Last Sunday- Buffet + Shopping with Cousins



















love you girls,can't wait for the next outing plus kak anez's wedding!

lets start of with cheers to the end of Term 1.

is petrified upon receiving a thong from Kat,especially in pink.

is happy upon receiving a thong from Kat.














awesome,awesome girlfriends.
"just kidding!"

school has started and we'll see how it turns out after 6 weeks.looking on a bright side,no autocad or 3d to do!save myself from the backaches of carrying a laptop :)

Oh,kiss me beneath the milky twilight
Lead me out on a moonlit floor,lift your open hand
Strike up the band and make fireflies dance
Silver's moon sparkling,so kiss me.

weekend had been great.

saturday- beach road,sarbat and singapore flyer with K.

sunday- lunch at sakura buffet and shopping with cousins.

aww,life has been good for the past 3 weeks.now,back to school.

i would lie if i say i'm not scared.i am scared.i am worried.i do not want feel anxious about this.after all,i have given everything and i do not want to be let down.i do not want to think that there will be other person better than you.i do not want to think that there will be a better person for you.waiting makes me anxious.you'll never know what will happen when you wait.

but i will not worry too much because in the end,i know whose love i should be in need of and He will not let me down.

unbelievably,i've been staying at home for straight four days.i was being a sloth at home,doing absolutely nothing(okay and some chores).since i was fasting for straight three days,i didn't get out of my bed for the most afternoon.i've been on facebook,surfing the net,watching ugly betty and some movies and reading basically.as much as i want to go out,i kinda prefer to stay in my bed.

anyway,le boyfriend is back to tekong.it makes me remember those times when he was still in camp,which was not that too long ago.i know things are going to be different after he ORD .i see so many changes in his life;his graduation,his post-grad,NS,ORD. and me,i'm still stuck in school.he is not the only one who has to adjust to changes.well,that's a part of relationship that i just begin to realise.

okay,i better stop.i don't know where is this heading.
have a great weekend,i think i will!

i had a good weekend.

friday- everyone was not at home by the time i was up.since i do not want to stay at home for the whole,i went out by myself to shop at town.it felt good shopping by myself,no one to worry about.well,i wasn't alone all the way though.met a friend after that.thank god i do not have to stay home by myself at night.it's depressing enough.

saturday- meet my four girlfriends.henderson waves,popeye at flyers,fireworks and double helix.great time as usual.especially the fireworks.

sunday-had my fav wanton mee and sugar cane at beach road with K.


one more weekend left and that's it.totally not looking forward for school.prays hard there is no 1:1 model scale.

okay i have to stop listening to glee's songs.i know i'm pathetic but that has been the music to my ears for the past months.it's not my fault you know,nowadays the songs we listen on the radio is too much.i can't stand some of the songs played and it's getting more rubbish-er every single day.you know you always hear people say they can't live without their music but i'm different.i can live without music.i don't bother to have mp3,i don't bother updating myself to what's new,i don't bother downloading songs and i've recently stopped listening to my music player on my phone.but i do appreciate music sometimes,but i guess i'm not into music like i do.

i know it's only the 6th day out of my 3 weeks of break but i'm getting bored now.
oh no.

okay i know i have to start on my journals and intech.sorry guys for reminding.hehehe.

I'm forever Yours,
Faithfully.

this 2 weeks has not been a great week.i don't know why i was feeling emotional and it's definitely not about school.i can't blame on my PMS.being a girl or a woman is not easy.our emotions are so unstable.one moment we can be happy and the next we are sad.one moment we are so sure and the next we are not.it fluctuates easily.instead of fighting it off,we like to be in depth with our emotions thus making us feel more emotional than ever.we like our emotions to take control us.that differs us from men where they never let their emotions control them but instead use their brain to think but well,that kind of man is hard to find i guess cause men nowadays are as sensitive which makes me puke.anyway back to the point.maybe we are just born that way but i wish sometimes we women,has a control and authority with our feelings and emotions.i wish we can sieve things out easily.like which is important and which is not thus we are eliminating the unnecessary feelings and emotions which might bring ourselves into trouble instead.because we worry too much where there is actually nothing to be worrying about!and this worryness also lead to our self-esteem.i can continue but it seemed that i am starting to ramble.okay i was bored.i mean still am. i shall stop and put my messed-up head to rest.

To Sir,With Love

Those schoolgirl days
Of telling tales, and biting nails, are gone
But in my mind,
I know they will still live on and on
But how do you thank someone
Who has taken you from crayons to perfume?
It isn't easy, but I'll try
If you wanted the sky,
I would write across the sky in letters,
That would soar a thousand feet high:
"To Sir, With Love"
The time has come
For closing books; and long last looks must end
And as I leave,
I know that I am leaving my best friend
A friend who taught me right from wrong,
And weak from strong -- that's a lot to learn
What -- what can I give you in return?
If you wanted the moon,
I would try to make a start . . . but I
Would rather you let me give my heart
To Sir, With Love

LOVE this song from GLEE and LOVE the Bohemian Rhapsody.

maybe we should take a break.

i need distractions!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The Thong Girls.



had one of the best times with them.

this date,13 years ago,my late grandfather passed on.sometimes i wish he stayed a bit longer so i can get to know him more and learn sewing from him.


al-fatihah.


ps/:don't know why we didn't get his genes, if not i wouldnt be short.

monday!
can't wait for it to end.one project down, three more to go.

okay here's my portfolio website.excuse my lame designs.hope to work more on boards!

http://masturahsaad.carbonmade.com

bored and i miss you.

having fun huh girls

7 more days and we'll be done with submissions and critique!

and that's it for Term 1.

Daniel's half brother: "they don't have girls like you in South Dakota."
Amanda: "oh honey, they don't have girls like me, anywhere."

-Ugly Betty.

i imagine myself saying this to you.hahaha.

Khidhir: "they don't have girls like you in Singapore."
Masturah: "oh honey, they don't have girls like me, anywhere."


okay, so lame but hahahah.

this story is so inspiring, thank you Sis Muna for posting it up.

have a read: http://www.oprah.com/spirit/Choosing-to-Wear-the-Muslim-Headscarf

great,my group will be the first to present our project. the first of all. okay very very scary hopefully everything will be fine. i will always remember the first time my mam told me to recite this prayer when i was taking my O level oral examination. it has always been the prayer that i recite before i do any presentation. if i'm not wrong, correct me if i do, this prayer was recited by Nabi Musa when he is going to meet a king and in order for him to speak as smoothy, he recited this prayer. i think so, if my memory is right.

and the prayer is this:
'Robbi Shrahli Sodri Wa Yassirli Amri Wahlul Uqdatammil Lisani Yafqohu Qaulih'

insyaAllah everything will be alright for the next 2 weeks.

http://fuckyeahmasturahsaad.tumblr.com/

check this out. Kat, who has nothing to do(have you start on your diagram yet?) did this website for me. since all four of them on tumblr except me,maybe that's why. and why fuckyeahmasturahsaad? because if it's a tumblr dedicated to a particular famous person/movie/etc, it will be like this example fuckyeah___.tumblr. so i should be honoured that Kat did this tumblr for me cause it shows that you are my fan, so please post beautiful pictures of me alright?

love
mas.

my memory is not as good as it was during my secondary school days. now that i'm design,there is no exams and nothing for us to memorise, i began to realise that my memory sucks. it happened when i was learning a bit of arabic words quite recently and that i can't remember that well. i know, if Allah wants to bless you with the knowledge, He will and we have to be patience but i think it's also for the fact that i don't remember things as good like i used to.hmmm...

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don't take things personally and get offended easily. life's too good to fuss over such things. don't let it get to you.

i really want to go Japan(Japan Design Week)but where would i get 2000-2500k? and the really good thing is, the trip will be the last week of October, if only i can get Japan as my birthday gift.hahah, dream on.

Ask me absolutely anything here, anonymous or not.

http://www.formspring.me/massturah

A Woman's Worth.

don't judge me because i have fears.

at last a day for myself.
my weekend will be a bliss.
close to 2 more weeks to competition submission and 3 more weeks to school submission.
prays for the best, insyAllah.

my weekend starts today but got work to do!

do not be weak.
do not let the emotions get in the way.
just do what you have to do.
and it will soon be over.

K has finally completed his national service. the things that i had to go through; waiting patiently for you every weekend, no peaceful conversations, the 5 days you had to stay in the forest with no contact, the 16 days you were in ubin and were totally out of reach and your shitty shift hours. i was there for you right in the beginning, from bmt(army), to oct(police), to pmu(police mrt unit) till the end of it. you completed your service and you completed it successfully. i am proud of you, NSI Khidhir.

no more of you in uniform, not that i see you in uniform..heheh.
ps/: one more week and we're.....?

the past two days in school, we have been having "intellectual" conversation regarding the project that we are doing now. we were discussing how chinatown is a place for tourist blah blah blah and how to do a space intervention blah blah blah.the project is getting on me now..now that we have 4 weeks to finish! prays hard..

someone said to me this a long long time ago, "you have a certain charm in you that makes people wanna listen to you".

hmm, i don't know if i have that charm anymore..

SAN DIEGO – The pursuit of happiness is sometimes easier said than done.

Some scientists have argued that happiness is largely determined by genetics, health and other factors mostly outside of our control. But recent research suggests people actually can take charge of their own happiness and boost it through certain practices.

"The billion-dollar question is, is it possible to become happier?" said psychologist Sonja Lyubomirsky of the University of California, Riverside. "Despite the finding that happiness is partially genetically determined, and despite the finding that life situations have a smaller influence on our happiness than we think they do, we argue that still a large portion of happiness is in our power to change."

Lyubomirsky spoke here Saturday at the annual meeting of the American Association for the Advancement of Science. She and colleagues last year reviewed 51 studies that tested attempts to increase happiness through different types of positive thinking, and found that these practices can significantly enhance well-being. The results were published in the Journal of Clinical Psychology.

Here are five things that research has shown can improve happiness:

1. Be grateful – Some study participants were asked to write letters of gratitude to people who had helped them in some way. The study found that these people reported a lasting increase in happiness – over weeks and even months – after implementing the habit. What's even more surprising: Sending the letter is not necessary. Even when people wrote letters but never delivered them to the addressee, they still reported feeling better afterwards.

2. Be optimistic – Another practice that seems to help is optimistic thinking. Study participants were asked to visualize an ideal future – for example, living with a loving and supportive partner, or finding a job that was fulfilling – and describe the image in a journal entry. After doing this for a few weeks, these people too reported increased feelings of well-being.

3. Count your blessings – People who practice writing down three good things that have happened to them every week show significant boosts in happiness, studies have found. It seems the act of focusing on the positive helps people remember reasons to be glad.

4. Use your strengths – Another study asked people to identify their greatest strengths, and then to try to use these strengths in new ways. For example, someone who says they have a good sense of humor could try telling jokes to lighten up business meetings or cheer up sad friends. This habit, too, seems to heighten happiness.

5. Commit acts of kindness – It turns out helping others also helps ourselves. People who donate time or money to charity, or who altruistically assist people in need, report improvements in their own happiness.
Lyubomirsky has also created a free iPhone application, called Live Happy, to help people boost their well-being.

http://www.livescience.com/health/how-to-be-happy-100222.html

time flies fast. it's almost 2 years now :)

i wished to jump into 5 years time, then all my anxieties and doubts will end.

life would be way better if you have religion and Allah in your life.
too many sins, too many of it.

chocolate is always good.do you know when i would buy chocolate: 1.when i feel happy. 2. when i feel down.

okay, spamming my own blog. that's it for tonight!

you know, after being alone(most of the time) for 7 weeks, i think i can do it. loneliness is profounding and i embraced the feeling.

Chris told us that there might be Tokyo and Seoul trip this year.i really really really want to go for either one but..

saw this quote fb :

"The true beauty of a woman is her inherent ability to make a man better in every way."

maybe i'm being too nice...

When you wake up in the morning, do not expect to see the evening live as though today is all that you have. Yesterday has passed with its good and evil, while tomorrow has not yet arrived. Your life's span is but one day, as if you were born in it and will die at the end of it. With this attitude, you will not be caught between an obsession over the past, with all its anxieties, and the hopes of the future, with all its uncertainty. Live for today: During this day you should pray with a wakeful heart, recite the Qur'an with understanding, and remember Allah with sincerity. In this day you should be balanced in your affairs, satisfied with your allotted portion, concerned with your appearance and health.

Organize the hours of this day, so that you make years out of minutes and months out of seconds. Seek forgiveness from your Lord, remember Him, prepare for the final parting from this world, and live today happily and at peace. Be content with your sustenance, your wife, your children, your work, your house and your station in life.

So hold that which I have given you and be of the grateful. (Qur'an 7: 144)

You must engrave onto your heart one phrase: Today is my only day. If you have eaten warm, fresh bread today, then what do yesterday's dry, rotten bread and tomorrow's anticipated bread matter?

If you are truthful with yourself and have a firm, solid resolve, you will undoubtedly convince yourself of the following: Today is my last day to live. When you achieve this attitude, you will profit from every moment of your day, by developing your personality, expanding your abilities, and purifying your deeds. Then you say to yourself:

Today I shall be refined in my speech and will utter neither evil speech nor obscenity. Also, I shall not backbite.

Today I shall organize my house and my office. They will not be disorderly and chaotic, but organized and neat.

Today I will be particular about my bodily cleanliness and appearance. I will be meticulous in my neatness and balanced in my walk, talk, and actions.

Today I will strive to be obedient to my Lord, pray in the best manner possible, do more voluntary acts of righteousness, recite the Qur'an, and read beneficial books. I will plant goodness into my heart and extract from it the roots of evil such as pride, jealousy, and hypocrisy.

Today I will try to help others to visit the sick, to attend a
funeral, to guide the one who is lost, and to feed the hungry. I will stand side by side with the oppressed and the weak. I will pay respect to the scholar, be merciful to the young, and reverent to the old.

O' past that has departed and is gone, I will not cry over you. You will not see me remembering you, not even for a moment, because you have traveled away from me never to return.

O' future, you are in the realm of the unseen, so I will not be obsessed by your dreams. I will not be preoccupied about what is to come because tomorrow is nothing and has not yet been created.

`Today is my only day' is one of the most important statements in the dictionary of happiness, for those who desire to live life in its fullest splendor and brilliance.

Don't Be Sad - By Aaidh ibn Abdullah al-Qarni (A Few Excerpts from the Book about Happiness)
i just realised that my dad bought this book sometime ago but in malay though.

my milkshake brings all the boys to the yard

so yesterday was the first time i had to network. it was solely for a class assignment and it doesnt seemed practical when there are 80+ students and probably less than that of professional people and that each of us had had to get 8-10 namecards each.

initially i thought it was so stupid, but at the end of the day, i find it useful. in the future, i might need to network.anyway, i met one guy who works in Thomson Reuters who studied degree in mass communication in NTU. if i would like, i would spend the entire night talking to him.hehehe.
somehow, i think networking is fun and tiring, cause we need to constantly talk and come up with something to talk about.well, i think as an extrovert, i enjoyed it quite much.

ps/: hammie, it is not all about looks. in the long term, if the person is good looking but the personality sucks, then it's not worth it then. i think to me, is all about confidence. if you have confident, it can take you far :)

i'm liking the new timetable.no school on friday means longer weekend for me, if there is no work to do of course but that is very unlikely.

i don't know why but the fact that you are always smarter than me irked me. i don't know why, but i feel the need to prove to you that i am just as smart.is this the feminism side of me?that i can be as smart as you? maybe. i feel so challenged and i have never feel so challenged with anybody else. you make me want to be smart, do you know that?it is funny how i began to realize after the heated argument we had.it made me wished that i had dumb boyfriend instead.hahah. but i am thankful.you always blow my mind.always.i admit defeat. you are indeed smarter than me. you don't make me feel stupid.i make myself feel stupid.thank you for the very beneficial argument we had.hahah.

school starts tomorrow. Year 3, here we come. better armed ourselves for we will be battling throughout the entire year. (gosh, i sound like hidayat)

time to borrow some books!!!!and dvds!



ps/: 3 more weeks to K's ORD!

the week has been quite tiring, hot, lonely and most importantly the most-experienced week i ever had. not only i had to deal with plumber, carpenters, electrician,painter,cleaner,doorman, varnish guy and client, i had to be in-charge. i spent almost 4 days and a half over-seeing the whole process of handover(where the renovation job is done and the house is ready for the owner to live in).i was glad to be away from the office and avoid any awkwardness with my supervisor.i even exchanged contacts with a carpenter and he said he'll give me a discount when i do my own house.hahah.

okay, so 5 more days and we're done. see you girls next week~

J's Lomo Film-





love it. cant wait to see the night shots taken by the lomo camera.

Girlfriends- Botanic Garden 27/03








more pictures coming up. this one taken by our aspiring photographer, Lin.
love every pictures that turned out :) thank you girls for the bestest time i had.