friday morning till saturday night- @ melaka celebrating hari raya haji

sunday afternoon- picnic with K's friends @ecp

had a really good weekend.

so it's time for work now this week.

Friday marked the end of our term 3!!!

holiday here i come!!

In order to come back to You, I know what i should do.

First, I should stop doing what I am doing.

Second,I should let go of the person that i love the most and praying that the person will come back to me someday.

Third, disappear.

Fourth, go into refuge.

Dubai. You. I.

Cant wait to travel around..Once i start working!

one of the important lesson in this life is to let go. let go of everything, your feelings, thoughts, anger, disappointment, people,boyfriend, ex best friend, clothes, shoes, things, tv shows. let go when they held no importance, when they are making everything worst, instead of making things better.

and now, i'm letting go of my autocad as you held of no importance. i am going to sleep.

PS/: WATCHING NEW MOON NEXT FRIDAY, AFTER SUBMISSION!WOOHOOT

"Allah is aware of human weaknesses and is forgiving; so come back.. Come back even if you have broken your repentance a thousand times.."

Read this from Sis Muna's Facebook. Just what i need.

dreams, can come true if you believe in it.

i am afraid of what's to come after i graduate. i dont want to be stuck with doing something that i dont like again.three years is enough of a lesson. i just wish, really wish that i will do something that i am interested in,somewhere along that line of work, i will be glad, before i start studying again. hopefully, that will happen. and if i have saved enough, i might want to consider studying overseas, together with K.. that will be real good. the future seemed endless, if only all will come true. countless plans ahead but the one who decides what's best for us, is Him.

ps/: i miss those halaqah days. i wouldnt be sitting here on friday night blogging, but learning something more beneficial. any chances of coming back Sis Muna?

tonight was good. finally,you're not as busy as you were..finally,we just get to sit in silence and enjoy the night away..oh, the wind was too good, i even felt like sleeping there. finally, there werent any arguements,how tired i am of that.i feel contented, i am going to sleep with a smile tonight.

however, the smile will fade when tomorrow comes. reality check, i have work to do. submission due in 3 weeks.

that's it the end of my weekend.

3 more weeks to school, hell it's gonna be but we have 4 weeks of holidays after that.great,just what i needed.

miss,miss,miss

you.

Earth, Sky, Divinity, Mortal.

Oneness. eg, Mosque.

i was looking up on mosques architecture at the school library and i told myself. if i ever goes around to becoming an established,rich architect, the first building i would build is the mosque. IF i ever, but i doubt i will. higher chances i wont but i can contribute in another way. the mosque, is not just a mosque and not just a place to pray.it would be wonderful if i experience an overwhelming interior space of a mosque. i think the mosque should gives us more than the feelings we already have when we enter a mosque. how we should experience the space when we step in the mosque, when we take our ablution, when we bow our heads towards Allah,when we have our foreheads on the praying mat and especially when we are having intimate time with Allah, Himself?these feelings can be enhanced through architecture and interior.wouldnt it be wonderful? when we step out of the mosque, feeling liberated and at peace? do i make sense here? i dont know how to explain further but i want that feeling.i want that mosque to linger in my head and makes me come back more because i feel Allah the most in that mosque. and not that we dont feel Him the most elsewhere but we need a place to feel belong. so lets all use of imagination and imagine that feeling...

i'm pretty tired for today.

probably will be sleeping early. heck to martin heidegger.i'm not gonna read you tonight. you might give me nightmares.

ps, i got 4 more weeks to submission and to holiday!! so fast, yeah i know :)

alright here i am typing this away..

today for a very long time, i am at home on a saturday, doing absolutely nothing(except trying to read and decipher martin heidgger for a review),watch ugly betty season 3 and had pastamania for dinner at lot 1 with sarah.

anyway, my last project for the entire 4 weeks has already been launched. for the very first time in this course ever, i was showing an interest and anticipated of what's going to come.this sliver,tiny interest and anticipation might die off soon, i think but come on, i always dreamed of having my own shop.i havent really thought about it but one thing for sure, it got to be a luxurious shop, as told my the project's brief.

okay, that's it.i'm off to bed..

gotta do work in the morning.stupid martin, why cant philosophers talk straight and not beat around the bush.

alright, queen said i should get a tagboard but you see the comment below there, everyone can start commenting cause it's now open for everyone.

i was watching the pursuit of happyness in the afternoon and the first reason i was watching it because you said i should. it got me thinking about certain things. first, i was imagining you and me, doing our pursuit together and what would it be like. i think you and i have a similar feeling on how we should live this world and that is to be content with just about everything. so imagining us pursuing something together seemed something good to look forward to. but maybe, if it all goes well between you and i.

so i continued thinking and separate myself from you. this is about me. what would i be pursuing? how is it gonna be like and the question is, what is happiness? how you're gonna pursue it without knowing what is happiness to you..it could be anything but for me, what should it be? the movie touches me and i am determined to work hard(i hope i stick to my words). look at chris, he had to go through insecurity by being homeless and here i am typing this from the comfort of my home, what kind of suffering and hardship is mine compared to his? i neither suffer nor works hard enough.

and this thinking went back to you again. chris got his son, someone to pursue the happyness with and someone to drive him to pursuing happyness. i would love if the someone could be you. or someone like you. then that pursuing is not only for yourself and that happyness you get is not only for yourself but it is being shared with the special person, someone who got to be the reason behind your pursuit.

i know, i am so emotional tonight but this is what i am feeling now and i wont deny those feelings.

alright be back, less emo.

go watch the movie, is worthwhile.

It's fine.

Chin up,

Let it go,

Walk away,

And pretend nothing happened.

PS/: i need you

you know what i want, CHEESE MUSHROOM EGG PRATA!!!!

wow,it's novermber already. 2 more months to another new year, 2010.

my first project of term 3 is done,alhamdullilah.

ps: all i want before my school life gets hectic is a really good day with you. busy, busy busy. that's life. do not let the work control you,you control the work.