first of all,

i would like to wish all Muslims
SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI
and to all my family,friends and to those who know or known me,
aku mohon maaf jika aku terkasar bahasa,tersinggung
hati-hati kamu dan jika aku berbuat salah.

P.s:dalam hukum agama islam,wajib tau maafkan orang!

anyway,i'm so glad that i got to celebrate raya again this year.let me remind you that raya is not just about celebration.it's about celebration to those who have
achieved in fasting for a month and able to be learn the meaning of patience and hindered from any unnecessary desires.

as usual,the morning of raya is spent on praying.i am much overwhelmed as i listened to the khutbah given by the uztaz and able to feel the true meaning of takbir.thank god,alhamdullilah.i hope that i can be a better muslims.insyaallah.

seeking for forgiveness with family was rather a funny occasion than a sad melody.this results from my brother.he was like this,"aku minta maaf.aku sudah bertaubat." okay.here's the pictures taken at home.
iqmal yasin and hilman saufie.

hoho.posing you know.

mam and dad.

the 5 siblings.

gray theme for the kids and bronze for the couples.

hoho,blood cheeks.

went to my paternal side.ayah ngah and pak long was missing.and,and my camera sucks.i can only show some nicely outcome photos.the rest,i steal from my cousins and update later.alright.here it goes!
girl cousins!

boy cousins!

that's all the decent photos.will update more.

next stop was my maternal side.this time,camera was a bit better.cik esa family
didn't come to singapore this year.i kinda miss them.hoho.

not everyone was here lah.

and cik usof kept disturbing me about my contact lens!and abg didik was filming us with his big camera.haha,that moment was quite funny.nonsense lah my uncle.okay,off-side a bit.

heh.ilham my nephew!

i love them!

iqah

fizza

kinah

okay.that's all for now.for sure,will upload more whether you like it or not.hoho!

i was quite busy yesterday.lots of cleaning up to do.but,i'm tad lazy cause i hate household chores!huh,no potential of being a decent housewife!(heck,it doesn't matter now!)

anyway,i went to geylang with the neighbours yesterday after terwarih.it was 11pm when we started the engine.you know,i disliked geylang.that was my first time i've been there since ramadhan.so,we spilt and my family just wondering around,don't know where to go since we've bought almost all the raya stuff at a mall.i wanted to do henna but my father refused.damn!blah and blah,we went home by 2am.i hate some of the people there.wear tatto also want to celebrate hari raya!hell you go!

okay.i'm done blabbering!

first of all,i would like to thank to those who has wished me.thank you so much guys.you guys are great!

and thanks to girls for the b'day present.it was really cute.next time must remember to put it in a plastic bag!haha!

and million thanks to dad for giving me my dream swatch watch!i love it.

and lastly,happy birthday to myself :)

i got back my results.here,take a look.

English Paper 2 -62/100
Maths-54/100(yeay!i passed you know!)
Chemistry-74/100
Physics-58/100
Geog-70/100
Social Studies-78/100
Biology-45/120(ahaha!i failed so badly!)

pretty satisfied except for physics.damn,i studied hard for that but it's okay.

i bought contact lens already.and,my degree increased!200 on the left and 250 on the right.can you tell me how to prevent your degree from increasing?damn scared cause i think over the years it will shoot up till 300!

my friends were wishing me an advanced birthday wishes cause tmr no school.so thank you guys and thank you to fatin for the present.it was lovely!

and lastly,happy birthday denise!

okay,i was surfing on the internet,looking for the courses that i want if i get to polytechnic.

two courses in mind:mass communication and media and communication.

so,i started looking for its subjects requirements and also the cut-off-points.

AND,I'M SO BLOODY TAKEN ABACK!

CAUSE THE COP IS TOO OVERRATED!!

mass comm-10 points,english 1-2
media&comm-12 points,enlish 1-4

WAH!CAN DIE!
i absolutely don't think that i can make it but never give up.it's my dream you talking about!

so,i decided to look for some back-up options and found that business administration and business studies seems quite interesting cause i kinda like business and wanna be like donald trump.(HAHA!)the cop is more reasonable,i think is 15 and 16 each.

anyway,i thought the tourism studies in tp would be easy to get but shocked to know that the cop was or is 13 points.there will be more tourism studies at other polytechnics but i think the cop will around there.

and hell no,to engineering and sciences.probably the visit to sp tmr on engineering might might interest me.

what the hell.getting through poly nowadays aren't easy cause there's a lot of people wants to go poly instead of jc.mind you,we normal academic people has to compete with someone from express or even someone from independent,smart ass schools.poor me,i'd to work triple hard to get the course i want and smart ass students only work hard and they can get what they want.

i'm so inspired after watching the apprentince.they are so successful in life!nevermind,insyaallah i'll be more successful than them in akhirat.


anyway,click here http://www.sp.edu.sg/SPweb/appmanager/home/default?_nfpb=true&T9403617971145853666585_actionOverride=%2FcmsTools%2Fextension%2Fcontentlist%2Fmain%2Flink&_windowLabel=T9403617971145853666585&T9403617971145853666585nodepath=%2FBEA+Repository%2FFutureStudent%2FAdmission%2FJointAdmissionsExercise%2FintakesAndCutOffPointsLinks%2FcutOffPointsForFullTimeDiploma&_pageLabel=SP_FS_ADM_JAE_CICOP#DMC
go find the course you like and hope you''ll not be too surprised like me.

alright.

post-exams activities were such a bore!anyone with a decent mind wouldn't allow its studens to watch a bloody harmonica performance,trying to think that we, students might appreciate music!excuse me,if you showcase something more trend i would appreciate it!

exclude the movies lah.it was really fun since i'm a movie-freak.

and,we had ccks idol.HAHA!everything sucks but sure we enjoy some humour.stella and me was being rude.instead of listening to people singing,we sang for ourselves.anyhow,applause to the student who have the courage to be laughed at the whole school.okay,i know i'm rude!i've been embarassed like that too,so i know the feeling.

i got the school post-exams schedule.i was quite annoyed by the fact that the school has cross country on the second day of raya!!what the hell.it's kinda of biased.they(referring to authorities)should let the muslim have two days break.i remember,chinese new year,we had more off days.completely out of mind.i don't even think muslim people would come.who wants too!

anyway,i'm off.had to iron clothes cause i'm going terawih!
and it's 9 more days to raya!!!

EXAMS OVER!YEAY!

so for now,i'm absolutely free.

i'm pretty glad about the exams.it was manageable exclude maths paper 1.

anyway,i'm so frigging out that i have to come to school tomorrow.i mean,the school should give us one day off or something.i don't know what we'll be doing tomorrow.probably will be watching movies.

and good thing my sister bought some pirated vcds from johor.probably,i'll be renting vcds at laser flair.feel like watching the break-up.

yeah,i'm gonna do lots of watching and reading too.but libraries book are boring.i wish i could own that mph bookstore!

nithiya asked me whether to have any class outing during the holis.so,i'm cracking up some ideas of what to do.definitely not beach outing cause is kinda boring.escape theme park?bloody hell.spore has so limited places to go!

this is much a nonchalant update.

some yesterdays yesterdays yesterdays pictures.

ttk salihah and me!

i think that smile was a reluctant one!

oh my.

the haze is choking my delicate lungs.

the worst PSI so far was 140.i was back home at 1120pm and it was oh my.

bloody hell.they better stop burning trees.pity the environment huh!

and it's two weeks to hari raya!yeay!

alas,i have some time to blog.

been pretty busy with exams.

social studies,physics,maths paper 1 and english paper 1 down.

ANYWAY,WANNA SHOUT OUT TO LIN,A HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

and it's not hizam's b'day.how stupid of me to believe the guys.ahah!

okay.probably going to terawih.probably.cause mam wanted to listen to syarahan by ahmad dahwi.i guess it is.

this is much a boring post.

excuse me.my brain is draining me out.

HELLO OCTOBER!

this month,is my favourite month.
cause..
1.i'm turning 16.
2.Hari Raya on the 25th October.
3.marked the end of my sec 4.

okay.i don't have any school tmr!but still have to come for a short or probably long ss extra class.what sey!

and,it's one week of puasa!cool beans!

anyway,i watched Jejak Rasul 12.it was really wow for me.watch it if you guys have tv3 malaysian channel on sunday at 5pm.

i think i've decided what to do when holidays come.no!i'm not gonna work or something!

okay,should go back and finish doing physics tys.erghh.

so,here comes the new skin.

anyway,yesterday i read this article saying that for the SI,some people do not want another malay to win the competition.how biased can that be?so much for the govt wanting us to be social cohesive.you know what?i think no matter what,at the end of the day,you will definitely stand by your own race.doesn't matter if your race are in a right or wrong,you'll will stood by your own colour skin.hey,that's how it goes,i guess.let's not just say in singapore,other countries like US.some of the black and the white can't get along too.i told you,it's hard to be really really racial harmonise.

but put aside race.let's talk about religion.i think i'll face some difficulties if i were to go overseas and people will ask,what's my race.and if i proudly say i'm an Islam,people may back off from me because their minds will branched out to terrorism,violence and aggression.since,the chaos over what pope benedict said about us(thanks ya!)and how the muslim reacted,people will definitely think us that way.really.i think muslim should not go really really mad over what that pope said.if you see,our Prophet Muhammad is always in calm if critisism is thrown at him.so,i think muslim need to be like that.but,i don't blame muslim cause is the same if i verbally attacked your parents,you'll be in rage right?

*this post is not intended to discriminate any race.

okay goodbye.i have few minutes left till break fast!

weekends are here!

but,only to be spend on studying.i can't wait for it to end cause i'm going shopping with my sisters.sarah and masy.promise ya,wait for my exams to end!

anyway,yesterrday prison break episode was fantastic.guys,a must-watch.plus,the guy such a hottie.

exams coming.exams coming.

not well prepared.not well prepared.

i've been slacking around and dammit,exams are next week.let me tell you.this week has been quite stressful,till i swear my armpit hairs can grow white.but in the first place,i don't have any.whatever it is,i'm panic but it makes no different cause i love to procastinate.procastinate.and if i'm not satisfy with the results,i get angry.hah,so the masturah.

when you feel tired or nearing to sleep,one method.participate in the lesson!i've been quite responsive during classes.i think very responsive cause i love shouting (very loudly)answers be it right or wrong.this helps me feel tad awake.go try.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SIS MASY!

and you're what?20?growing older sis.

hope you achieve your dream of having a guess watch.ahaha!soon right :D

and tell your bf to constantly remind himself of the date of your b'day.hehe.

HADY IS THE SINGAPORE IDOL!!

hoho,i'm so freaking out!jumping up and down.throwing punches in the air.

HAPPY FASTING TO ALL MUSLIMS OUT THERE!

time flies by,and in no realisation,hari raya's coming!

and yeah,during this fasting month,shall we all be remembered that there are people out there who have absolutely no food at all.so let us feel blessed that we only have to fast for half-a-day and appreciate for what we have.cause what we have is what some people doesn't have.

anyway,my brothers are mean just now during sahur.i was reading the Holy Quran and they saw me reading it.so they started to tease me by saying,"act alim sey" for few times.i was close to giggling but i put up a front and continued.then si cina sepet said,"aleh,bila puasa nak alim,before puasa zalim!"

alamak,ni budak nak kene tamparan masturah tau!but it's true.ahaha,of course huh i wanted to do more of good deeds during fasting month cause it's a sacred month for all muslims out there.i have refrain from few things like:
gossiping,cheating,lying,swearing and rude to older ones.but i hope to continue from refraining all those things even after the ramadhan.insyaallah.

haiya,today SI!but,i have no reason to skip tarawih.i don't think my parents allow me!nevermind.bear in mind,akhirat is more important!

i get pissed when the phones rings,especially when i'm alone.ahh!

weekends are here!studying all the way.go go go go mas!!

and and,puasa's coming in two days time!great,superbly great.

btw,this post is senseless.raahh,feeling _____.

yesterday,i merely gave up on revising for maths cause i was doing trigo and i'm totally sucks at it and it seems that i'm having great dificulty doing that topic.so,i tried another topic which is mensuration and somehow trigo was also related and so,i gave up.gave up,dammit.

and the strange thing was that,everytime i was revising,my stomach always groans for food.godammit,it was quite annoying.

and and,i'm on a stress mode.i'm not ready to take exams especially combined science.chemistry is getting tougher.oh gosh.my papers are all based on o levels.



i think i'm about to have a nervous breakdown.

oh,mummy!

ps:seriously,this post is like so whiney!

you know what?

i think when i'm blogging,i'm like talking to myself.whatever it is,who cares!

anyway,feeling really jubilant but at the same time,worn out.

cause,i'd a happy day.thanks to soccer.yeah,half of my class played soccer.it was really fun,like duh?soccer supposed to be fun fun fun!the fun-nest thing was that,we played with our bare feets.i love getting dirty.especially when the field is still wet due t0 the rain.and and,i scored 2 goals!eh,for once must be proud.heh!

and and,yesterday i already bought my baju raya.ahaha,kiasurism.i'm like really glad cause i do not have to hunt for my stuffs during puasa.though,i was reluctant to buy that baju as it was really really expensive.wasting ah.however,i like it.it's nice.

and and and,i can't wait for 22 december!cause my paternal family already planned on getting the same chalet.yeayness!

lastly,(i swear i'm going to end)i got pissed off cause i'm so disorganized today.all my homework are not done and i didn't bring my map for the geog test!and i'm late today but got away from detention.trick ah!

basically,i'm writing unnecessary stuff.
okay,i'm off!

i reckon that i'll be wasting my weekend on not studying.i'm going for kenduri later at evening and probably going geylang tmr.i wouldn't want to find baju raya during fasting.

and gosh,i hate when teachers started to rush us.it's not fair.my class still had few chapters to study before end-of-year-exam and ton of tests to do since the through-train classes had no common test.anyway,i've received my result for term 3.it was okay though.i still failed my maths by 2 bloody freaking marks!and yet,the best news,i finally finally passed my pure bio.i got 59/100.heh.

anyway,went to had dinner at shidah's house last night.cik hamzah kept calling me 'susu' for no apparent reason.bik jun said that i smelled like susu.ahah!what a joke.i think i stink!

sorry,it's pretty much long post.i wouldn't care if nobody read.
anyway,yesterday,i can't believed what my eye had witnessed.when he saw me and the girls,he turned his back,probably feeling guilty or something.i hate when people started to become so influenced by their friends.don't mind the good ones.i mean the bad ones.it's like people don't have any pendirian,no stand in their own life,not in control of their own life.must have a friend to turn you into this or that.i mean if your friends influenced your sense of fashion,or music or lifestyles is probably okay but if you are so influenced by your friends and started to lose your own moral values that your parents cultivated on you or your own beliefs that you have been holding on,then it's not okay.it's not not okay.seriously lah people.when can you become the king of your life and decide for yourself.

alright.i have to go.

alright alright!
waiting to buka.let me see.it's 6.45pm.around 15 minutes left!yeah,i fast today.and fasting makes me weak.it's okay though.

well,i've been indulging myself with this goddamn awesome book.thriller book by the way.i love james patterson.this book is about a rapist lah.so,this phrase made me laughed in the bus:

"Women nowadays were demanding that men accept the fact that female biological clocks were ticking....well,with men,it was their biological cocks were ticking.
Constantly ticking,those cocks.

........................

Tick cocks."

AHA!

a rapist point of view.rapist is a scary man.shivers.

hello y'all!
anyway,feel pumped up to go to school tmr!but one thing,i havent did my chem worksheet and didn't study for the test.ohh!wth!i can't remember which chapter to study!nevermind,i do it in bus tmr.


anyway,anyway,i went to the beach today!well,bad luck.it rained.worst-er luck.it rained when we're still in the lorry!so we had to use canvas to cover ourselves which didn't helped much.lucky Allah was being nice cause it stopped raining.so we played some ball games at the beach.it was fun!with the neigbours!

ahaha,useless canvas.

last thing.
i really wanna this arwen's necklace from lotr.can be find at esplanade.damn it,i wanna i wanna i wanna i wanna this!

heh,secretly taken.nice right.but i don't know how much it cost.

alrightey!

alrightey.
went out yesterday with my galfriends.it was really tiring but yet we had fun!
so check out the pictures.not just any pictures huh.classic!






and yes.i dressed differently.it's not girlish.glamourous is the word.wth!

emo scene.

me:"jana,i'm sorry"
jana:"fuck off!"
aha!




coolest washroom ever.classic!


faking it or what?

it's looks real right.

thanks to my babes jana and fizza for the time!i enjoyed it very much!



okay.goodbye cause homework yet not done.

ps:ideas aren't supposed to be snatch.

You know,some people have difficulties controlling their body.
it is called a tourette syndrome where children are not able to control their body movements.they either blink their eyes repeatedly,or shake their heads without having the control to stop shaking it.they even have no control over what the words that they say like this kid who keeps saying the word 'coffee' and 'medal' for quite sometime or either just do any movements repeatedly without having the power to stop doing it so.and this happened like every few minutes or something.when i heard this story,i was really overwhelmed by the fact that they have to live that way.they told that they were being teased by people.it is so sad and i really really admired their courage to go out there to the world and be normal though some may see it as abnormal.

and still,people like us are still not appreciative enough.

and yeah,i have a soft spot to those special children.

can't believe that the star of the 'crocodile hunter' steve irwin got killed by stingray.so unexpected.at least i thought if he were to get killed,it will be a crocodile eating him alive or something but just otherwise.

nevermind about that.

brother getting excited.cause cause this was their first time at esplanade.oh,poor thing.

heh.anyway,pictures quality not good cause i used hp camera.so-not-promising-pictures ya.

you know what,i think my one whole will be wasted on absolutely nothing.i can foresee that.oh gosh.

feel like going out tmr.hmm.

went out with my family yesterday.
to town and the esplanade.

and,i got pissed off halfway especially while i'm at lucky plaza.i would never every go to that freaking place anymore.my family were finding a place to eat so my sister suggested a food center at lucky plaza.the place was goddamn packed with foreign people!particularly the maids!they were talking loudly and too many of them.how i wish i could just say,"well hello,do you think this is your country?,get away!"yeah,lucky these maids only know how to conquer lucky plaza.imagine if they started to conquer esplanade!die die.

so on the way to esplanade,felt much better.headed off to lau pa sat to eat dinner.satay for our tummies.but i don't really favour satay.i could only eat a few sticks.

nevermind still,i love family-outings.yeah,i can't wait for the upcoming holidays.insyaallah,our plan is on!insyaallah.

well,pictures later.

as for now,i wanna say good job to the self-proclaimed girl.

come on mam,i'm hungry :

surprise surprise,i did brownies again.hah,i don't why but i kinda enjoyed doing it.i ate tons today for dinner only.i ate goreng pisang with gula,brownies and mee kuah.no wonder,i'm getting fat!nevermind,it's okay.

anyway,i can't stand staying at home sometimes without absolutely nothing to do.it irks me so i need to do something at least.so,so i went to lot 1 to do some necessarym shopping.aha,i bought some stuff from popular cause my sister gave me a 10 bucks voucher.probably going out tmr,the day after tmr,the day after tmr,tmr.whatever.but one thing for sure,i need to diligently study for my eoy which is coming in one month time.

anyhow,happy belated b'day to my dear dearest cousins,syakirah!see you during 16 sept okay.btw,i'm so jealous.your shoe is a beauty.i want that shoe too!

okay,my update for today is pretty boring.and so do today.

bye.

HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY!

especially to all the teachers have taught me!
you guys are great.

and,i almost wanted to wish mrs luah a happy teacher's day but i was so hesistant.remembering what i've done to her made me so guilty.i know i'm a bad student.

so teacher's day celebration was not bad.my girlfriend up there is so chio.fizza,you know what i'm talking bout.her class was dancing to a song from high school musical.4/8 was trying to do a mcr video clip-alike.whatever it is,i enjoyed it.the sad thing is,cross country cancelled cause of the rain!while everyone was really overjoyed,i was tad disappointed.i wanna run okay with that kind of weather and was planning with fizza to get top 25(trying not to be so confident).

okay,holidays here.planning to spend my time studying alone at national library.ahah,see if it works!

aha,i looked fugly.no,doesn't got to do with my self-esteem.but i think i looked kinda not-too-fat-not-too-slim!yeah!ahaha,lameness got its way.

and yeah,he's got a girl :(

i just did the unexpectable.took up all my courage and guts.

So,DEAR GOD hear my prayers.

ahh,should be doing some mugging but!but!there's always a but!

anyway,anyway,i think my confrontation to lala was quite offensive but hey!i'm pointing out something and i don't keep my opinions sometimes so lala,sorry ya!

anyhow,the irony of the coming trend is:malay guys getting themselves a chinese girlfriend.i'm not against it!but i think malay girl tak laku anymore!ahaha!which means malay girls are not selling fast.i think that's the definition.anyway,blame the malay girls.they are turning into something yucky but not me!probably chinese girls are more promising?who cares about malay guys not checking out malay girls.this create social cohesion btw the chinese and the malays.but what about the indians?easy.malay girls,go find an indian boy.how about that?this will all build a racial harmony that the govt have been dying for!

as for me,i guess i better check out ang moh guys.isn't that better?don ya think so.

ps:this post doesn't have any intentions of discriminating any races.have some love everyone :)

hoho.start of the week,i'm late.wth,blame on the french fries.aha,i was savouring my breakfast.i hate to rush when i'm eating okay.

anyway,i can't wait to watch siti persandingan.excuse me,the gown that she's gonna wear is from italy.and her wedding ring is so beautiful.the diamond is goddamn huge!so my dear-soon-to-be in 10-years husband must get me that huge diamond ring.but i think marrying a old guy is not bad especially if the old guy looks like hugh jackman.that would be hmm,great.

speaking of old guys,believe it or not,i think i think i wanna date a man that is older than me probably 1-2 years older.aha!nevermind,this is just my thinking.it's not gonna happen after i finish with my o level.ahah,i still think 16 years old is too young to have a boyfriend.sorry if i offend those guys who has a relationship at this kind of age.it's not that i don't believe that it won't work out but to me is just too young.17 sounds okay.aha,i bet i'm one of those obit-thinking girl.

BUT STILL,i check out for younger guys.so beware!

yeah,went to gym yesterday cause i kinda miss doing workout.but funny thing is,me and jana talked more than we exercise!

went home,i made brownies again with mam.it was kinda cool baking brownies with mam and talking about stuff.wanna do it again.probably,i'll try to make raspberry cheesecake during the holis!

so,the brownies were meant for my cousins.we had,what kak marlina said,'our grandmother death anniversary'.we had kenduri and baca yasin.so,all throughout,the girls cramped in one room and we listened to kak marlina story about her thailand trip and kak ana talking about her persian cats.it was cool and we had birthday cake for auggy babies.a bit of sabotaging but it was really funny.the food was yummy cause we ate ala teban style.which is asam pedas with the really damn spicy sambal belacan!

anyway,here goes the pictures.

syafinaz said that her boyfriend is fauzi laily.aha!
hoho,i love you!

see my fat bulging cheeks!

alright,sorry for the lack of updates.

wait,why should i feel sorry for?

okay,contradiction.

anyway,i've been pretty busy lately and quite in a mess,so there goes the reason.i don't even feel like updating nowadays.hoho,pictures below.

school's been pretty stressful cause i was mugging for my bio common test.the only common test i had.so,really need to work hard cause my eoy also depends solely on that paper since mr leong rarely give my class any class test.

anyhow,my mind was quite in a mess.don't ask why.blame on my hormones.for whatever reason.

i got told by jana about something.ahaha,sec2s are kinda childish.i've read some of their blogs out of boredom.they only thing that they talked about is school,bitchings and love!especially love where they get mamadrama and take love oh-so-seriously.oh come on!you're are so young and yet so mushy when it comes to love.no,it's not that i'm against their point of views on love but it's kinda over-dramatic.i'm telling you,when you think back about all these stuff that gotta to do with love,you'll laugh your ass off.just like when i'd a crush on that zul.ahaha!i think you can get real serious with love when you understand its true meaning.anyway,why am i talking about love!

anyhow,there's this sec 2 girl.well,i don't like to bitch people at blog cause it's so coward but i wanna share my incident happened with her.cause of incident=a misunderstood staring.i was looking at something else at far distance and that girl was at the place where i'm looking.she thought that i was staring at her so she started to stare at me back.so,funnily i stared at her back.i asked syaqilah to join the fun.she got it all wrong.i'm not even looking at her.unless she's goddamn pretty.

so,that's all.ahah!pretty stupid!shall stop typing,and show some pictures.
ccks food and fun fair carnival!my class making milo of carribean.ahaha,what a name!and cup-corn-cup.

my malay class stall selling varieties of food!
it's been long time since i've seen them performed.and yeah,they sang the wonders song.ah,memories of us (exclude amin) jamming flushed.i think i should replace the vocalist.ahaha!

cousins!

mam sarah with me.

okay that's all man!

baking brownies was really cool.ahah,indeed it was really a great get-together with my malay class.thanks to our mr khairul anuar for treating us drinks!aha,really, he impressed me with his cutlery skills.after the whole process of making brownies,we're sitting down with cikgu laughing and just talking.oh gosh,i'm really gonna miss them!i can't wait for tmr too.it sure will be tiring.and after the whole food and fun fair thing,i'll be heading to pasir ris.oh gosh but nvm.i think it will be a gathering.yeay!finally meet up with my cousins and have some girly talk with them.probably,cik enab want to announce that abg aj or didik will be getting marry or something.woho,i'll get to meet his cousin.the one that i always eye for.hehe.

alright,wait for my update on sunday and let the pictures do its talking.

okay.

tmr,i'm going to make some brownies with cikgu.ahaha,preparing for CCKSS FOOD AND FUN FAIR.doing brownies in a name of charity!how awesome is that.but to me,doing brownies in name of my stomach.aha,whatever it is.i can't wait for saturday.i have two stalls.one is my class and the other is my malay class.but i'm still not convinced that my class able to do it cause their monitress won't be around!and that's me lah.

alrightey.i'm out to buy my current craze,seasons ice lemon tea!

anyway.i got something real important to say.

last sunday,i read an article in sunday times about teenagers getting abortion more frequently than normal.then,during ss ms ibaidah talked about ways of aborting your unborn child,a book that she read.suddenly,there's a rage within me and now,i despised the idea of aborting your unborn infant cause it is cruel.very cruel mind you.

there's a method where the doctors put the scapel through the uretus and diced the foetus and scraped the portion off the uretus.another recent method is the vaccuum like thing.it's almost similar to the previous method but same cruelity.lastly,is to posion the baby which lead to death and deliver the baby dead.everything is so cruel and i cannot imagine why a person would do that.baby is blessing and people treat it like something like a thing.where you can just throw away when you don't need it.they didn't realise that what they did was/is equivalent to murder.probably much more worst than a normal murder.morever,people are aborting their child more and more and did it more than once,shamelessly.

so,i urge to those you can't control your desire,looking for pleasure,quenching your desired thirst or in other words wanna have sex,please use contraceptives.it's so easy.guys,just put that goddamn condoms okay.if you say there's no real pleasure in using condoms,i don't know what to say!condoms is quite convenient and pretty cheap okay.(ahaha,i used to touch it before cause my guy friend bought it and can even fill in water okay.ahaha.it's so funny)

okay,that's all.

and,thanks to cikgu.she gave some encouraging words just now.makes me wanna cry.it's true.we live in this world to win,not to lose.

and and i did something bad.aha,it's like i don't have integrity but i feel so pleased!and i shared my idea to teck kuang.ahaha!!i wanted to write here but since the principal said that they go around to their student's blog changed my mind.bloody hell,like they got nothing better to do.

i badly wanted to watch fireworks today but but

my parents are out.
masy's out.
sarah's out.

so,i'm the only one that have to take care of my brothers!
why me!damn it.

i hate saturday cause it's really bloody boring.if possible,i would go out every saturday but i don't want my mam to think that i'm turning into masy.

nevermind,i swear i'll go out next saturday cause i have plans already.

anyway people,thanks for the tag!

now,i'm thinking of what to do after this.hmm.
no,i can't read anymore.i've been reading since 11 till 3.my eyes and head is hurting me.

okay bye bye.

i got back my malay results back.

hmm,it's quite disappointing for me though i don't have any high expectations for myself.i don't expect to get a1 but i expected a b3 and wella,i got one.

and,it's sucks for me.when ms sim said that the distinction rate dropped,i was oh-oh.when i looked at my results,i was so heartbroken and i cried!haha!

anyway,i should be really thankful cause at least i got a b3 and i can retake malay for three times if i'm still not satisfied with the grade i got.and yeah,i got merits for oral.aha,i really didn't expect that!i thought i could just pass oral.

by the way,congrats to those who got what they wanted.fiza,i'm so happy for you!

the funny thing was when i stepped to the class,they were like mas how much you get?they all had this concern looks.by the way,thanks to people and teachers for giving cheering me up.

special thanks to cikgu fazilah.nampaknyer,we'll be seeing each other again!

another funny thing was that,i called my mam and she laughed at me for having b3.i think it's her fault cause she said that i would get b3 and i really did.you know lah how cabul mother's mouth can especially if it's on friday. ahaha.

i'll always remember this DUTY,not in random for DOA,USAHA,TAWAKAL,YAKIN.
i've prayed.i've put in efforts.i have confidence.and now,i should really accept.

gosh,i made this whole post so dramatic.
and this is not even the actual o level results!

hmm,still quite sad about it.
and i got a bad bad migrane after the results and i vomited at home.ahaha,after effects?

AN INTRODUCTION (NATIONAL DAY POST AFTER THIS)

Hi!I'm Masturah Saad.
And i'm growing fat and fatter everyday.
But i'm not loving it.
I'm a perfectionist but please
don't remind me that nothing
in this world is perfect.

I'm a schoolgirl.
And i can't wait to get out from school.
Cause i think my world is circling
around with studying.it's pretty boring.
I can't wait to venture to the next level.
And relive my dreams of becoming something something.

Sometimes when i'm bored,i'll read books.
While some may say books are boring,i'll say
the otherwise cause we people are different.
Other than that,I love watching tv.
But,fret not.i'm not influenced with all
those West culture.i'm okay with my own.

Everyday,i think i'm blessed.
With great family and life.
I would never ask for more though secretly,
i wished i could have more money.
But i think people nowadays are unappreciative.
They never thank enough and sucha stuck up people.

Well,i'm afraid of the future.
Cause i don't there how it will turn out.
But i think this world will be crumbling soon.
My religion say so.

So,i bid goodbye.
I hope you like what you read.
And if you don't,
I don't give a damn care!

so,

happy belated birthday singapore.

was out yesterday with the neighbours to catch the fireworks.we're at the marina south,quite far from the kallang stadium but still i can see the fireworks.it wasn't what i expected it to be.like seriously,the fireworks at the esplanade is much more better.

and the most ridiculous thing was that,we're in lorry and waving at this bunch of chinese teenagers.they waved back and did the unexpected.since there was traffic jam and the lorry is moving slow,they chased our lorry cause they wanted to take a ride with us.ahaha,wth.


had our light dinner here



proceeded to this mosque after that

by the way kan,ada makam siapa entah kat dalam tu.

camera sucks!

from marina south.

i think this is the bestest picture of a firwork cause my cam just sucks esp during night.

proceeded to ali cafe at geylang to have our late dinner.and on our way there,we saw mr president bungalow house.no,he did not stay at the istana!and and i told you my cam sucks. oh ya,i'm eating tom yam by the way.and i'm wearing specs for the first time when i'm out cause you know,i'm watching tv lah.i mean,there's a tv in the cafe.

ahaha,unnecessary details.
heck.

anyway,results tmr.wish me luck okay?i'm so worried!

alrightey!

national celebration was really awesome right.

so first thing first.i was on of the MC at the very last minute and it was quite sucks initially.i asked the school to do our own cckss wave but they practically ignored me.so,i'm like shiok sendiri but when i asked the sec 4s,they responded. phew,i thought i could lose my face anytime.they were so unenthusiastic initially and were a boring audience!

so,when i was off stage i went with the sec 4s.they were so enjoying themselves,standing singing train thing waving and we did our own sec 4&5 wave!they were so cool huh.gosh,i'll miss this batch okay.cause the rest of the batch is useless.some people are just boring lah.people having fun,they sitting there do nothing.

and it's so difficult to entertain bunch of boring unentertained people.

so thanks to those responded to the mcs.the sec 4&5 and the malay sec 2 guys.ahaha,they're cool!

and and i don't have any pictures lah.

and yeah,i can't wait for the next religious class cause that is when i can play taiti!right under the uztaz's nose.ahaha.and sakinah is going to teach me how to play bridges,poker and hearts when i'm already an expert.

okay,school's tmr!

and this friday is o level mother tongue result!i can feel the nerves already!

alright.

i went out yesterday with sarah my sister.i was accompanying her to do her facial treatment at bugis and then we headed down to marina square to do shoopping!and and finally we managed to find some clothes at fox.right after that,we had our dinner.thought of eating at pizza hut but the place is goddamn pack.so went to eat at ljs and that was where i met the stalker who claims i'm his stalker.ahaha

anyway,when i went out from marina,there was so many bloody people.i was wondering why cause i don't know there's fireworks lah but i guess it must be the fireworks that people are jakun about.people were sitting outside marina,along esplanade,around merlion and in front of fullerton.so,i was in front of fullerton.not a great view though but still managed to see the fireworks.absolute beautiful.i was like wow and wow.so,didn;t manage to get any pictures!i didn't bring my digicam and sister's hp is flat!

okay.my post is kinda boring but heck.

i wanna see fireworks again next week!

and yeah,my sister told me that the movie is at 19 of aug and if i have no one to go with,i'll go with my sister and so called bro in law?aha!

so now i'm free.

and i wanna talk about the bloody singapore idol i watched yesterday.oh gosh,singapore particularly the teens are superbly stupid.how could they even vote for someone like jasmine and joakim who can't bloody sing.they are monotonous and have that limited amount of talent.gosh,this isn't The Singpore Cutest Idol.and if you consider joakim cute,i tell you, you better have a look at my ass which i found it more cuter.i was really furious by the fact that people nowadays don't even care about talent.you have the bloody pretty face,it's enough.everybody judge everything by its cover.it shows how shallow your depth of thinking.such a sad case.

okay.i know i get too emotional.ahah.girls right..you need to understand.
before i go,i show you something

AHAHA.my brother is ugly but her sister is not.(eh,did i specidically say which sister?)his eyes is so sepet and his nose is equally to a pig.haha.

alright.try to find time to update.

so,weekends are here!
yeah baby!

so,bye cause oprah's now.

shit,i'm craving for ice lemon tea.

and and,who wanna go watch a movie under the moonlight with me?we'll watch x-men and mission impossible i guess.nooo,not making this up.for real.gosh,it must be romantic for any couples.

so,

any guys?

no?

well.

ahaha,disappointed or what mas?!

something to share.

I Crave Your Mouth, Your Voice, Your Hair

Don't go far,not even for a day
Don't go far off, not even for a day, because -- because -- I don't know how to say it: a day is long and I will be waiting for you, as in an empty station when the trains are parked off somewhere else, asleep.

Don't leave me, even for an hour, because then the little drops of anguish will all run together, the smoke that roams looking for a home will drift into me, choking my lost heart.

Oh, may your silhouette never dissolve on the beach; may your eyelids never flutter into the empty distance. Don't leave me for a second, my dearest,

because in that moment you'll have gone so far I'll wander mazily over all the earth, asking, Will you come back? Will you leave me here, dying?

hmm,romantic poetry done by the famous poet writer.