first day of school was great.i get to meet my lovely friends and teachers and see familiar faces.

okay,you liar.yes,i am imagining myself how it feels like if i get to see my friends again cause i miss them and no matter how much they tried to deny,they miss me too.haha.

NEWS FLASH
masturah is officially working.haha,today is my first day!you think i am going to rot at home and stay fat?(i told jon that when he see me,he will see a nice and toned body) my mam's friend got me a job as an office girl or my father would like to call it admin assist.it feels so surreal to be stepping to an office and having a table of your own.after a hard day of work,my back aches. it feels so weird to be waking up early and having shower and drinking coffee.the last time was i think the last day of o level that i did that routine!

NEWS FLASH 2
if you have read my previous entry,my resolution is to take risks and after two days i made that resolution,there is a particular risks that i ought to take but i am second guessing.gosh,why must i face this particular risks now!why can't it come like months after i made the resolution.i am feeling like my brain cells got entwined and i can't think!think mas,think!why can't it be so easy for me.(afterall,life isn't bed of roses) i hate when i can't come up with anything cause as ironic it may sound,i am a practical person and i should be coming up with practical reasons and answers but all i am facing right now is a huge blank of paper and i can't seem to write anything down. O Allah,help me find my answers and show me Your way cause You knows more than i do.with whatever decisions that i come up with,i know it will be Your decision and may people can accept it.Ameen.

*lesson learnt-do not make any new year resolution ever if you know you can't keep it and if you ever found yourself in my situation.
*taking a huge sigh of relief after i have talked to leha about this and shared a shred of my problem to you.