Thursday, June 30, 2011

Tuesday March 20th 2008

It was one day before your birthday and we had a date.I think at that time,I didn't even know it was a day before your birthday.It was the most unforgettable date I ever had with you and that was what exactly I described the date on my diary.Unforgettable.It was a simplest affair but the simple of all leaves more memories.We had dinner at Seoul Garden at Ngee Ann City.I wrote that you were really good to me.You being gentleman,taking the utensils for me and asked the waiter for the brownies because I wanted one.That simple gestures of yours impressed me the most and bring warmth to my heart.

After dinner we walked around Orchard Road,busking in the lights of neon and the buzzing crowd.But it didn't stop us.We walked aimlessly and finally had a stop at Borders,which we still up till now often come when we're in town and don't know what to do.We were looking through religious Islamic books and had the same interest.Everything was so perfect that night.I never felt any calmer or serene that I shared with another man.The night ended when you sent me home,the first guy ever to send me right to my doorstep.You gave me a shawl you bought from KL and you lied to me before that you didn't buy anything when I asked.You just wanted to surprise me actually.And that shawl still lies here in my bed,right beside me when I go to sleep every night.Because it reminded me of you.Of the first thing you ever bought for me.

After that wonderful and special night,I had fallen hard for you.You didn't know this but that night had left a huge impact on me.I was thinking of you day and night.I wanted to tell you right away but I hold back this crazy feeling that I had for you.It has been too long since I felt this way for someone and it made me happy.I then prayed to God to make this happen,right and give me the strength that I need.

To the simple dates that we had :)
Day 2 : It finally sink in.Ouch,it hurts so so badly :(

Wednesday, June 29, 2011

Our First Date

5th February 2008 was our first date.Truth to be told,I never been out on a date.Meeting and getting to know a guy was something new to me,it was somewhat of a fear that I needed to overcome myself.K asked me out on a Tuesday night to Breeks Marina Square.That day,that place,that time was where everything started.You waited for me outside Breeks,the moment I saw you,my heart beats so fast.I was choking with nervousness.I watched you from far because I saw you first.You,with your white pullover sweater,black straightcut pants,clean-cut hair and your green bag(cant remember what shoe you wore though).You had a good first impression,I'm glad you had some sense of fashion cause I cared about this and it was one of my considerations if i ever decide to go out with you again.

We said our Hi's and we went inside.I apologized for reaching late,and that I had blisters and that it was no excuse.I was blabbering,because I was nervous.We then ordered our food and since we were on dutch,I ordered something cheap and I think you did too.Haha.We started our conversations,awkward moments here and there because it was the first time we saw each other and alone together like this.Our date was then brought out outside when we were done with dinner.It was about 9 plus and we had a nice walk to the Merlion statue where we chose to sat.I was blabbering again,talking about my secondary school life.You were pretty quiet but you shared some of yours too.I keep talking and asking you because you were too quiet for a noisy girl like me.I don't want to be in silence for long.For a person like me I tried to avoid silence between two people cause it makes me uncomfortable.However,during moments of silence,sitting beside you,looking at the scenery we had,I found a sense of comfort that I never had with any other guy.There onwards,was the starting point of you teaching me the meaning of silence,being quiet and still enjoy each other company.

I lost the track of time but it was 10.30pm plus that we wanted to go back.We walked to the Raffles Mrt and when we were at the platform,the train towards City Hall arrives.I was so ready to leave.I was so ready to end the night because I was still nervous and I don't want to continue the conversation.You wanted to send me back but I refused profusely.There,it ended right there.And the rest is history..

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

Hurt is like a knife pierced through the heart and then all you feel is numbness.
The past is always lurking in the present and future,waiting for the right time to make its appearance and ruin all the hopes of believing that we have already moved on.You might moved on but the past is still the past and it's coming back to haunt you or your loved ones.So what are you going to do when you are facing someone's else's past?How do you even get up and try to move on once again?

Monday, June 13, 2011

Leaving your entire fate to the Almighty and not having a single worry is really a challenge.Over and over again,I remind myself that He knows what is best for me and that the wait will be worth it.Keep your faith high,Masturah :)

Wednesday, June 01, 2011

 
 
 
 
 
 
 
This marks The End.