oh oh,i just found about another meaningful date. 5 February 08. K, can you remember what it is?(oh no is not our one year anni or whatever it is)

TO DID YEAR 1, PLEASE DO NOT TALK ABOUT HOW MUCH STRESS YOU ARE IN NOW AND HOW MUCH WORK WE HAVE CAUSE ME,READING YOUR BLOGS WILL RESULT ME BEING MORE STRESS SO JUST KEEP IT ALL INSIDE AS FOR NOW ALRIGHT PEOPLE.

awww..tomorrow's school.it's alright i guess.knowing that i have like one more week before schools unofficially ends.and that's year 1 for me!!woohoo!!

anyway,i opened a facebook account people.i know i know.i am the last few.oh wait ruifen will definitely be the last one.hahaha.so beloved friends,do add me.

okay that's all people.i seriously can't think of what else to say and i am in no mood to talk about serious stuff like how i feel blah blah blah.

all i know is i am going to watch gossip girl later,with ice cream in my hand.
you know you love me.xoxo.

alas,i bought a LBD(LONG,NOT LITTLE BLACK DRESS) at zara.
i spent about one hour and a half deciding between two dresses!two dresses!!the one making me confused is K.hahaha.it should be me confusing myself.anyway,every girl needs LBD even though how boring black can be.i can't wait for this friday though!

the best time of the last year. Jan to July.bring me back there.let me fall in love with you all over again..

i had a nap around 4 and when i woke up at around 6 plus,i thought it was thursday.
the nap must be damn good.

let me declare this.
2 MORE FREAKING WEEKS TO SUBMISSION!!!!!!!!!!
and i yet to done,the final shophouse model,cad and viz drawings,intech wall and tod journal.
2 weeks?damn.i.am.screwed.

besides school,i have nothing much to say.

i'm looking out for these two dates. 30 Jan and 6 Feb.

Nad's Suprise Bday-

waiting for nad..going to surprise her.

dan said, siape kater aku love dier sey since they cake said we all love you.hahaha.

okay,the surprise didn't go as planned cause ZUL as always spoiled the plan.he was late together with khai and harris and nad saw them already!!!arggh,same goes to man's bday surprise.

gift from man.a scroll!it's quite cool and it's handmade so guys do something thoughtful and not just buy,instead do or write something!

words of love..hahah.chey..

and nad gave him this photo/letter thingy.it was cool too!seriously.

proceeded to henderson waves.lala was taking video and we were all like babarians wanting to talk infront of the camera.semua bebual merepek.hahah.

girl,we didn't get to catch up!!

the babes.

ya habibi!hahah.seriously,this is so freaking hilarious!

don't you think he looked like one of the terrorists?hahahah

i am so loving this weekend.i don't even want to think about project!!!!!!!!

well let me summed up this week:

- on monday started shophouse mock up model.concept approved.

- tuesday viz sucked to the core but everything starts with a hate and then love.i choose to believe that

-wednesday nothing much.watch american idol!

-thursday had lecture on islam.it was so so interesting.faris was talking about the beginning of islam, and islam architecture.i love this deep deep stuff,mythology,theolgy,cosmology and i had an idea that maybe i should become a lecturer instead and teach about the beginning of islam.and after that ruifen asked me a question whether i would go to archi school if i get into university and my answer was no,i don't know,no,i don't know.wassup with that fickle-mindedness?i always thought i would never pursue design as a career but i had thoughts about it i think after that question.so ruifen,thanks.haha.well,i want to be a lot of things.but i have only one thing that i would definitely dreamed of doing.

and here comes the awaited friday.

going to see the cckss peeps tomorrow!!woohoo!!

it's wednesday already!
today for cross cultural comm, we learnt banghra dance.hahah,it was so fun.the guy had to teach us cause he won some banghra competiton.and there's so much to do for the project.i am not complaining for studio but aww,viz and cad can just stab me right through.why can't viz be like the sims which is much more easier and fun.

to think of it,nothing in this world is easy.life is a struggle.everyday it is but that what makes life more interesting you think? if life is easy and happy,so what is the point of living then?

and and,i forgot,a guy asked me to show my hair to him today.i know he's joking but i told him that do you need a hair to get a judgement of who you are?seriously,i think no. for me is like losing a part of the body.like an arm.so do you judge an armless person differently than?he is afterall a human being.just like me.seen without hair,am normal and judged differently.maybe not in singapore but in other countries.i am still me hijab or not.and i feel secured with my hijab,that's for sure.

yesterday's shopping was a disappointment.
that mango dress was The One but if only i was taller,it would fit me perfectly.
the scavenging continues next week and i think die die i need to find something by next week.
and prom last year was easy because let me just put it this way,i "forgot" the most important thing on my head.but no,it is not a fuss for me now.i would not "forget" this time round.

i wish i was somewhere far.far from here and be overwhelm with God's creations and people.

was taken at vivo city national geographic shop!my first virgin feel of what is -10 degree celcius.hahah.

wednesday-photography trip for studio's assignment.too tired to take images.the wind was way better.

my weekend will be spent planning/sketching of shophouse,viz-ing,crs powerpoint slides,photoshopping ,read The Notebook(i love it.oh so romantic and i am helpless when it comes to romance.big hint to K),watch gossip girl season 2,sleep if i have more time,buy boards,take more photographs and this is what i look forward the most,meeting K and window shop for dresses!

4 MORE WEEKS TO HOLIDAY= 4 MORE WEEKS TO SUBMISSION= THE COMMENCE OF NO-LIFE.

K, this is for you :)

apart from the stress from school,i am stressing out at this.i need to find a long formal(not prom-sy dresses,more of a simple one) dress by 30 Jan and money's shit so i don't know if i ever find one!!people,if you have one,i would be glad that you rent the dress for me or tell me where to get affordable ones!!!email me okay.i doubt there will any.

i remember,last year,it was hard for me to leave 2008 because it means that i will literally leave my good old secondary school friends.oh,how much i miss those sec 5 days.and we( me lala leha fatin dina dan man zul hafiz hizam yan)were pretty tight.we're gonna see each other soon,insyaAllah.

and now the current school,so many things to do.at last i am done with one project.tomorrow gonna finish another one.submission monday!well,this term is short.we're got like 5 weeks left and is holiday!seriously,i want to work after that.i really really hope to get a job.so don't miss your zuhur mas cause missing zuhur means the blessing of your income is taken away. now don't you guys wonder why your money runs out so quickly? of course,the ultimate intention is to worship Allah and by that Allah will gives you reward.InsyaAllah.

i'm not here to preach.just sharing.i'm not a perfect muslim and sometimes,i hate when people think that the ones wearing headscarf are the most exemplary example.of course,we should be but please if we make a mistake don't see it as a huge mistake.

okay i'm done with this.

HEY, IT'S 2009!

and i had spent my last minute last second of 2008 with K.typical thing for countdown is to watch fireworks!it was the BEST i have seen so far this year.thank you even though i had to sit through more than an hour with your police friends,talking about police.yawn.hah.

Unbelievable. 2008 passed by so quickly. lets get straight to the point. 2008 has been a crazy year for me. it is about change,accepting change and embracing change. the change of the environment in school. it is a whole different experience for me.i hadnt had a fantastic time in school and i had thought of quitting design but i believe that Allah has put me here for a reason.i believe that it is not a mistake.all thanks to Allah,without that believe,i would be gone. and changes comes in form of friends too.to ruifen,kat,hammie,queenie and maureen,cheers to our friendship and may our friendship last.

i remembered last year,i had made one resolution.take risks.and what i meant was when someone wants to get to know me,i wouldnt judge him but instead,allow him to get to know me.i am a judger when it comes to that so by taking that risk,i thought i could find someone.someone to love for who he is. and i did found him.because right after i made that resolution, he came to me and i accepted him. i wasn't looking for a boyfriend.i wasn't desparate.i just thought that at 18 it will be appriopiate for me to start experiencing since i never had any boyfriends.

it was a right timing,everything seemed to fall in place.first we're dating,then we are more serious.it was perfect.everything starts off as perfect but as he got into army,then police,our relationship was being tested.and it is still is.life is full of test.i accept that there will be time,we will get into arguements and misunderstanding.i have never known the meaning of loving someone till i met him.he is the best person i've known and he is part of who i am today. even though i've only known him for a year.if it doesn't last, at least i learnt more than just to love someone. i 've learnt a lot more. my experience is priceless.this is a whole new experience.this is a change for me and i am definitely embracing this one.
i love you khidhir.

we all then talk about resolutions.i did not think of any serious resolution that i should commit to in times to come.i just had some thoughts of what i am supposed to this year(well at least if i didn't do it,i don't feel like my year is wasted)
in random:

1)i seriously want to get serious with interior design.i think i need to read and observe more.i think i need to stop thinking that my money will go to waste when i spend on a project.doing something that started off insincere,will mean that my grades are just gonna stick to C,especially for design studio.i terribly need to get serious in design studio.i need to analyze things more.lastly,i need to find the passion.just a sliver of it would work.

2)save.which is impossible.and this linked to, get a part time job instead.which i have been thinking about it quite sometimes recently.i need to be more conscious of my money.well,if i can't save,i'll ask khidhir to save.seeing someone saves and being part of it will make me feel like i save too.

3)to love my family more than ever.i know khidhir is now in my life and i might prioritise him too much but i will try to prioritise my family more.my mam especially.i am so sorry mam,i have defied you a lot of times.but this year,i will try my best.

4)in terms of my religion,i will try my best not to miss my sollah.i think this is very important.kak muna reminded us not to miss it.just don't miss it.and of course,there's more i need to do but i will keep it inside and not plan it out.i will follow as it is.

5)be more understanding and not self centered.for you.for us.

6)lastly,enjoy 2009!!life is short too be sad!

happy new year everybody.
xoxo.