Saturday Night Baby! -

i did have plans for saturday.initially,i asked leha out to bugis,just to wander around and basically waste my time.gosh,my life is so wasted,i know.so,when we're on our way to arab street to have our dinner,we're coincidentally met with lala and her bf, dinah,amin and nadiah. i was so shocked and there came our unexpected night.


so, we sat at musi cafe to have our dinner and oh boy, the night was bloody fun and i made friends with nadiah, man-man's gf.so the rest came,zul,rahman and sam.(aka samantha!haha,not!) took a lot of pictures,gosh,it felt like some kind of reunion.it has been a month since i last saw lala and dinah and i really miss them.

so,here are some of the awesome pictures:


i know,you know.mas always the over one.

babes,i love you.

nadiah.

if i ever make you puke..i'm sincerely sorry.

after the dinner, we had sisha. boy,i was damn excited.first time alright!so understandable.i was like,come on,bring it on! so i was the first to try and haha, i couldn't get the smoke out of my mouth.eventually,i did and to be honest, i don't really like shisha but i could do it once it awhile.

haha!step vogue.the bunch that i hanged out with on saturday night.

haha,seriously,amatuer and zul,forever rude.hah

that's the way!

i love this picture maybe because of the lighting(okay i admit.i think i looked good,not pretty,in this picture.)

well,that was my saturday night and i am glad.i am glad that i can finally spend time with leha lala and dina,rahman and zul.i hope the friendship goes a long way.Insyaallah.I wish they will never forget me like some people do. some of my friends have forgotten about me but it's okay. i'll always receive them with open hearts if they come back to me. i know i sound emotional but really, sometimes you wish that certain people wouldn't leave you just like that. i hope too,when i already have my own poly friends, i will never forget the people that have left a mark in my life.

for that,i wanna say sorry to the fairies if i ever neglect you girls. i'll be seeing you girls tomorrow.

...same for loneliness- you let go,let the tears flow,feel it completely but eventually be able to say, " All right,that was my moment with loneliness.I'm not afraid of feeling lonely but now i'm going to put that loneliness aside and know that there are other emotions in the world and i'm going to experience them as well,". "Detachment"

weekend's tomorrow.not looking forward at all cause i have no plans tomorrow! arggh.i want to go out with double L but Lala,spare a day for me please?

if i have nothing tomorrow,i think i'll head down to national library to do intensive scavenger book-hunting and then maybe at home i'll watch some movies and if time is still ample,i would bake brownies and maybe spaghetti.how's that for a saturday?

and next week,i'll be very busy and booked.good,that will make time pass faster.

ps/: i want to see baby Ahmad today! bring him kak thuraiya( like as if she read this)

Achievement

My achievement for today was,i finally got myself up early in the morning to jog.seriously,i have been wanting to do so but shucks,procastination is one of the reason why i haven't exercise. i ran alone for only one round!i know it's pathetic but i was having stomach cramps( clever,i shouldn't have my breakfast 15 mins before my jog)so insyaallah,more running to come! i am thrillleeeed!

Singapore's achievement for today was we won the first Youth Olympic bid against Moscow! that is some awesome news isn't it? imagine in 2010, we could actually witness a sports competition and supporting our own country.there's more to look forward in Singapore. i want to watch the F1,albiet the fact that i don't know any F1 racers except lewis hamilton but it would be cool.i want to ride on the Singapore Flyer,albiet the fact that one ticket could cost you 27 bucks.i want to go to one of the casinos and play poker cards,albiet the fact that islamic law forbid any form of gambling.haha,okay,i kidding about that one!

before i go, i want to share with you something that i read:
i know my journey's not over yet,and that life is a winding path,but i can only hope it somehow circles back to the place i belong.That's how it think of it now.I belong with you
- Nicholas Sparks, Nights in Rodanthe

ps/: i'm expecting a call tonight.

Tuesday-

The first message that i got was from the moe.i got posted to Singapore Poly!(course? you guys will know sooner or later) seconds after that,i went back to sleep but messages after messages keep coming in. Gosh, people are more eager than me.haha.i bet fizza would be delighted to know that i'm in the same school as her but too bad i can't tell her now cause she is india.sorry babe,i didn't say goodbye to you!

i actually wanted to go to this particular business course in Np so badly that i went there to appeal but i didn't appeal cause the cop was just too high(morever,the system wouldn't accept it.stupid system!) and it sucks. i want np but sometimes the things that we wanted so badly doesn't always turn to something we expect. half heartedly i accepted the course that i am in and i just prayed for the best. i keep telling myself that dunia is not important,doesn't matter if i didn't get any job because of the diploma i am in.rezeki di tangan tuhan,not in our future employers. now,i am looking forward to school and i heard in sp,there are a lots of hot looking guys? this one,i anticipate! haha!

so leha and me spent our last moment in np( we both wanted that school) and then we both went to town to do some retail therapy! walked around town made me feel good and i bought yet another forever 21 top. i need to make a note to myself to save up some money but i have few other things to buy( like school bag, flip flops and denim jeans,shit!)and i really badly need a job! so i hope that the resume that i sent to will reach to respective people and pintu rezeki akan dibuka untuk saya,insyaallah.

alright,i think i'll update tomorrow!

Saturday-

For the whole day, a early as 12,i was already out with my family.
First stop was Wak Milah's house at Pasir Ris. Since Kak Nana gave birth to a baby girl, we all came down to see Baby Hana. She is cute and her eyes is to kill for. Didn't snap any photos of her cause the anak dara was busy talking in one room. so many stories to tell to iqah. and i get to see my fav little cousins.we'll be seeing them next time in may? insyaallah.

the second stop was teban garden, Ucu's house. my rather large family was having meeting tergempa. the uncles and aunts were planning on a holiday together! yeay! insyaallah, the plan is on, if not, other activities that we planned will hopefully be carrried out. after that, we have b'day celebration,followed by singing out of tunes,followed by taking endless pictures and lastly the inevitable sabotaging.



mainly,it is syafinaz's bday and her cake is the BOMB!

cake maut sey. this is every 8 year old dream cake,seriously.

aww,cute huh.

the other february babies. the cake does not match certain people obviously but what the heck, we celebrated everything at a go,even those who are celebrating their anniversary.

aww,i love you guys. and we have so many stories to tell. best kan biler jumpe cousins. so many things to tell.

mas nak feeling feeling dgn cake. pardon me.when i was eight years old,i don't have a cake this big but well,i did remember that i had a big party.

the kakaks.sepatutnya i should be in here cause i'm 18! but nevermind.haha, i'll stay young.

bermula lah..

elly,why your father sibok2 kat situ? haha.

intan maisara is so cute.

sabotaging began. sarah was the first victim.padan muke!

after that people yg tak bersalah and not their bday also got sabo-ed. in our family,no one is being sparred.no one.

i love my cousins, both sides, and i hope we could be together till we get married and have kids.

insyaallah. looking forward for whatever plans with the hamzah's family. holiday together? it's gonna be one crazy event!

and speaking of b'day,i am thinking of having my own b'day celebration.i know my bday is like so far away but it is just a thought.it is never too old to have b'day party and last year was one of the worst bday ever so i thought this year i should do something. have a theme or something. it would be fun!

ps/: tomorrow is the result of which school we're getting?

Jumper was pretty good. i have to give 4 stars out of 5.hayden made me drool,seriously and it has been long since he hit the screen.star wars was his previous movie.


thank god he booked the tix cause it was full house and half of the people there was couples celebrating v day.damn!i hope i don't looked like one of them yesterday.when i was on my way to the cathay alone,i saw guys holding a bouquet of flowers and i can't supressed my laughter.it was hilarious! red roses are so cliched.i would rather if a guy buy me a box of chocolates or diamonds.(provided i am dating someone rich) roses should be given on every date and not every valentine's day.


tomorrow,something good to look out for. get to see both cousins from maternal and paternal side. yeah!


and friday..spritual purification,with these girls. hari tu makan cheese fries best kan.haha.

yesterday was one of the good episodes.i love grey's anatomy and i regretted not watching the first and second seasons.and those who think mcdreamy is hot,i disagree!he is not hot,maybe charming.whatever it is,i am waiting for desparate housewives and ugly betty to be back on screen.

life has been same old,same old.no,no.i think i have a problem and if it's love you guessed,then it is right.damn,love is so complicated but everyones wants to be in it.everyone wants to feel a shred of it.(i'm not talking about this since v.day is tomorrow,which i don't give a damn about it)

tomorrow's jumper and jump i will to the cinema!

saturday- after a very long time, i went to syarahan at arab association.the syarahan was by habib omar, who is related to prophet Muhammad. thanks kak muna for the information. i know,i should be doing things that are benefit to ukhrawi but here in singapore, it seems impossible but nothing is impossible right?

this is something.

What MASTURAH Means

(bold means yes,you are right and italic means,err,what did you just say?)

You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated.You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want.You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way!

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong.(HAHA,i have to laugh at this one)You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know.You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do.

You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life.You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home.You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble.

You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way.And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life.You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it.

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.

ps/: i need to start looking for jobs!

Valerie-Amy Winehouse

i have been listening to AW.her songs are infectious and the genre is different from most songs i listened to.

anyway,i went out yesterday.i went on a date.HAHA.i know,it has been ages and zamans since i went out on a date but i feel like i need to do this cause i have been too afraid,now today,i can say proudly that i am reaadyy to date any guys out there!seriously,it went fine and i thought i could be so so freaking nervous but i actually not that nervous.that guy was nervous instead.(i know,i bring nerves to guys,hah) i won't go into details but one thing for sure,i won't be having a boyfriend soon cause i need to expand my wings so i could fly from one guy to another.HAHA. i am kidding! so guys,i am still available,no worries.(seriously,that sounds so cheap and desparate) i saw leha and her ehem ehem too yesterday and i asked her whether i could borrow her ehem ehem for awhile.haha,leha, where could i get one?(quoted from 27 dresses,if you remember)

holidays is here!(what a news to me!) and where do malays go during cny holidays.apa lagi,the beach lah! i maybe be down on friday but i don't know.friends,friends please ask me out will you.don't forget me just like that cause i have been such a good friend and now you're forgetting me? hmm,now i am thinking of sentosa outing or smthg.

enough of me.gosh,i think i'm going to update everyday so till then,i mean till tomorrow.

oh ya,i almost forget. HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY SARAH!
you better get your butt home now cause i want to eat the cake!

REMINISCE

i woke up today with a plan.

i planned to clear all my textbooks,files,worksheets and school-related stuffs.the moment i opened my drawer,i was already feeling emotional.i took out the books one by one,scrutinised each one.you know what,i can't bring myself to throw my BIOLOGY textbook.yes,i can't.i don't know why.even though,bio was my least favourite subject and i was always sleeping in biology classes(which attributed to a d7 for my o level.surprise,surprise!),there is something about that textbook that gives a sentimental value to it,maybe because i had so much fun during practical.so i decided to give it to my brother cause he loves science and maybe because i can still see the book lying around in my house.

in the midst of clearing,many thoughts flowed in my mind.like how i will miss english lessons and mdm hayati.i will never forget her.when i was sec 3,i hated her so much.i don't know why but i always thought that she didn't give any attention to me(well,because i didn't gave her the attention she needed that time)and that i know she don't like me.however,last year,my perception of her changed completely,maybe because i was getting a tad matured.i began to response to her and she reciprocated.thanks to her,i got a b3 for english which i was more than happier to get.she was the first subject teacher that i thanked after the results.

in retrospective, i learned that feelings and perception can change even towards someone who we really hates.therefore, i never want to hate anybody.as times passed and i meet people who lived here to constantly test our patience,i will try my best not to hate because we ourselves are not as perfect.i questioned myself,who am i to hate this person.there is only one person here who is perfect that is Nabi Muhammad so we are no prophets nor we are Gods.just live in this world like we are dying tomorrow and love is what we should pass on and alleviate the hate that is within us,which can destroy ourselves and the people around.i am happy to say that,i have no enemies and i wish i could say that till the day i die.

and lastly,i came across with my class photographs.i laughed loudly on my own and how much i will missed them.i think i made used of my secondary school times.i had many friends and i was well-liked(i hope this is true.this is what the teachers said,not me okay)so there is no need for me to say," i wish i could rewind back to secondary school".

till then.

ps/: you won't imagine who i am going out with today!

hey you people!

on a monday afternoon,i went to teck whye to buy my contact lens and to my dismay,the shop was closed!what a convenient!good thing,teck whye have other spectacle shops so i bought a pair for 15 bucks.then,i proceeded to jurong library where i dug for good books.what i don't understand was why everytime i went out alone,i have to laugh at someone or something.i will look like an idiot,supressing my laughter if i witness something funny.well,it feels good.

anyway,this was my last day at work so i snapped some pictures.


this was my table.and you see the packet of sweets?i bought it on the day that the company told me that friday was my last day.how sad.

i will definitely miss this office,aww.

another temp worker that i made friends with,xiao hui.

tomorrow,back to normal.

back to waking up late.back to spending hours on the net.back to watching and stuffing myself with tv shows and movies.back to laying in bed and waiting for time to past by.

well,i'm gonna give myself a break and in the meantime,looking for some other office jobs.

and in the meantime too i have some list of things to do:
-go to the library.
-throw all my secondary school books.
-starts writing,if inspiration comes along.
-buy contact lens at teck whye(cause it's frigging cheap there)
-maybe jog?swim?
-watch kite runner alone?
-come clean

saturday was well spent with leha.went to town and it was raining!but but,it doesn't stop us.we went to watch 27 dresses which was oh-so-sweet and very-chick-flick.i love katherine heigl.after that,i went shopping.very typical of us huh.the next movie to watch is kite runner,jumper and ps i love you.i know,i can't watch all so if there's anyone to treat me,i would be glad.hah!

just now,i had a good time with my family :)

ps/: expect more updates from me cause since i am free..

i had the best day at work.

it all started per normal but towards the end, the company was having an occasion, there was buffet and i get to look around and see people. i get to talk to the engineer guys and i was just simply happy.it took almost a month to at least have people recognise me. i didn't know that will ended just like that.i got to know that friday was my last day.it breaks my heart.i don't know why it bothers me but i gonna miss that place.i gonna miss the engineer guys cause they sometimes made my day.i'll miss kong's genuine smile and the way he talks with conviction.i'll miss my new temp friend and the auntie cleaner.

mas,you attach to things so easily.

i really hope i can get a job at another department so at least,i can get to see them and do something!while waiting for school which will be in april!

well,till then.

ps/: tomorrow's FEBRUARY!. can't you imagine it!

i submitted my jae this morning.

* huge bloody sigh of relief

and even though,the courses that i chose was not my best interest in heart,i pray that whatever course that i am in,i will insyaallah,like the course.okay,enough about all of this.i won't talk about this anymore.uh,huh.

good news today people.

i went shoppppping! hah! there was this john little sale at expo and i bought some stuff and it felt good.take your mind off things.guys,you should try.but,but i haven't shop for clothes.i might,do it tmr alone if these female hormones go on a rage! i went to raffles too, for awhile.it has been too long since i step there.so my girlfriends,can you make your time for me?pretty pleaaseee?

till then.


ps/: i had such a good conversation with Mr. today. haha.just felt like telling the whole world.

alright.i shall keep you update.i know people want to know me results.you,busybody,typicals. haha,i am kidding you not.


okay here it goes.


my o level result is good.it could have been really really good if i hadn't screwed maths.insyaallah,i could get to poly.pray for me people.i need that much.i can't get to my dream mass comm course.i can't be what i need to be.i can't do what i love to do.i can't be a journalist.there,i told the whole world what i aspire to be and i never really told anyone.maybe a few knows but i know,i believe deeply,profoundly that everything happens for a reason.God's reasons and i will try to do what i have passionately want to do when i grow up,when i have money to study again,insyaallah.my hopes aren't shattered.it shatters the minute i give up. but i don't know,interest changes but i hope this won't. for my results,i am happy with it and i am glad to say that i have no regrets,at all!syukur,ya Allah.


now,i need the support that i need from my loved ones.i never been this serious in my whole life.choosing the courses was the toughest and most scariest.i am more scared than i was when i waited for my results.really.i have not submit my jae thingy.i need to be thorough.pray for me people,that i will get the most apt course.


till then.


after the results baby! congrats to my fav juniors in the whole world.



i need my retail therepy!now,now!
ps/: i can finally throw all my books and worksheets and files which i have kept for so long! feels so good!

i never wanted anything else than this.now,my focal concern is this.i need this more than i need my branded clothes,more than i need the tv and books and more than i need a boyfriend.to God,i pray for this,let this duniawi be good for me and ukhrawi be much much better.

okay,maybe i exaggerate but i should be!tomorrow is the big day.gamut of emotions rolling in my heart,in my brain.i am happy,excited cause maybe things would turn out good but at the same time,this heart,this brain is filled with trepidition and questions.

so,to my fellow muslims,please say a little prayer for me.may Allah bless you.

ps/: we'll see if i can tell you readers about my results.if good,of course lah,i brag a bit but if not,you can take the hint huh.

The Wedding- Melaka 19/01

first of all,congratulations to abg haidar!the first male cousin to get married and for making an opening for the other three(maybe four?)male cousins getting hitch this year!(i bloody can't wait!i love wedding!)

anyway,my family and cik usop's family went to melaka together to witness the solemnisation.aww,i wished my whole lot cousins were there too.the solemnisation was taken place at a very huge beautiful mosque.don't you think getting hitch at a mosque is the most romantic thing?( mine's going to be at masjid sultan!HAHA.perasan,boyfriend pon tak pernah ada!proven:girls like to dream a lot.) well,the ceremony was right after zuhur and imagine what time i woke.5am in the morning!

so,my uncle made an opening speech.

some of the mak ciks and cousins who came.

the girl's side.hmm,notice someone familiar?

haha!i like this picture best. behind that smile lies a man whose heart is thumping with a speed of 200km/h. i keep thinking what was abg thinking of.i am a married man soon.responsibility,responsibility,responsibility.

and before the tok kadi proceed,he asked abg to recite al fatihah,mengucap dua kalimah shahadat,selawat nabi and some important questions.ni,kalau org singapore kene buat mcm gini,tak dapat ah.lelaki ingat nak khawin jer!yg lain not important.(why suddenly,i am typing in malay?)

aww,ilham is so bloody cute!

before,i go off,i have to say few things.

first: o level result this friday? wow,i can't wait to see my friends and be back in unform!( behind this enthusiasm lies a terrified looking girl)

second: i am riiicccchhhhhh!haha,just feel like saying that!not to show off but after a hardwork,loneliness,starved,brain freeze and morning frenzy situations, the money is worth it. it is a big deal,my first ever salary!my mam is more excited than me.money isn't everything mam.(okay,i lied.money makes up 50% of happiness,especially of you live in singapore)

enough of my stories.i need to get ready for tomorrow and watch heroes and B&S.

i've been busy.

with what?

none other than watching tv and engrossing myself with two incredible books. Nina:Adolescence and Kite Runner.

let's talk about my favourtite subject here.Yesterday was American Idol.as usual,every year,i will not miss it albiet people's sayings that AI is losing its lustre.and as usual,i will ponder upon myself about why the hell people wasted their time to get audition.i understand that America's society are always about fame and beauty but goodness gracious,i can't imagine how desparate they are for that tiny weeny bit of fame.worst,some even think they can sing and even their family think that they can sing!

(a scenario)
daughter:mom,do you think i can sing? do you think i should try out for AI?
mom: yes honey,why not.you sound exactly like tina tuner baby. the judges gonna freak out when they hear you.

yes,the judges did freak out.what an incomprehensible thinking and behaviour is that?!

i am glad that i live in singapore.for once i know,our people here is not as thick-skinned, pretty self-aware and when i say i want to sing,i know that my family and friends will smack me back into my life thinking that i must be outta my mind.

despite that,i will still watch AI and let Americans entertain us with their ridicule antics.well,what can i say,i am an opinionated person.

ps/: i'll be back by sunday with yet another beautifool pictures.be heading down to melaka to attend my cousin's solemnisation!

Saturday- Little India Baby!

so,on the evening of saturday,my family and i went out to little india!goodness,it has been quite sometime since we stepped there.(my father used to bring us there quite some time last year) so,in belated birthday of my mam,we found an indian restaurant to eat.the food was SCRUMPTIOUUUSS. i love the nan and kima so much though it is spicy but i like it that way. when i stepped to little india,i was so glad cause i get to be in other's culture.(for once,i don't feel like being a malay) indians are not that bad,you see.their culture is the most vibrant and colourful and oh boy,i love to dance to their hindi songs.malay culture quite boring huh.

then,after the unforgetable meal,we went to mustafa center,walked around.the crowd was crazy and i don't get it why they have to grocery-shop on saturday night!

alright pictures,as told.

mam not photogenic(i quote from her okay) but her daughter do justice to this picture.hah!

the resturant was dark but i like the ambience and the background hindi musics!

this is the only food-shot i took cause i was starviing.there is even cheese nan!must try okay.

when comes to mustafa,we goofed around.haha,stupid actually.

and when our way back,we took imperfect pictures.all looked ugly but candid more better.

alright retarded lady,you need to stock up your clothes once your money slides in okay.

and today,at work,i made a blunder and i humiliate myself!gosh,that man looked at me with disbelief.i can't never forget his look but i am trying to coax myself that mistakes happened.seriously mas,it is no bigger.

Friday-

It was pretty memorable day for me.let's start from the top.in my 17 years of life,i never ever eat alone outside but on friday,i went to have lunch break at IMM and ate burger king ALONE. seriously,it felt like ____. since,i am a loner at work and my stomach screams for food,i braved myself to eat alone.it was such a brave move for me cause it's no easy.so what's the big deal people may ask.it is a huge deal cause being independant,you need to have a bucketfull of guts to do it.

Another memorable day,(this is a good memory)was halaqah class.in my 17 years of life,i never ever hugged and cheek-kiss with my sisters before so on that day,all the sisters have to do it so,i am out of choice.hah!but it felt good.to be hugging and kissing everybody.i love it cause i feel loved by people.i was crying while hugging and kissing(i am a baby)and i wished i could cry more but my pride stepped in(i hate to cry in front of people).the feeling was the best.now i know what it feels like to be crying on someone's shoulders.now,i am looking forward for that.i love kak muna more than before and i love the sisters more than before too.

ps/: i'll update on my trip to little india!(with pictures okay.since i've not been posting beautiful pictures of me.)

oh ya,i forgot.

SELAMAT TAHUN BARU 1429 HIJRIAH.

syukur alhamdullilah.

tomorrow is frididadidadiya!

okay,that was quoted from rod monteiro,if you know who he is.(gosh,i love the Married Men)

i need my weekends baby!now,i am begining to relish the weekends,all thanks to the job huh.

anyway,i have nothing to blog about.nothing interesting happened by the way.okay maybe this.today,i saw something funny in the morning while i was on my way to work.there is this van that pull off directly in front of me and there was these words that plastered to the van.it says," Amahs on Wheels". (amah=maids) poor maids,they have to ride on that van and the whole world knows their designation is.it can get pretty embarassing.there's even a website on the van. amahsonwheels dot com.seriously.

and maybe this is interesting too.right now america is having their presidential election and oh boy,i find it interesting.the famous two candidate is a woman and a black man.hilary clinton and barrack obama.i can't wait to find out the results.i kinda like if obama wins cause,god!the racism there is pretty bad and all the former presidents are white people.i hope he wins.and who says he looks like osama?

hey guys,i'm at work right now.it's lunch time!

anyway,it's my mam birthday today!

so,HAPPY 46TH BIRHTDAY MAM!

tomorrrow is monday!

working is not what you expect.it is not fun especially if you have no friends and nobody to talk to(cause i'm the only temporary worker) and for the 10 hours,you are doing the same thing.so,i have been talking to myself.

one time,i was photocopying something and i was saying something like this(in my head):
me:women are so good.they are very good at multi-tasking(yes,i was multi-tasking)and without us the company will in be unproductive.women are efficient workers and by the way,it is only women who get organise and do all these filing shit.what will man do without us? i am doing good for this company.

and then,skali,i forgot to scan one sheet of paper!because of these thoughts,i have to scan again all!haha,then i was saying like: women,they can be so narcissistic.

first day of school was great.i get to meet my lovely friends and teachers and see familiar faces.

okay,you liar.yes,i am imagining myself how it feels like if i get to see my friends again cause i miss them and no matter how much they tried to deny,they miss me too.haha.

NEWS FLASH
masturah is officially working.haha,today is my first day!you think i am going to rot at home and stay fat?(i told jon that when he see me,he will see a nice and toned body) my mam's friend got me a job as an office girl or my father would like to call it admin assist.it feels so surreal to be stepping to an office and having a table of your own.after a hard day of work,my back aches. it feels so weird to be waking up early and having shower and drinking coffee.the last time was i think the last day of o level that i did that routine!

NEWS FLASH 2
if you have read my previous entry,my resolution is to take risks and after two days i made that resolution,there is a particular risks that i ought to take but i am second guessing.gosh,why must i face this particular risks now!why can't it come like months after i made the resolution.i am feeling like my brain cells got entwined and i can't think!think mas,think!why can't it be so easy for me.(afterall,life isn't bed of roses) i hate when i can't come up with anything cause as ironic it may sound,i am a practical person and i should be coming up with practical reasons and answers but all i am facing right now is a huge blank of paper and i can't seem to write anything down. O Allah,help me find my answers and show me Your way cause You knows more than i do.with whatever decisions that i come up with,i know it will be Your decision and may people can accept it.Ameen.

*lesson learnt-do not make any new year resolution ever if you know you can't keep it and if you ever found yourself in my situation.
*taking a huge sigh of relief after i have talked to leha about this and shared a shred of my problem to you.

new year's eve it is!

oh my.tomorrow's 2008 and you know what?i actually looking forward to this year.i think 2008 is going to be really different.new school,new friends,new environment,new kinda of men to look out for.haha but seriously until i know what's my o level result is,then i know what 2008 has in store.plus,i am really excited that i am going to turn 18 next year.18!big deal okay which i don't know why but 18 is like,wah dah besar gitu kan.

however,2007 is the year that i will never ever forget.2007 brings a greater impact in my life and i love every piece of memory that i have in 2007.it feels really sad to leave behind the good like my friends and the school which i had spent my last 5 teenage years there but somehow i am glad that everything is over.the big o's especially.the experiences and the lessons learnt are priceless,simply priceless.

2007 means a lot to me as(random):
1) i have ended my big o's
2)i achieved my big dream which turned out bad.i wanted to be a contingent commander for the guard of honour.what you want doesn't always turn out what you really want.
3) 5/2 awesome campfire dance
4) 5/2 awesome teacher's dance and its practices
5)the sentosa trips with beloved company.
6)prom nite which i had been dying to go since sec 1.
7)harry potter 7th book,the very last.
8)mr tan teaching my class.haha!
9)new friendship made with leha,fatin,dinah,stella,jon,george....more of course!
10)nenek passed away this year.
11)more family-outings.
12)halaqah classes,the sisters and kak muna especially.
13)the stress that i went through made me stronger.

well,comes new year,new year resolutions are made too but i am not sure whether i can keep it.one thing's for sure i wanted to take risks next year.i wanted to be brave and do things which i always fear to.i hope 2008 would be blessed with happiness,insyaallah.

i would like to extend thanks to all my friends who crossed my path and became a part of my secondary school life.thank you to my family and beloved cousins for everything.i love you people who has been there for me throughout 2007.i would never forget what God has bring me to and i am endlessly grateful and thankful because i am blessed.

now,i am ending my new year's post.thank you to readers too!