officially going on hiatus.

so to all people like me,

SELAMAT BERJUANG!

i really need to do this and i do not want to give it away just lke that.
i am woman with dreams,with aspirations and a woman who want to live in a quality life.

but i am not getting all that if i fail this.(unless i can get to marry a rich guy which is seemingly impossible)

alright.be back by 6 ot 13 november.

to remember someone's birthday is like giving someone's the greatest gift.

here i am,all alone in the house feeling like a crap.what,alone on your special day?
(maybe i am exaggerating cause later in the evening i am going to meet my family to go to teban)but still,i am happy yet the feeling of isolation(for few hours) is greatly felt.i woke to a morning feeling like i have an inadequate time to study chemistry and i was already freaking out.later,after my subuh prayers then i remembered,oh ya today is my birthday.you see how o level can make you forget the most important things.i even had nightmares(two,okay)about the Os.

enough about that.

i miss blogging but i gotta go.

thanks to everybody for your wishes.

lastly,happy birthday masturah.

before i go on hiatus,

i would like to wish all muslims,especially my cousins and friends SELAMAT HARI RAYA EIDULFITRI!with the message,maaf zahir dan batin.i seek forgiveness from everyone if i had done wrong to anyone of you and halakan makan and minum,jika ada.

sorry.i am kinda not in the mood to update pictures.

well,hari raya had been a blast and i really really love to see all my cousins,maternal or paternal side.i am thankful to have such a great family and relatives!

to all people taking o levels,all the best and it's time for the battle.

i'll see you people soon probably on 6 OR 13 November,alright.

i am down with flu!
aaahh,sucks.

this pictures are rather basi but still,it would not be a problem looking at my beautiful...pimples.haha.okay,enough about the pimps.i swear,it will get away before i even go to my next education life.

last friday,went to eat RAMEN TAN.met a charming waiter there.lala had already saw him so she was kicking me under the table and i was trying hard not to laugh when that guy came over to our table.so guys,if you see girls doing such immoral behaviour,you know they are interested in you.

before that,we went around shoe shopping.but dang,i found nothing.i did saw a heels but my feet is too wide to even wear that peeptoes heels.and now,i still have not found any heels!i am totally not ready for hari raya.

two more days to raya.13 more days to Os and 9 more days to rejoice my youth.(if you know what i am talking about)




tin.

sushi was yummmy!

leha.

lala.

this is embarassing.you know what.fatin is so tak tahu malu she went to ask a stranger,a malay guy to take picture for us.seriously,i was piasey.haha.

i love going out on friday night.just wait.

GRADUATION ASSEMBLY-

Today assembly was a solemn one.seriously i hate the idea of leaving my friends and my teachers.i had good plus the bad memories here in cckss and this is where i grow,(physically and mentally)and had become what i am now,thanks to my friends and teachers.i still can't believe that i had ended 5 years of secondary school education and moving to bigger things in life.

i am going to miss everyone and i am glad that i leave school this year with fond memories.(i tried to have everything the best last)


yeah,distinction award for cca.prove that i am committed to guides.


some of my cool classmates

wei xiang and swee phoon.

mr leong,our biology teacher.i think he is the most patient male.seriously.

i love you all like crazy!

see the odd one.she anti-malay you know.hah!

dan,my man.seriously,you are the greatest boy-friend i ever had and you're mine all time joker.thanks dude.

i think mr narain is cool.i love his sarcasm.

mr lau,our physics teacher.haha,he is a cute teacher(not in appearance but the way he teach)and he cracks the most lamest jokes ever but i am kind enough to laugh at it.


gosh,i am so tired now.been multi-tasking.blogging plus sending pics plus watching csi.thank goodness girls are born with this extraordinary talent.

bad news-
my distant relative,who also used to be my tuition teacher passed away.motor accident.it is shocking.she is still young and the fact that death happens to young people too is terrifying.anyway,i hope my cousins are all okay since you guys are more closer to her.


good news-
my mock exams are over but i ditched bio paper.such a hell of a week but it is going to be a hell of a month,this october.alas,i am going out to break fast with double L.i can't wait to go out and take my mind off things.another thing,my sister bought a new camera.canon.the camera is so good that even the smallest zit on my face can be seen.boohoo.anyway,my graduation is next tuesday and i am already feeling emo.haha.god,i can't believe that i am leaving all the good memories behind.

TILL DEATH DO US APART

today was an unfortunate for my dearest friends.the news that someone close had passed away was unexpected for her.meeting death for the first time wasn't easy.that is why i want to talk about it.death.in all my life,i had met death for four times.the very first time when i was in primary 2,my grandfather that i was quite close with passed away.being a mere 8 year old girl,i understand the situation that i am in.as i grow up and death comes along,i came to the understanding that people comes people go but honestly,i never know what it is like to lose someone that you are really close.i never been in a bereavement before.so to me,i never face a true meaning of death of someone.

to stel and kerene,my thoughts are with you and i know you will be strong.take care guys.


BACK TO NOW.

now,i can feel the stress.stress because of everything.i am exhausted everytime and worries never ever leave my mind.i have issues with myself nowadays and it is frustrating.i am not working hard as i should have.i have been thinking,
'what is going to happen if i do not do well for os.' o level is killing me.
next week is mock exam.no complains.hah!

INTERNET BEING A BITCH AND WHATNOTS.

it has been a week since i logged on to the computer and my internet being bitchy.i do not know why.even it is not working with my sis lappie.i can't wait for te signet guy to come to my house and fix it.now i am using wireless internet,FYI.

however,i hardly have any time for internet,for blogging even.too busy with much important things,like study.one more month baby,one more month and that's it.

this few days have been exhausting but i am trying my very best to stay awake in school.been sleeping pretty late to study,to watch tv,still.

now,i am reading JAMES PATTERSON MAXIMUM RIDE.this book is awesome.the second best fiction book i ever read.i am always inspired by the author.his imagination is a way beyond comprehension.thanks jon for lending me the awesome book.

you know what?probably prom nite is going to cancel!this is all because not many people are attending.i mean,come on.prom nite is like once in a lifetime thing.how boring can those ccksians be?especially to those who can afford to buy.go and buy the tix people.i mean,a lot of kaching is going to be spend but hey,i am sacrificing it,so why dont you,boring nimrods.i am even using my own money.i beg mr narain,please i wanna have prom.don't care about the attendance.

enough said.today,i woke up and helped my dad to paint the house.whoa,tough job man.we only finished like one quarter of the house.i painted like about an hour or so but after that i crashed the bed.haha.my bedroom is going to look more brighter now.gosh,i can't wait to see my house all clean and new for hari raya.i would love to invite my friends to come but we'll see whether time allows.

today for break fast,i'll be eating mee soto and homemade pizza!yummys.every month during ramadhan,there is always always a good meal with family.the other day,i ate meatballs,potato with winced meat in it and mee siam.and i am looking forward for more food.cause food=free-stress.

okay,this update is just random.

i am bored.

yesterday night was dreadful.i can't go to sleep for like the first time,despite the fact that my body is tired.in the midst of trying to sleep,i went to the bathroom for 5 times.not stomachache.i tried to sleep for almost one hour,gave up and opened my chemistry till 1.gosh,the feeling of not getting sleep was a nightmare for me.pity the insomnic people.morever,i am not nocturnal and i do not like to be alone late at night.i am not coward.just dont like the feeling of being alone late night.

anyway,this few days,sex was most mentioned topic.i mean,not sex as in the activity itself but other meanings of it.on monday,my class talked about masturbation.my classmates has a lot of questions about the M,like whether it is good or bad.so this poor teacher had to do a lot of explaination.he was apparently interested in sharing the knowledge about the M.it was hilarious!eventually,i walked off from the class saying,"okay,i am not interested in masturbation,i'm more interested in my lunch".haha!on tuesday,the L girls and i talked about man's sex appeal.his nose,his jawline and whatnots.there is only one sex appeal i am interested in but i am shh-ing about it.

whatever it is,i will not talk about any sex-got-to-do topics cause FASTING MONTH IS HERE.it is a holy month,so i need to give respects to it.anyway,i love fasting month and if non-muslims often wonder,why the heck we need to suffer ourselves?why do we need to fast?there are so many benefits of it and here,take a look.you can just read the headline if you want to cause it is pretty long.

The Objectives of Ramadan Fasting:

a) To get rid of bad habits:
Ramadan Fasting demands the strict and solid resolution to submit oneself to a special diet which, often corrects habits, harmful to the health, that we may get into, during the running year, thus to comply with a severely regulated diet and some bad habits, as a self-willed sacrifice. This is why we notice that the Holy Quran mentions patience, tolerance, will, and perseverance as being synonyms of fasting.

b) To suffer hunger thus feel the difficult life of the poor:
This endurance provokes in ourselves the feeling of association with their sorrows and deprivations. This feeling, so humane and compassionate, is much more expressive than a whole series of well-prepared speeches or well-organized public demonstrations. The rich people who never experience deprivation, discover, through fasting, the hardship imposed on needy people. Then, their hearts become more tractable, and their hands, will exercise generosity and charity towards the needy.

c) To Appreciate God's beyond measure donations:
The daylight is never enough estimated unless we endure the night darkness. Also we cannot know the real value of happiness until we lose it. So when we fast, we suffer hunger, thirst and deprivation of so many other leisure's we used to enjoy before fasting. Then, we effectively evaluate the life comforts Mighty God has gifted us with.

d) To discover the sanitary advantages:
Dr. Alexis Karlil, in his book... says: The exaggerated variety of our meals, their excessive quantities and assortments, make the alimentary regulating in the human life become ineffective. With the legislation of Fasting by all religions the humanity has known to attract notice to thousands, even millions of human beings who never know satiety. Moreover, fasting activates the blood circulation and purifies heart and soul. Besides, the modern medicine has proved that fasting is a remedy for diseases that affect the man of this century because of overeating and the variety of canned food. In this case, fasting is as being a treatment, and even a preventive at the same time.

e) Recalling of evident return to God:
In fact, Ramadan fasting is a stage where the human being is the closest to God. The fasting period, Ramadan is a time when one submits to spiritual and social changes.

f) One acquires loyalty, honesty and sincerity to God, by fasting: Ramadan fasting is a confidential act which occurs between the human being and his Creator. This act must be impregnated with full sincerity and the deepest loyalty. Now in case fasting loses its honesty, it becomes a hypocrisy.

g) Regulating habit:
By Ramadan fasting, we acquire the habit of punctuality. We breakfast at fixed time, and we abstain from eating and drinking at a strict and special time. Moreover, becoming accustomed to regulations leads to the respect of time, of word and promise, and so one becomes trustworthy, well estimated, able to carry out one's responsibilities, and to fulfill one's social duties.

h) Spreading assistance and mutual help in the society:
Ramadan fasting inspires love and tightens links among the family members who live the whole fasting period in the same routine which approaches them to God. Habits change automatically during the period, and the family members meet in the evenings to say prayers appropriated to this holy occasion. The morals and fruitful consequences of fasting extend to the vast society, where collaboration between its members, and decent behavior are demonstrated. Charity and mutual help occupy a remarkable place, and brotherhood and equality triumph, which that is, the most human acts and the holiest purpose of the fasting.

alright.i am back,with pictures of three decades ago.

before that,i am going to bore people with stories.nothing much happened lately(how could something really good happened to me,during this period of time?).anyway,i went out on friday,alas with my parents and two annoying brothers.guess where did we go.none other than bugis!(if you wanna know why my family always go to bugis because my father worked there and the place is convenient)the best thing was that,we had dinner at altazzas-egyptian restaurant,along the arab streets,where mostly people get their sishas(i am gg to try one,don't laugh).and holy moly,the food was nice.i had chicken swish kebab which cost 9 bucks.quite worthy though.ah huh,i am making my sisters jealous.sorry no pics,cause who wants to take picture,in the midst of having a great dinner?shopped around OG and well,that's all.i can't wait to shop again,you know shop for the hari raya stuffs.

okay,i'll shut and let you see the pics.


TEACHER'S DAY CELEBRATION-

i don't why i put this pic,but i think stel is hot.haha,with that so called cleavage of yours.hah,i am kidding!

we danced.

look at kerene,she's wooorkking it!


the very semangat(enthu)ending.

the very shaky mas

chey,mas mcm paham.

haha,the performers!

CCKSS FOOD AND FUN FAIR-

fizza!

haikal.used to be my best buds.sucha funny guy.


NATIONAL DAY CELEBRATION-

MCD time!

YAMSENG!zul looked horrible.hah!


the malay peeps from 5/2.

okay,a proper post.(not like the previous where,i sound,er,what did i sound like?)

anyways,today i am feeling goooood.positively gooood.i am productive and i doing okay with my maths.good news for me huh.but,i shall not bore you with my revisions plan.

this holiday,i have yet to go out,you know take a breather,a break.i want to go out.i want to walk along the streets of orchard or spend my time in MS.i want to spend money(besides on food,which i had been doing so,mcd,egg tarts,eclairs,chocos and mcd,well since i studied there for three days).gosh,i am putting on weight.a lot of people say i am fat(which i took it as being potentially fatter in future)and some people say i am not fat.bootylicious.okay.that was me.so,i am skeptic about what people got to say about my weight.i do not care unless my weight does not exceed 55kg.i am happy with my curves man.like what tyra said,so what!so,there goes my opinion.

i can't believe that 3 more days,i have to attend school.no more wearing flip flops to school.i have to be more strict on my tv consumption.i am only watching tv on wed and thurs,probably friday.grey's anatomy,ANTM(new season!).i am making big sacrifices(yes,it is huge okay).i am missing CSI,though everything about CSI is totally cool.i did think of becoming one of them.haha,but looking at my biology grades,i give a pass.hah.

oh ya,the other day,i was in mcd.i met this guy from kranji sec.i remembered him being the nerd,wearing black rimmed glasses and he usually took 302.gosh,now he looked so charming.but he is with a chinese girl!why does malay guys have to go after chinese girls!what a pity.nevermind,i am pretty much happy with my status.single and loving it.i must embrace that.

okay lah.i am done.

hellidays are boring.i still go for school,which doesn't make a holiday a holiday.
anyway,feeling extremely lazy to study.revisions spent at mcd was a waste of time.i don't know why.is it because of the surrounding,environment or is it just me.i think the latter.totally,unproductive.still,i am continuing.mcd at teck whye cc have a lot of studious people.SG teenagers are indeed boring teenagers.sometimes i wish,we do not have o level and everybody has the same qualifications.same jobs,same earnings,same status.no competition,jealousy or enviness.just plain equal.and sometimes,you just do not know why you are feeling this way.unexplainable.unfanthomable.just outright bs.the actions that you did were unaccountable,unjustifiable.you do not know why you should live when you know you will face the imminent death anytime.you live like how the rest lived and you become a person that everyone wants you to become.probably,that is life part about.

and i don't know why i say all that bull.

alright.i am back.

this week,as i would described,pure exhaustion,conflicting,mentally-unstabled,pure greatness,pure laughters and pure happiness.

the reason for lack of updates was, i and some of my cool classmates were practising for teacher's day performance.we put up a dance item which we just started to practise on monday.so imagine,we have been going home late for past few days to practise.what's more,we had to put up with some confliction,where my classmates were being undecisive about the dance.on thursday,it was the best practise ever,(finished at 930pm)my cool classmates were doing really good with the so called 'broadway' dance.dancing to hairspray,shaking our booty and flinging our arms around.i remember the day where me leha lala and fatin had mini clubbing(no boys allowed),we were crumping!hahah,i swear that nobody ever see me crump except them.

i think i learnt alot from the practises.they learnt a lot about me too.bossy,ego-maniac,stubborn and selfish.i wish i could write down all but i'll bore you.another time.

so today,teachers' day celebration.i think my class did well!i was shaking when i did the dedication.haha,nerves man.the teachers looked so jubilant.especially ms ibaidah since she is getting married tmr!her face is so radiant.marriage is good then(only for the first-half,i guess).

cross country was next.i thought,i was so worn out that i could not have the energy to run but i badly wanted to get the top 25.i thought i lost my chances but knowing that i would regret later,i ran so hard that i got position 17th!it was exhalirating!what's more delighting was that 8 people from 5/2 was in top 25!we were all planning to get top 25 and we did it!

anyway,i think i had the bestest teacher's day celebration ever.the dance and the medal.gosh,i dont want to leave school already.unfortunately,reality remains reality.i am going to miss everything man.EVERYTHING.belum2,dah sedih eh.

PICTURES,YOU JUST WAIT OKAY.

6 MORE WEEKS TO O LEVEL!HAPPY HOLIDAYS PEOPLE.

first of all,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAK MUNA!
though we only get to see once a week(and now,a few months cause you are leaving)i appreciate the time spent in halaqah classes and you are the best uztazah ever!!thank you for the knowledge shared and i am going to hug you real tight tonight.

anyway,TGIF.still,tomorrow is cckss food and fun fair carnival.my class did not set up any stall this year but i am taking the time to look around the stalls.

oh ya.i had my english oral on wednesday.it was sucks.i mean i can talk pretty okay but the picture and the topic was like so difficult!they ask me whether space explorations is important and i told them that i don't really find it important and don't care about it!haha!i was not supposed to be negative but the oral examiners were really friendly.which means,i get too comfortable with them that i feel like i was having a casual conversation with friends.forget,i think that day was the most difficult topic and suey-est day for students like me.

alright,be back.

MONDAY-
Ended school approximately at 9pm.it was such a tough day,struggling with everything.worst,i had to face a complete humiliation.i was announcing the class stuffs but they took me like a complete idiot,feel like talking to myself.i was badly pissed off and infuriated.i think i can call the plan off.the class that i love and care can just piss off.i failed my english(finally scraped a pass).it was disappointing cause i never failed english before.it is a good wake up call cause i always had been complacent about my english thinking that my english is pretty good.now,reality just smacked my face.

SATURDAY-
Watched the fireworks with the cousins.i had uber fun.the fireworks are superbly magnificent but the crowd was just too overwhelming.first,we had dinner at too hot cafe(pocket hole burnt man!)near the esplanade,before meeting with my sister and her friends.we got a pretty good spot.directly infront of the fireworks.








TOMORROW IS MY ENGLISH O LEVEL ORAL!!!!SHUCKS.WISH ME LUCK.PICTURE CONVERSATION-DIE LAR.

i am going out later to catch the fireworks.i am thinking whether i will waste my time cause time is running out and i need to study!well,heck just give myself a break.

i was telling leha the things that i will do after the o levels.
1) Shopping for prom dress with the girls,including stella.(though our tastes are world's apart)
2) A girls day out,where we sit at coffee bean/starbucks(can't remember which)at boat quay.
3) A buffet lunch/high tea at this particular halal restaurant in a hotel(unless everybody are working)or at least somewhere more affordable.
4) Find a job-gosh,that phrase sounds alien to me.i never have a job before!
5) Sentosa outing with classmates or close friends.
6) A class chalet,if everyone agrees.

the plan sounds good.i am always a planner.i have so many different kinds of plans branching out of my brains but sometimes none of it are done because the plans are too ambitious.seriously.still,this will never stop me.if you ask me what to do in ten years time,i already have an answer for you.

bad news,i failed my maths horribly.god,help.still,i am determined.i bought a new maths assessment book and i am striving for C6.(told you i had a plan)

anyway,a teacher told me that he read my blog.haha,that sounds cool.i don't mind a teacher reading my blog but please ignore me when i bitch about the school.well,i don't bitch about teachers anymore cause i really appreciate my teachers.well,i must wonder who else beside him is reading my blog.

i've made my decision.i am not taking my malay again and since my oral is merit,there is less chance of getting A1.i do not know why but my tongue is not used to speaking good malay.

anyway,i want to see the fireworks this weekend and craving for mrs fields muffin and chocolates from candy empire.i can't fanthom why but i am high on chocolates nowadays.just yesterday,during lunch,i rushed to lala's crib to eat choc cakes,ferroro cher and toblerone.

and you know chocolates doesn't got to do with growing of pimples or acnes!good news for me,really.still,pimples can cause by stress.which i am coming to my point that,i am growing more acne and zits!it is scary shit cause i never have so much acne,zits on my face.so i am practically acne-shock.i am feeling unattractive seriously(but since when you are attractive,
mas!).however,there is no man for me to attract in school.i really hope ThePimps(what i called it)will magically disappear the day my o level ends.i don't want to be seen with acne when i step to poly/ite/jc cause you know i have other purposes there beside studying and array of man i can choose and atrract of.okay,that was not me.geee.anyway,a lot of people,came up to me and say,"stress ah?" and i am like yes but i don't mind them saying that.

and ya,my prelims results is not looking any brighter.

I FINALLY GET A FREAKING DINSTINCTION FOR MALAY!!!!

actually,this is my third time taking malay cause i was given the oppourtunity to take while i was in sec 4.so anyway,i have been dying to get dinstinction and i prayed really really hard to GOD.He answered my prayers and i got a freaking A2!!Syukur Alhamdullilah.When i got my results,i screamed so loudly and find someone to hug.I jumped around too.just couldn't contain my happiness.Congrats to lin and fatin!!For the rest,please do not give up cause with hardwork and endless prayers(if you are a Muslim),insyaallah you will get a dinstinction.trust me on that.

on the other hand,i received some of my prelims results!hahaha,p.biology was badly done!!!i got 5/50 for section B!!can you imagine that!mr leong was like giving me one of a kind look cause he expect me to do better and i am regretful.i mean,i passed biology before so i know i can do it again.

this is a stupid qns.should i retake my malay,you know probably i can get a1 and just try my luck again?no right?

alright.time for an update!

8 August-School's National Day Celebration

so all the 5/2 went to school,clad with our new class t-shirts.the parade was good.i miss being in the parade okay!our class was really supporting.everyone had their red ribbons,which was cool.then we had performance.kinda shitty.still,me and certain group of people were really crazy and supportive that we danced and kinda attracted a lot of attention.the best part of al,5/2 WON THE MOST SUPPORTIVE CLASS!!haha.and we got free mcd food and did the yamseng in canteen.

anyway,i promise to put the pictures,once i get it from leha.

9 August 2007-National day

i went to celebrate national day in malaysia.traitor.my aunt just bought her condo in johor so we relatives wanted to check it out.anyway,i had the worst jam of all.i was stuck in the car for more than 2 hours.going back was also the same thing.stuck in yet another boring long jam.


the condo has only one building,unlike spore.the wind there was awesome.i never experienced that kind of wind before in spore.and we're like only 5 storey.

the facilities.

my cousins and i movie-marathoned.we watched simpsons which was hilarious and disturbia(without any sound!so we had to read subtitles!)which was really a good thriller.i mean,what else can we do when we're in msia?watch pirated movies!

fizah and the pimple-looking girl.gosh,i don't know her.(cey,feeling feeling insecured.)

okay,that was really unsightly.we're didn't bring extra clothing so just soak our feet!

cousins rock!

11 August 07-Sheila's engagement.

first of all,would like to wish lala's sister,sheila happy engagement!so some of the girls were invited.initially,we're pretty paisey but heck.and ya, Sop Ayam was there!hahah,i thought it would be awkward to see him but we said hi!remember the funny times when i was in sec 1.

bad quality but i try to put more pictures once i get it from lala.

the girls that came plus dina and her bf.

okay,i am done.i try to get the pictures and update as soon as possible!