Hellidays-

the first day of holiday sucks.i don't know what happened to me but i just hate when i have nothing to do.so i guess i'm the only weird teenage schoolgirl who despise holidays.i think the 6 month holiday(after the o level)was suffice and because of that 6 month of nothing-ness,i've become like this.despise nothing-ness.i would love to go to school,seriously,albiet the project and stuffs.i think i need another 6 months of something-ness to then have a holiday.i woke up today with a plan.i make sure i have something to do but eventually,i got bored and now,i'm back to two months ago.i think i'm getting paranoid.come on mas it's only three weeks.still i couldn't even stand a day.gosh gosh gosh.i don't know what to do.i couldn't stop thinking,"what next". what am i going to do after reading?after tv?after after after.maybe i must stop thinking and just let the day goes by.i don't know whether i could do that cause my life is routined,like that.ahh,what's wrong with me.i already started to think what i am going to do on weekend.haha,i think like that.

i know time flies fast.maybe when i get to sem 2 or year 2,then i'll be begging for holiday.i hope this perception,feeling is temporary.thank god,i'm going out for dinner tonight,if not,i just might die out of boredom.i mean,there's so many things that i can do but i'm bored of the things that i can do.ahh,i'm just pathetic.

mas you can survive this.next thing you know,your holidays will be done.

ps/: ask me out people,i'll even be glad to tail you around.how desparate.