saturday.you.me.beach road.chicken wanton noodle.air tebu.camping stuffs.golden landmark.sit.conversation.religion.islam.masjid sultan.banquet.wanton noodle again!bugis street.watsons.arab street.your friends.sufi.shisha.turkish tea.heart attack.murderer.exhuasted.morning.cabbed.home.

sunday.you.me.late.waiting.vitasoy.causeway point.camping stuffs again.mcdonalds.raining.library.watching you read.smoke break.bite.mrt.goodbye.

looking on a bright side,i am meeting my secondary school friends for two consecutive saturdays.i am happy.miss you girls so much.

oh my oh my.this week is ending soon :( i am not ready.no i am ready.i am strong.well, if you think i am exaggerating, try to not to talk or even see your loved one for 16 days.okay maybe i am exaggerating.not as bad as someone really losing their loved ones.i told him you're practically dead to me for these 16 days but he said,yeah die but will come back alive.and and things are harder when you are so free at home doing nothing and all you could think of is him.damn,i wished i had school so i'll keep myself busy and days will pass faster unlike now.ns sucks.big time.oh people,ask me out okay!anywhere.to pasir ris also i'll go.(desparate nampak)



oh Allah i know you're testing me.You'll not put me through things that i cannot go through.
pray for me my sisters.

today was an achievement for me.i woke up early to jog.after like a year.after not jogging for so long,my stamina level is zero.i couldn't even complete like one round(around the neighbourhood)without stopping.i ran two rounds though.my body felt so weak and you know i don't really like the sound of weakness.not to show off or whatever,i remember when i was back in secondary school,i love running and i 'll do my best to win top 25 during cross country.well things changed though.the only exercising is walking from dover mrt to SD.hahah.which is pretty far.

3 more weeks to school!!!!!!!!!!!i can't wait!!!!!!!!

it's funny how things went by that night on your birthday.i wanted it to be perfect but things were not going as i planned it to be.but you're good to me.if it was any other person,they would said i ruined their big day.hahah.but it was imperfectly perfect just like how we like it to be.

hahah,this picture depicts, " what are you guys waiting for?sing me the song so i can blow my damn candles ". and please don't think that i am so unglam, celebrated the bday at my place cause under circumstances his friends can only come to my place to make the "surprise" work.



ps/: very bad news. starting 1 april,i will not see or even hear K for 16 days while he is in ubin.no conversations of sorts,nothing.practically,he will not exist for that 16 days.bad enough? yes.

21 ON 21

my year 1 results are out.
alhamdullilah.
will try to do better next year.

Announcement-

this hit me.april's coming soon and i am not looking forward for it cause K's off for 16 days in pulau ubin.damn,i don't see the need of them going to pulau ubin.

whatever it is,just wanna tell all my girlfriends.yes i mean all(chey kirekan byk sgt ke girlfriends aku ada)are free to meet me anytime during april of course so fairies!i hope they are reading this,let's date each other okay.and of course hoping to meet leha and lala cause we have not been out together for so very long.not forgetting my bimbo girls.so any days except friday and sunday nights.hope to hear from you soon ladies.

xoxo
Masturah

conversations about the future.
something to look forward too.

I Love You Anway- Mocca

mocca is performing this sunday night and it is free!!!i have the huge urge to ditch halaqah and see them perform but in my heart,i am weighing the importance of the two.it's hard but i think i am ditching mocca instead.i am sad but it's okay,it's okay,it's okay.there might be hikmah.

anyway,i think i am just gonna redha at the fact that i am not going to get any jobs and will be spending my holiday at home.i am going to make use of my holiday especially when april comes( you''ll know why).one of the thing that i will loved to do is to sign up for dress making class but oh well,i think that's not gonna happen.i am going to bake if ever i am inspired to or not.i am going to draw.hahah,i can't confirm on that but hopefully i will.i also would like to shop a bit.i would want to make dates with all my girlfriends and cousins too but only at the end of the march.okay,i think that's all i want to do.of course,never forget to read more,not novels or thrillers but others like architecture?haha the word itself already bore me.

put all that aside,i had a good talk with K last saturday.talk that resolved to a decision.we had come this far.people might think,gosh you guys known each other for a short period of time(if 1 year and 3 months is short to them)but you guys had no idea.i seldom talk about my relationship,is of no concern to anyone,except friends and family members.well all i have to say is that relationship is not easy.love is easy.to love someone is easy but to be with someone?it's hard but it's easy at the same time.go figure.

these two days,i feel like i have no backbone.all i want to do is just lie on my bed.the ironic thing is i am feeling sleepy when i had like 10 hours of sleep?alright,i guess is time for me to jog and i am praying this time it will happen.we'll see whether i will jog on thursday.make your bets!

today my perangai mcm B.seriously.it has been raining since morning.i took 2 very short naps despite the fact that i woke up at 1010.all i did was watch tv,eat,lie down on my bed and surf the net.very very very lazy and bored.very bored.

it is really not easy planning and i hate the fact that i am seriously lack of creative juices.anyway,i want it to be perfect and it would help if i have more money.nevermind,the thought that counts?haha,you might not understand,nevermind,not yet.i can't say it here :)

i can't wait for friday saturday sunday.wow,my weekends will always be pack.insyaAllah.

ps/: do you guys like my new blog look? nothing new but i like it.

i seriously want to get a job.i think i tried hard.i have sent resumes to companies and i have prayed hard.it irked me a lot that i am still jobless but after i have thought about it,maybe Allah wants me to just stay at home.knowing that He knows what best for me,i think i can resort to that.halaqah resumed last sunday.left me with so many thought.is overwhelming and making me cry,as always.halaqah always made me cry.everytime the mention of relationship,made me cringe and cry more.that,i seriously don't know what to do.i guess i am leaving things as it is.i can't do what atifa(i think that's her name)did.i am not strong for that.part,maybe huge part of me is still craving for more duniawi stuff.tell me people,what's more important,duniawi or ukhrawi(the hereafter)?of course we would say ukhrawi but the way we pursue our life?i am not here to show that i am good muslimah,i am so far from that.anyway,i miss the girls so much,even though we don't know each other much but i know that we have a bond,and most importantly, we're going through the same battle.

Last Thursday- DID BBQ @ ECP


a game of bowling to kill time.i was better this time round.maybe because my sister wasn't there unlike the previous time.haha.but still.we four were kinda suckers in bowling so it's okay!anyway,is only 2 bucks for a game!

went to cycle then cause that's our main intention of coming to ecp early but due to rain we have to wait.it was really good,cycling.keeps my mind at ease.


sit by the rocks and started screaming.kononyer nak release the stress or whatever emotions we have.hahah.

bbq after that.

played twister!

and lastly camwhored.

i know this sounds like an unenthusiastic post but i am just killing time.