a person who i consider as a friend has return to God yesterday. the passing of Salleh shocked me. he was K's friend's boyfriend and we all got to know each other during hari raya last year. even though, i barely knew him, we almost spent one whole memorable day together. i even thought all of us could meet again for hari raya this year. i was also trying to put myself in his girlfriend shoes. they have been together for so long since sec school and how can she ever pick herself up? what if it happens to me? bike accidents are fatal and i can only pray it will never happen to K. here i am,angry at the fact that you are too busy when i should be thankful. because i still get to be with you..

death breezed through me like a cold reminder. death is constant.death is imminent. death is inevitable.death can happen to young people.

al-fatihah

I'm afraid it might not be worth it.lies,lies.

yesterday i had book binding and knitting workshop. just to prove myself that i can do arts and craft. i always like diy stuff but i think i'm just not made to do craft and this is proven in DID, when i had to do model-making which i pretty suck at. crafting requires patience, accuracy and eye for details. however, being an impatience person,(sorry hamie, i might have annoyed you with my impatience yesterday)it's hard for me and i messed up. anyway, knitting was quite hard.seriously what the hell i was thinking doing knitting.

anyway, i had fun!wishes to go to more crafting-related workshop!

http://itsgreensilk.blogspot.com/2010/02/shaykh-hamza-yusuf-on-prophet-peace-be.html

came across this while i'm at Sis Muna's blog. thank you kak muna.
it's the month of all months.it's the month of the birth of our beloved prophet, Nabi Muhammad SAW.how i wished i had that same love and respect like how shaykh hamza yusuf had for our prophet.read, it's worth it.

especially loved these paragraphs:

But the Prophet, peace and blessings be upon him, was more than just a great historical person, he was a father and friend, a husband, a companion and above all he was a human being. The Prophet’s unique physical appearance, his high character and willingness to sacrifice for others, are often at the essence of any description of him. He was once described by a contemporary in the following words:

"The Messenger of God was imposing and majestic. His face was luminous like a full moon. He was taller than medium but not excessive in height. He had wavy hair, which he parted and it never went beyond his shoulders. He was light-skinned with a high brow. He had full eyebrows and a small space between them. He had a fine, aquiline nose. His beard was full, his eyes black. His physique was supple and lithe, with a full chest and broad shoulders. When he walked, he was determined and his pace was as if he was walking down hill.

When he spoke he was always brief and reflective. He spoke when he saw benefit and spent long periods in silent contemplation. His speech was comprehensive being neither wordy nor laconic. He had a mild temperament and was never harsh nor cruel, coarse nor rude. He expressed gratitude for everything given to him no matter how insignificant. When he spoke, his companions lowered their heads as if birds were perched upon them. When he was silent, they felt free to speak. He never criticized food or praised it excessively. He never swore, nor did he find fault in people. He did not flatter people but praised them when appropriate.

People entered his gatherings as seekers and left enlightened. He would ask about his companions when they were absent often making inquiries about people’s needs. He never stood nor sat without mentioning the name of God. He never reserved a special place for himself in a gathering and sat where space provided. He gave each of those who sat with him such full attention that everyone felt that he was the most important person in that gathering. Voices were never raised in his presence. The aged were respected for their age and the young were shown compassion for their youth."

The Qur'an reminds Muslims that when they are slandered by those who reject them they should bear it patiently and be forgiving. I yearn for a deeper understanding of this man, his gentleness towards children, his love of animals, his concern for the weak and oppressed, his sense of justice tempered always with mercy.

right now, my life is practically free. eventhough is only for a week but i do take pleasure in doing nothing at all. feeling too free is something i have to adjust to.i've been spending my time on the laptop watching movies after movies, tv shows after tv shows. i don't usually like to spend my time facing the screen but i guess it's only for a few days more.

i am praying that starting next week, everything will go smoothly.i am concerned about attachment but i hope everything goes well.insyaAllah.

i am aware of the sins that i committed but being aware, is it just enough?

tuesday was too good to be true.

while we were gazing at the stars, you pointed out to three stars that were in a row and said it's an orion's belt. it was so nice catching it with you.

weekend was terrific.

saturday- percy jackson with sister and brothers, shin tokyo with all the siblings, crazy time at watson

sunday to monday afternoon- aunt's condo @ jb. had a great time swimming with the cousins! taking jumpshots into the pool, bbq and watching a ghost movie at midnight :)

and today, some TLC for me.

So give to each situation according to its size, weight, measure, and importance. And stay away from immoderation or from exceeding the proper bounds. - excerpt from a book Do Be Sad by
Aaidh ibn Abdullah al-Qarni

Dear Masturah,

"You light up a room with you smile. Dare to dream!"

All the best,
Stella Wee

yes hamie, i am going to miss her too. such a great lecturer and am so honored to meet and be taught by the writer of my fav all time local show, Phua Chu Kang.

if i ever be a teacher, this is what i want to do. touch the hearts of my students. eventhough teaching is my last resort.

yesterday was good.

finally,i can say my place in the company is pretty secured even though is so far away, i am thankful.

and hanging out with your friends was great!makes me miss my own friends and hoped 5 years down the road, we have random meet ups and the guys will be all grown up and matured.

lastly, school will officially end this friday! two weeks of holiday and back to work, for real.

:)

okay i save you guys from any mushy words. just a picture.


ps/: when will i start jogging?

dreams dreams dreams dreams
something i've been thinking of lately. something that made me smile and pray.

there are so many places that i want to go but the only thing that is stopping me now is money..

and money reminds me of the song "money money money you're so funny in a rich man's world"
in the movie mamma mia..it reminds me of that time my cousins and i were watching mamma mia 2 in the morning and to prevent from sleeping i was singing to the songs that i never heard before,out of tune. good times, good times.



ps/: K, 3 more months to ORD!!!!!

my weekend was a bliss, it will be in the few weeks to come because i am so over and done with the final project for year 2.time flies, and in few more months i will be in year 3, something i am anticipating for. i wanna get out as soon as i can but then again, i just might miss schooling.

anyway, i just had an interview. it wasnt as formal i would like it to be. the most embarassing part was when i try to get up from the chair, i almost lose my balance.hahah, how great.somehow i wished i wouldnt get that company, location wise but i need it.

my critique will be tomorrow. the first one, twice already.i had my speech ready and at the speed that i'm going, i can last for less than 10 minutes. i wonder how people can just go on and on and on about their work. come one, cut the chase. i wished everything will be alright tomorrow. a few criticisms wont hurt but oh well, we see how it goes tomorrow.

by the way, i will miss csw because of stella. she even knows i'll fit very well in CASS. oh well, i'm here now right?


here i leave you with an excerpt from this book, Dont be Sad written by

Aaidh ibn Abdullah al-Qarni

Leave the future alone until it comes

The Event [the Hour or the punishment of disbelievers and polytheists or the Islamic laws or commandments], ordained by Allah will come to pass, so seek not to hasten it. (Qur'an 16: 1)

Be not hasty and rushed for things that have yet to come to pass. Do you think it is wise to pick fruits before they become ripe? Tomorrow is non-existent, having no reality today, so why should you busy yourself with it? Why should you have apprehensions about future disasters? Why should you be engrossed by their thoughts, especially since you do not know whether you will even see tomorrow?

The important thing to know is that tomorrow is from the world of the unseen, a bridge that we do not cross until it comes. Who knows, perhaps we might never reach the bridge, or the bridge might collapse before we reach it, or we may actually reach it and cross safely.

For us to be engrossed in expectations about the future is looked down upon in our religion since it leads to our having a long-term attachment to this world, an attachment that the good believer shuns. Many people of this world are unduly fearful of future poverty, hunger, disease, and disaster: such thinking is inspired by the Devil.

Satan threatens you with poverty and orders you to commit Fahsha [evil deeds, illegal sexual intercourse, sins etc.], whereas Allah promises you Forgiveness from Himself and Bounty... (Qur'an 2: 268)

Many are those who cry because they see themselves starving tomorrow, falling sick after a month, or because they fear that the world will come to an end after a year. Someone who has no clue as to when he wil die (which is all of us) should not busy himself with such thoughts.

Since you ire absorbed in the toils of today, leave tomorrow until it comes. Beware of becoming unduly attached to future prospects in this world.