yesterday,for about after 15 years,finally,i got to see and went back to my late grandfather 's kampung which is now named as 'Kebun Kami'.

well,it doesn't even look like kebun at all cause the kampung is really really old and i do not know whether the uncles would want to do something about it.so,the kampung is at johor and the place is quite ulu and surrounded by forest and animals.once they said that they saw a babi hutan!
you see,is it very very old and they had to demolish the living area which is in the middle cause there's a lot of anai-anai.

you know,i got to experienced really how it is to live in kampung,rural place.there's no tv or even a fan and it was really hot in a day.everybody helped out in cleaning the area,like sweeping away the dead leaves.
yes,it is surrounded by forest.

bandar girl doing kampung job.

irah

you know what,when i sat on this,i fell!it was so humiliating cause my back was on the ground and my legs are dangling above.no,i wasn't that heavy okay!!


after that,my cousins headed down to have seafood.yum.
kiddos.


okay,bye everyone.

so,yesterday spent the day with jana and lin at Ikea and queensway mcdonald.

embarassing moment #1 at mcd
my butt was sitting only on half of the chair and so,i was trying to pick up this plastic bag on the floor without bending my body and i don't how,but i fell off from the chair and hit the other chair where all my stuff dropped on the floor.yes,some people were grinned or laughed at me.hmph.

embarassing moment #2 still at mcd.
there was this handle behind my head on where i seat.i was laughing and laughing and moved my head to the back and hit the handle.yes,the people behind me saw it but i was so paisey to look at them.


alright.today was FANTASTIC.cause,i 've learnt a new sport today which was inline skating in school.i never skate before but i tried and tried,and now,i can skate!anyway,the helmet stinks like hell.then,lala jana and me played catching.it was really funny cause me and lala both fell down and i landed on my buttocks.tell you,it was damn damn painful but worth it of course.

school just now was a total torture.oh gosh,i was dying with boredom and all five of us desprately wanted to go home.so,we came up with few ideas that was totally unpractical.my idea was to wait for a car to enter school and then ran towards the open gate.jana's idea was to go to the back of the school and find a hole or something.dumb,hah.

so,i just told them to walk straight to the open gate since there's a lot of people coming in and out.i was asked by the guards to stop but i just ran out.heh.stupid stupid school.

went to orchard with jana after that to catch step-up.i rate it 3 out of 5.i finally get to see in lido 1 which is the biggest of all and only a few of people were watching.we sneaked kfc in and i bloody thought that i was caught by this guy cause he's pointing at me.so,i rushed to the door but it can't be open.i found out that he just wanted to show me the right door.dumb.

then we proceeded to bugis library and borrowed so many books.you see,i have a habit of borrowing a lot of books but not all i read.


this is when we got bored.we took the cleaner's stuff and play with it.okay,
please don't look at masturah's legs.i said don't look.don't ask why!

you see,where can you find such a good student like me?where?where?!
okay.in the lift.duh!

and as promised,did i promised you?okay,whatever.Baby Danish.oh cute!

and as promised,i end this post with my compo.i was very reluctant to put this up cause it's not that good and i was rushing so that i can watch ANTM.so,don't smirk and say,"not that good lah!".i was having hard time coming with this topic cause i don't want to misinterpret the question.okay,i'm done talking or typing.



'DREAMS'

These dreams kept playing in my mind. Rewinding it again and again, like an old piece of film. Just like when you kept playing and playing your favourite movie. I just woke up. The weather was bright and while people are being grateful, I just could not care less about how wonderful the weather is. All I was concerned was, the dreams. The endless dreams have been occurring in my sleep for three straight days. I have no idea whether these dreams meant something but it feels surreal.Oh gosh. Will something like that happen in my life? These silent thoughts are clouding my mind, not even a drop of rain, I could pour.

I know it may sound silly, but these dreams tell me a story. I dreamt on the first night that I was accidentally hit by someone in the streets while on my way to work. Is not just someone, is someone whom is the most charming guy I have ever seen. Well, in my dreams, he apologized and looked at me in a very weird way, a way that a guy never looks at me.

His features were striking. He got a baby blue eyes, neat eyebrows and sexy-looking eyes that will melt your every single organ. His nose was sharp and oh boy, his lips is even sexier than Angelina Jolie’s.Startlingly, he asked for my number and being dumbstrucked, I gave him. I know it may sound like a 16-year-old dreams and a very unlikely thing to happen. I thought so too. I initially dismissed the childish dream I had in my mind.

To my astonishment, the second night, I dreamt about that guy again. The very same guy who asked for my number. But this time, the guy and I were having a fantastic date. It felt so good actually. I never had a dream that I totally enjoyed so much. The third night, it happened again. Oh my, this brings a jolt to my heart. I was actually dreaming about the guy and me holding a wedding. Of course, it is our wedding.

And now, I am feeling speechless. It is just some stupid dreams I had. I mean, I am 25 this year and I know my hormones is knocking so, I guess that should be the reason why I kept having these dreams. I sighed audibly and got ready for work. I smiled to myself.Overall, it is just dreams and look at me, who wants to be with me. I am nerdy, bespectacled woman who has unattractive features and figure.

Now, I am on my way to work. Just forget about all those and get back to reality girl, I thought to myself. And just as I was walking, I was hit by someone. A guy, who has that same baby blue eyes and sexy lips.

"I’m sorry", he apologized sympathetically.

He stared at me, looking straight in my eyes.

"Hey, can I have your number?" he asked unashamedly.

Oh my God. Is this happening?

so how was it?how?!

before i start,here's a picture for you guys to see.

Baby Naufan.

oh,isn't he's cute.

actually,i have more pictures of him and Baby Danish but i'll post it later.

lately,my updates are kinda blatantly uninteresting.sorry guys,i'm busy watching princess hours at youtube.hell no,i ain't as crazy over the hot korean guys as my galfriends but i felt so dull surfing through people's blog and reading about their boring lives(HAHA!as if mine's not),i resolved to watching that korean series.after that,i guess i'll be searching for movies at youtube.i never thought that youtube can be very useful.hmm.

anyway,i have not even touch on my homework.yeah,i have to write a compo and i picked 'Dreams' as my topic which is this year o level topic.the title is very appealing.i think i'll post the compo after i've done writing.

yesterday night's weather was really lovely.i saw kids running under the drizzle with bare feets.i was amazed actually cause their happiness is really noticeable.ahah,i wish one day i can do the same thing as them.i just love the breeze on my skin and smell the rain.

i'd just had a nice mee soto meal and ice lemon tea for lunch and also a chat with mam.

anyway,she said that the students should have a thought for the teachers who had to sacrifice their time to teach us although they shouldn't have been teaching us right now.i think she's kinda right.

as for me,i was initially quite serious about going back to school to study but,i haven't been coming early to class.usually,i'm 40 minutes late and doesn't really be attentive in class.of course huh,who wants to study when everyone was in the mood for holis.

okay,whatever.i can't wait for next week cause me and the gals are going to catch a movie.

alright.practically,this is a useless update.

lack for updates.

anyway,i've been very busy with raya you know.

saturday-open house for my paternal side.
open house for my neighhbours at 11pm
proceeded to cik osman's house till 1.30am.

sunday-open house for my maternal side.
raya-ing around bb and teban
went back home and raya-ing with neighbours till 12am

monday-raya-ing with friends which was rather boring.
raya-ing with neighbours till 12am.

tuesday-school.came very late at 9.00am
went to marina square after school all by myself to get a new shirt at
U2 and bought some candies.
raya-ing with neighbours at night till ____.

so basically,i'm dead beat.i can feel every exhuastion in every depth of my skin.
i think this is my last week of raya.i can't afford to go out anymore.

okay,some pictures.

at my house.

baby aiman faruki.

__________

this was last wednesday.and lala still havent send me the pictures!!!!!!!hmmph!



okay.this was at fox.gosh,i need to get that checkered blouse.but dammnit,must wait for the xmas sale.

hari raya with friends yesterday was exciting!i was really happy you know to go out together with friends.when mas it's happy,she starts to talks a lot!sorry guys if i'm too talkative or hyperactive!heh,you should know me.i'm sorry for making a scene at dinah's house.hoho.you got to accept the fact that everyone has its own fears.anyway,here's the pictures.

dinah

lala

salihah.

lin.

hoho.the so called bujang lapok.

salihah's house!

eh,can someone slap that girl in grey.

yaammm-pau!

ahaha.zul buang terbiat.wear shades!


ahaha.you see,aisyah's feet!spoiler ah!

i just wasted my time in school.

i came very late to class cause i overslept.hehe.i had only 10 minutes of lesson for the whole freaking day.the physics teacher didn't come to class and malay was after that which i do not need to attend.so,i wasted me time watching the guys play takraw and guffawing at someone.hoho!

anyway,this is really nice pictures taken by my cousin's spouse.he used nikon camera,the huge one and turned out to be really pretty.
this is really candid and i loved it.i was asking the girls to look that way.
wow.the contrast and everything seems so perfect.

compared to my digicam,it's useless.

and,i should accompany my mam to orchard just now.i practically waste my time.phew,i finally borrowed some books.hmm,thinking of going out tmr but i'm a lazy bummer.

and and,i really can't wait to go SHOPPING!but,i have to wait for christmas sale!i bet people can go hallelujah!(just use the word for fun okay.)

alright.

i'm so exhausted after going raya during weekends.

and,i just had my malay o's.it was fine but i dread for the results.please,i wanna get distinction.

anyhow,i have more raya pictures!raya spirit you know.but still with my cousins.will try to update.hoho,for now all you'll be seeing is raya pictures.i guess there's more to come.this time with friends.ahh,can't wait!

2nd day

this was his expression when he found out that he lost his raya money.ah,padan muka kau.

see,perempuan tak senonoh.

you know what?my paternal side didn't get to book the chalet cause it's already full.so kinda disappointed and the trip with neighbours was also cancelled.hoho.hopefully,there are some other plans to fill up my december holis.don't expect me to stay at home and gain some more potential muscles.but i guess not cause sometimes i have no appetite.(surprise!how can someone like her not have appetite!)

anyway,only closed friends are invited to my house!sorry no extra people.haha!

you know what?

i spend practically my day lying around cause of the bloody cramps.such an extremely excruciating day.hurhur.

anyway,i feel kinda sad that the sec 4 guys are graduating.well,gonna miss fizza for sure and also haikal.yeah,i'm cool with him.i don't wanna hold anymore grudges.feel quite guilty though and thinking when i can see him again you know.he was a great friend and fizza is very nice.

gonna miss my malay class too.people like iman,ahmad,hilmi,zeid and the rest of course.i'll never forget you guys!

well,wish all the o level candidates all the best.

and monday is my first preparation to the start of o level next year.i'm kinda happy to go back to school and study cause i have absolutely nothing to do at home.

alright.back to tv.i've been watching tv eversince.

first of all,

i would like to wish all Muslims
SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI
and to all my family,friends and to those who know or known me,
aku mohon maaf jika aku terkasar bahasa,tersinggung
hati-hati kamu dan jika aku berbuat salah.

P.s:dalam hukum agama islam,wajib tau maafkan orang!

anyway,i'm so glad that i got to celebrate raya again this year.let me remind you that raya is not just about celebration.it's about celebration to those who have
achieved in fasting for a month and able to be learn the meaning of patience and hindered from any unnecessary desires.

as usual,the morning of raya is spent on praying.i am much overwhelmed as i listened to the khutbah given by the uztaz and able to feel the true meaning of takbir.thank god,alhamdullilah.i hope that i can be a better muslims.insyaallah.

seeking for forgiveness with family was rather a funny occasion than a sad melody.this results from my brother.he was like this,"aku minta maaf.aku sudah bertaubat." okay.here's the pictures taken at home.
iqmal yasin and hilman saufie.

hoho.posing you know.

mam and dad.

the 5 siblings.

gray theme for the kids and bronze for the couples.

hoho,blood cheeks.

went to my paternal side.ayah ngah and pak long was missing.and,and my camera sucks.i can only show some nicely outcome photos.the rest,i steal from my cousins and update later.alright.here it goes!
girl cousins!

boy cousins!

that's all the decent photos.will update more.

next stop was my maternal side.this time,camera was a bit better.cik esa family
didn't come to singapore this year.i kinda miss them.hoho.

not everyone was here lah.

and cik usof kept disturbing me about my contact lens!and abg didik was filming us with his big camera.haha,that moment was quite funny.nonsense lah my uncle.okay,off-side a bit.

heh.ilham my nephew!

i love them!

iqah

fizza

kinah

okay.that's all for now.for sure,will upload more whether you like it or not.hoho!

i was quite busy yesterday.lots of cleaning up to do.but,i'm tad lazy cause i hate household chores!huh,no potential of being a decent housewife!(heck,it doesn't matter now!)

anyway,i went to geylang with the neighbours yesterday after terwarih.it was 11pm when we started the engine.you know,i disliked geylang.that was my first time i've been there since ramadhan.so,we spilt and my family just wondering around,don't know where to go since we've bought almost all the raya stuff at a mall.i wanted to do henna but my father refused.damn!blah and blah,we went home by 2am.i hate some of the people there.wear tatto also want to celebrate hari raya!hell you go!

okay.i'm done blabbering!

first of all,i would like to thank to those who has wished me.thank you so much guys.you guys are great!

and thanks to girls for the b'day present.it was really cute.next time must remember to put it in a plastic bag!haha!

and million thanks to dad for giving me my dream swatch watch!i love it.

and lastly,happy birthday to myself :)

i got back my results.here,take a look.

English Paper 2 -62/100
Maths-54/100(yeay!i passed you know!)
Chemistry-74/100
Physics-58/100
Geog-70/100
Social Studies-78/100
Biology-45/120(ahaha!i failed so badly!)

pretty satisfied except for physics.damn,i studied hard for that but it's okay.

i bought contact lens already.and,my degree increased!200 on the left and 250 on the right.can you tell me how to prevent your degree from increasing?damn scared cause i think over the years it will shoot up till 300!

my friends were wishing me an advanced birthday wishes cause tmr no school.so thank you guys and thank you to fatin for the present.it was lovely!

and lastly,happy birthday denise!

okay,i was surfing on the internet,looking for the courses that i want if i get to polytechnic.

two courses in mind:mass communication and media and communication.

so,i started looking for its subjects requirements and also the cut-off-points.

AND,I'M SO BLOODY TAKEN ABACK!

CAUSE THE COP IS TOO OVERRATED!!

mass comm-10 points,english 1-2
media&comm-12 points,enlish 1-4

WAH!CAN DIE!
i absolutely don't think that i can make it but never give up.it's my dream you talking about!

so,i decided to look for some back-up options and found that business administration and business studies seems quite interesting cause i kinda like business and wanna be like donald trump.(HAHA!)the cop is more reasonable,i think is 15 and 16 each.

anyway,i thought the tourism studies in tp would be easy to get but shocked to know that the cop was or is 13 points.there will be more tourism studies at other polytechnics but i think the cop will around there.

and hell no,to engineering and sciences.probably the visit to sp tmr on engineering might might interest me.

what the hell.getting through poly nowadays aren't easy cause there's a lot of people wants to go poly instead of jc.mind you,we normal academic people has to compete with someone from express or even someone from independent,smart ass schools.poor me,i'd to work triple hard to get the course i want and smart ass students only work hard and they can get what they want.

i'm so inspired after watching the apprentince.they are so successful in life!nevermind,insyaallah i'll be more successful than them in akhirat.


anyway,click here http://www.sp.edu.sg/SPweb/appmanager/home/default?_nfpb=true&T9403617971145853666585_actionOverride=%2FcmsTools%2Fextension%2Fcontentlist%2Fmain%2Flink&_windowLabel=T9403617971145853666585&T9403617971145853666585nodepath=%2FBEA+Repository%2FFutureStudent%2FAdmission%2FJointAdmissionsExercise%2FintakesAndCutOffPointsLinks%2FcutOffPointsForFullTimeDiploma&_pageLabel=SP_FS_ADM_JAE_CICOP#DMC
go find the course you like and hope you''ll not be too surprised like me.

alright.

post-exams activities were such a bore!anyone with a decent mind wouldn't allow its studens to watch a bloody harmonica performance,trying to think that we, students might appreciate music!excuse me,if you showcase something more trend i would appreciate it!

exclude the movies lah.it was really fun since i'm a movie-freak.

and,we had ccks idol.HAHA!everything sucks but sure we enjoy some humour.stella and me was being rude.instead of listening to people singing,we sang for ourselves.anyhow,applause to the student who have the courage to be laughed at the whole school.okay,i know i'm rude!i've been embarassed like that too,so i know the feeling.

i got the school post-exams schedule.i was quite annoyed by the fact that the school has cross country on the second day of raya!!what the hell.it's kinda of biased.they(referring to authorities)should let the muslim have two days break.i remember,chinese new year,we had more off days.completely out of mind.i don't even think muslim people would come.who wants too!

anyway,i'm off.had to iron clothes cause i'm going terawih!
and it's 9 more days to raya!!!

EXAMS OVER!YEAY!

so for now,i'm absolutely free.

i'm pretty glad about the exams.it was manageable exclude maths paper 1.

anyway,i'm so frigging out that i have to come to school tomorrow.i mean,the school should give us one day off or something.i don't know what we'll be doing tomorrow.probably will be watching movies.

and good thing my sister bought some pirated vcds from johor.probably,i'll be renting vcds at laser flair.feel like watching the break-up.

yeah,i'm gonna do lots of watching and reading too.but libraries book are boring.i wish i could own that mph bookstore!

nithiya asked me whether to have any class outing during the holis.so,i'm cracking up some ideas of what to do.definitely not beach outing cause is kinda boring.escape theme park?bloody hell.spore has so limited places to go!

this is much a nonchalant update.

some yesterdays yesterdays yesterdays pictures.

ttk salihah and me!

i think that smile was a reluctant one!

oh my.

the haze is choking my delicate lungs.

the worst PSI so far was 140.i was back home at 1120pm and it was oh my.

bloody hell.they better stop burning trees.pity the environment huh!

and it's two weeks to hari raya!yeay!

alas,i have some time to blog.

been pretty busy with exams.

social studies,physics,maths paper 1 and english paper 1 down.

ANYWAY,WANNA SHOUT OUT TO LIN,A HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

and it's not hizam's b'day.how stupid of me to believe the guys.ahah!

okay.probably going to terawih.probably.cause mam wanted to listen to syarahan by ahmad dahwi.i guess it is.

this is much a boring post.

excuse me.my brain is draining me out.

HELLO OCTOBER!

this month,is my favourite month.
cause..
1.i'm turning 16.
2.Hari Raya on the 25th October.
3.marked the end of my sec 4.

okay.i don't have any school tmr!but still have to come for a short or probably long ss extra class.what sey!

and,it's one week of puasa!cool beans!

anyway,i watched Jejak Rasul 12.it was really wow for me.watch it if you guys have tv3 malaysian channel on sunday at 5pm.

i think i've decided what to do when holidays come.no!i'm not gonna work or something!

okay,should go back and finish doing physics tys.erghh.

so,here comes the new skin.

anyway,yesterday i read this article saying that for the SI,some people do not want another malay to win the competition.how biased can that be?so much for the govt wanting us to be social cohesive.you know what?i think no matter what,at the end of the day,you will definitely stand by your own race.doesn't matter if your race are in a right or wrong,you'll will stood by your own colour skin.hey,that's how it goes,i guess.let's not just say in singapore,other countries like US.some of the black and the white can't get along too.i told you,it's hard to be really really racial harmonise.

but put aside race.let's talk about religion.i think i'll face some difficulties if i were to go overseas and people will ask,what's my race.and if i proudly say i'm an Islam,people may back off from me because their minds will branched out to terrorism,violence and aggression.since,the chaos over what pope benedict said about us(thanks ya!)and how the muslim reacted,people will definitely think us that way.really.i think muslim should not go really really mad over what that pope said.if you see,our Prophet Muhammad is always in calm if critisism is thrown at him.so,i think muslim need to be like that.but,i don't blame muslim cause is the same if i verbally attacked your parents,you'll be in rage right?

*this post is not intended to discriminate any race.

okay goodbye.i have few minutes left till break fast!