their toilets are generally clean and it does not stink.none of the toilets that i went to stinks even the one in the park,which was a bit dirty but still doesnt stinks.i also miss the warmth feeling the toilet seats gave when i woke up every morning at 5

(solat subuh) feeling cold.

5. Japanese people talking.i loved it when i am surrounded by Japanese people talking.when they talk, it sounded nice and bearable to the ears unlike china people talking,with their accent so thick.

okay that's it.sorry i have been talking about Tokyo since i came back.pardon me, this is my first time going anywhere beyond Malaysia and i was very excited.it has left a huge impact on my life. i will never forget the 6 days i had in Tokyo.