i was watching the pursuit of happyness in the afternoon and the first reason i was watching it because you said i should. it got me thinking about certain things. first, i was imagining you and me, doing our pursuit together and what would it be like. i think you and i have a similar feeling on how we should live this world and that is to be content with just about everything. so imagining us pursuing something together seemed something good to look forward to. but maybe, if it all goes well between you and i.

so i continued thinking and separate myself from you. this is about me. what would i be pursuing? how is it gonna be like and the question is, what is happiness? how you're gonna pursue it without knowing what is happiness to you..it could be anything but for me, what should it be? the movie touches me and i am determined to work hard(i hope i stick to my words). look at chris, he had to go through insecurity by being homeless and here i am typing this from the comfort of my home, what kind of suffering and hardship is mine compared to his? i neither suffer nor works hard enough.

and this thinking went back to you again. chris got his son, someone to pursue the happyness with and someone to drive him to pursuing happyness. i would love if the someone could be you. or someone like you. then that pursuing is not only for yourself and that happyness you get is not only for yourself but it is being shared with the special person, someone who got to be the reason behind your pursuit.

i know, i am so emotional tonight but this is what i am feeling now and i wont deny those feelings.

alright be back, less emo.

go watch the movie, is worthwhile.