Wednesday, August 31, 2005
well damn,i didnt go to my primary school.i actually missed them a lot but i lost contct with them except for my dear shidah.nvm,at least i had fun just now.we play with fire again and this time,i saw someone from the window calling police so we quickly rushed off.dun want to be caught by the polic again.and then we created a really interesting idea!!!can't wait for that babes!!i'm so looking forward to go out together-me lala lin jana aisyah!
my father is back.i thought of going going to hospital but he's okay.thank god.
the teacher's celebration day concert was really interesting but not as fun like last year!i enjoyed the khairul's seducive scenes and the part when there was teachers and students talking.but my fav got to be joseph dancing!!!!!!!!!!!he's so cute he's so cute he's so cute he's so cute he's so cute he's so cute he's so cute he's so cute!!!!!!!!!!!!he really can dance!!!!!first look,u dun expect him to be in movement and dance club or even actually danced but he really danced better than me!wow!
i'm off to east coast tmr for POP!!!
my father is back.i thought of going going to hospital but he's okay.thank god.
the teacher's celebration day concert was really interesting but not as fun like last year!i enjoyed the khairul's seducive scenes and the part when there was teachers and students talking.but my fav got to be joseph dancing!!!!!!!!!!!he's so cute he's so cute he's so cute he's so cute he's so cute he's so cute he's so cute he's so cute!!!!!!!!!!!!he really can dance!!!!!first look,u dun expect him to be in movement and dance club or even actually danced but he really danced better than me!wow!
i'm off to east coast tmr for POP!!!
Tuesday, August 30, 2005
sunday i visited my ayah.i have to drag my two bros along and lucky me they behaved in the mrt.if not i'll rot with shame.the sight of him looking so weak touched my soul and brought me to tears.i never see him tat weak coz he's always been such a strong dad.he survived in the operation.thank god.syukur.and now,i think he's okie.i haven't see him yet.maybe tmr.
i'v been busy studying,watching tv and looking after my bro.i've become motherly since my mom spent more time at hospital and i have to fetch my bro,feed them,make them do their prayers and forced them to study.it was so difficult to handle two stubborn brothers.
today was bio and ss.ss was quite tough.i was wondering why ppl took a long time to finish the paper whereas i was falling to sleep.i reckoned that i missed a lot of points that i might forgot.i didn't get to sleep though coz mr johan will minus 5 marks for sleeping.so unreasonable without a doubt.bio was killing me.i've studied so hard and forced myself to concentrate.mr leong told us wat to study but none of it came out expect for the adaptation for leaf.i was so frustrated coz i dun even noe how to do a single qns and eventually i stared at it and cried.i study like and hell and wat do i get?bullshit.
after the test,i cried again.i can't help it.i really hate when i put so much effort into something and all i get is pure bullshit.so mad.so fed up.i released my stress by buying one huge chocolate.i always do that and i won't even give a damn whether i get fat.
i'm so fed up today.with you with pure bio with everything else.go fuck and die.
i'v been busy studying,watching tv and looking after my bro.i've become motherly since my mom spent more time at hospital and i have to fetch my bro,feed them,make them do their prayers and forced them to study.it was so difficult to handle two stubborn brothers.
today was bio and ss.ss was quite tough.i was wondering why ppl took a long time to finish the paper whereas i was falling to sleep.i reckoned that i missed a lot of points that i might forgot.i didn't get to sleep though coz mr johan will minus 5 marks for sleeping.so unreasonable without a doubt.bio was killing me.i've studied so hard and forced myself to concentrate.mr leong told us wat to study but none of it came out expect for the adaptation for leaf.i was so frustrated coz i dun even noe how to do a single qns and eventually i stared at it and cried.i study like and hell and wat do i get?bullshit.
after the test,i cried again.i can't help it.i really hate when i put so much effort into something and all i get is pure bullshit.so mad.so fed up.i released my stress by buying one huge chocolate.i always do that and i won't even give a damn whether i get fat.
i'm so fed up today.with you with pure bio with everything else.go fuck and die.
Saturday, August 27, 2005
i enjoyed today.had so much fun although a bit mendak.mr loy was shocked to see me.he said i looked different.ahaha.i'm not the same in school when i'm outside.anyway,we took a bus to suntec city convention hall.the place was crowded and all the guys and girls sat together.then,the fake ghost came out and scared ppl away.it was funny and the guys can even shake hand with them.we're not scared obviously,but some ppl even cried coz the fake ghost was scaring them away.even chased them.grr.
then the show began and the lawrence showed some impressive magic.some parts was scary coz he cut and bleed his hand and wiped it with a towel and the wound was not there.very amazed.there was one part when they scared us and said that they will be showing an arc demon.i dunno whether the demon was fake or not but it suddenly appeared in the glass.after that was a boring sharahan by the pastor kong and they influenced ppl to convert and be a christian.so we went out and eat.the view was nice.then walked around esplanade.khairil was so hilarious!!!oh god,he was sarcastic and can get along with us very well since he's not from cckss.
anyhow,i enjoyed it so much.reached home at 9 plus.i wished my father will get well soon.he's been warded to hospital to remove his appendix.i'll see him tmr and won't be blogging till wed i guess.
then the show began and the lawrence showed some impressive magic.some parts was scary coz he cut and bleed his hand and wiped it with a towel and the wound was not there.very amazed.there was one part when they scared us and said that they will be showing an arc demon.i dunno whether the demon was fake or not but it suddenly appeared in the glass.after that was a boring sharahan by the pastor kong and they influenced ppl to convert and be a christian.so we went out and eat.the view was nice.then walked around esplanade.khairil was so hilarious!!!oh god,he was sarcastic and can get along with us very well since he's not from cckss.
anyhow,i enjoyed it so much.reached home at 9 plus.i wished my father will get well soon.he's been warded to hospital to remove his appendix.i'll see him tmr and won't be blogging till wed i guess.
Friday, August 26, 2005
at 5,it was beau and belle concert.the most happening event in our school.ppl nominate for pretty girls and guys and then it comes down to three guys and girls including the teachers too.i was supporting alvina,ms ibaidah and mr tan wee liat!and then the contestants have to come out to answer qns and the both mr tan sang a song.their voice were really impressive and a skit shown by the teachers was funny.ibaidah and nora was acting like a bitch but it was really funny!the teachers were so supporting and the contestants for female teachers kept saying school peace instead of world peace.(that was wat the beauty peagant do when they anw qns)the malay guys were supporting too.standing up and cheering for ms nora.but i go for ibaidah!the winner for beau and belle was yiwen from sec 4,mervin koh,mr tan liang hoo and ms ibaidah!i was expecting alvina coz she's gorgeous but it was up to the judges.i really enjoyed the event and i congratulated the 3/10 for succedding in this charity show(admission must pay leh).
one day,i really hoped that i would organise an event.i've been waiting to organise and event and see the show goes very well.i want to join the mr peng charity stuff.they make business and sell and the money goes to charity.it looks fun but the thing is that it only for the express classes and i'm so awkward to join in coz they are very smart ppl.i hope they will be an oppurtunity for me.
i met her after school and we talked bout her problems.at last she voiced out.finally,she told wat happened and i pity her so much.she realised wat she was doing and she's waiting for the right time to change back to who she use to be.i'm angry at ppl who made stupid assumption bout her saying that she changed for the worst,blah,blah,blah..u all dun even noe why she changed so stop assuming.i'm really protective over my frens.everyone got their reasons and she got hers.someone also said something bad bout my frens infront of me.lucky i didn't snapped at that somebody coz it was not the right time.i hate ppl who speculate.hate them coz they got a shallow mind!
one day,i really hoped that i would organise an event.i've been waiting to organise and event and see the show goes very well.i want to join the mr peng charity stuff.they make business and sell and the money goes to charity.it looks fun but the thing is that it only for the express classes and i'm so awkward to join in coz they are very smart ppl.i hope they will be an oppurtunity for me.
i met her after school and we talked bout her problems.at last she voiced out.finally,she told wat happened and i pity her so much.she realised wat she was doing and she's waiting for the right time to change back to who she use to be.i'm angry at ppl who made stupid assumption bout her saying that she changed for the worst,blah,blah,blah..u all dun even noe why she changed so stop assuming.i'm really protective over my frens.everyone got their reasons and she got hers.someone also said something bad bout my frens infront of me.lucky i didn't snapped at that somebody coz it was not the right time.i hate ppl who speculate.hate them coz they got a shallow mind!
Thursday, August 25, 2005
i screwed up in english ct.had 3 choices for wat title we want to write.from option 1,i go to option 2 then i decided to option 3 and back to option 2.i took 15 minutes to decide and to think.and the option that i took,it's a typical thing coz almost everyone was writing bout that.i ran out of ideas.damn it right?
combined science for one hour.not enough time.i did physics for 15 minutes.lucky it was quite easy.thanks for all the last minute revision in class.i took 40 minutes for chemistry but yet,not enough time coz it was tough!!ass!all the balancing and criss cross is rubbish!i dun even understand wat i'm writing!i gave up!bloody hell!
u noe wat dan told me when i greeted mr johan abang johan?he said,"mas kau panggil dier abang johan,aku rasa dier meluat".probably.ahahahaha!!!
that abang johan is so bad.i asked him,cher may i go to the washroom?" and he replied,"wat?u want to wash the room.now u take the broom(he gave me the broom)and wash the room".it was lame but i was laughing like hell.nonsense man!and he kept talking malay to us.he translated war torn to perang koyak.ahahaha!!
combined science for one hour.not enough time.i did physics for 15 minutes.lucky it was quite easy.thanks for all the last minute revision in class.i took 40 minutes for chemistry but yet,not enough time coz it was tough!!ass!all the balancing and criss cross is rubbish!i dun even understand wat i'm writing!i gave up!bloody hell!
u noe wat dan told me when i greeted mr johan abang johan?he said,"mas kau panggil dier abang johan,aku rasa dier meluat".probably.ahahahaha!!!
that abang johan is so bad.i asked him,cher may i go to the washroom?" and he replied,"wat?u want to wash the room.now u take the broom(he gave me the broom)and wash the room".it was lame but i was laughing like hell.nonsense man!and he kept talking malay to us.he translated war torn to perang koyak.ahahaha!!
it's been four days in a row that i've been taking mrt instead of bus to school.my morning routine goes like this:
1.had a slow and nice breakfast at around 7 plus.
2. realised that i'm late
3.rushed out from the house at 7.20
4.had a patience class for 10 minutes(having to wait for the bus patiently till my patience growing thin)
5.it's 7.30 and i decided to take mrt
6.have a small marathon(walking briskly from the bus stop to yew tee mrt station)
7.another marathon(from the cck mrt station to the central bus stop.i dun wan to miss the bus)
8.had catching game when reached the school bus stop at 7.47(chased to the gate before it closed at 7.50)
and it's been four days in a row that i'm saved from detention despite being nearly late.it's all sheer luck!
1.had a slow and nice breakfast at around 7 plus.
2. realised that i'm late
3.rushed out from the house at 7.20
4.had a patience class for 10 minutes(having to wait for the bus patiently till my patience growing thin)
5.it's 7.30 and i decided to take mrt
6.have a small marathon(walking briskly from the bus stop to yew tee mrt station)
7.another marathon(from the cck mrt station to the central bus stop.i dun wan to miss the bus)
8.had catching game when reached the school bus stop at 7.47(chased to the gate before it closed at 7.50)
and it's been four days in a row that i'm saved from detention despite being nearly late.it's all sheer luck!
long time didn't update.
monday:
had a 3.6 km(i guess)run.it was exhausting.from my school to zhenghua pri all the way to cck park and all the way back to my school.i ran non-stop till cck park but cannot take it anymore.when i was running,i constantly reminded myself:"my body is not tired,it's just my mind that's tired".anyway i freaked out when i got to noe there's a test on monday.i totally forgot bout it and when lala told me(just before bio class),i screamed.i didn't study and i can't answer two freaking qns.
tuesday:
changed timetable and there was another pe lesson!yeay!i played badminton and i realised that i got no hidden talent.i can serve using tennis racket but not using badminton racket.but still i can hit the ball.halfway through,it rained and we're playing under the rain.it was nice and lala jana and me kept pushing each other to the rain.end up,i'm the one getting all drenched.after that in class,yus wore amalina's skirt and he shook his thang.we hp-camared it and laughed our hearts out.it was hilarious!!ahahaha!!i got 7/10 for ss.abang johan(he's a teacher but the malays called him abang)marked so strict.went to aisyah's house.thanks for the food cik!
wednesday:
went to aisyah's house again.muker tak tahu malu eh?we watched mean girls.and it was kinda good.and the guy is such a hottie!well reached home,i was too tired to study for common test.i revised chemistry not for physics.well i should stop saying f word coz i'm used to it and i burst it out during abang johan's lesson.he reminded twice:"masturah,no obsenities!dunno the spelling)
monday:
had a 3.6 km(i guess)run.it was exhausting.from my school to zhenghua pri all the way to cck park and all the way back to my school.i ran non-stop till cck park but cannot take it anymore.when i was running,i constantly reminded myself:"my body is not tired,it's just my mind that's tired".anyway i freaked out when i got to noe there's a test on monday.i totally forgot bout it and when lala told me(just before bio class),i screamed.i didn't study and i can't answer two freaking qns.
tuesday:
changed timetable and there was another pe lesson!yeay!i played badminton and i realised that i got no hidden talent.i can serve using tennis racket but not using badminton racket.but still i can hit the ball.halfway through,it rained and we're playing under the rain.it was nice and lala jana and me kept pushing each other to the rain.end up,i'm the one getting all drenched.after that in class,yus wore amalina's skirt and he shook his thang.we hp-camared it and laughed our hearts out.it was hilarious!!ahahaha!!i got 7/10 for ss.abang johan(he's a teacher but the malays called him abang)marked so strict.went to aisyah's house.thanks for the food cik!
wednesday:
went to aisyah's house again.muker tak tahu malu eh?we watched mean girls.and it was kinda good.and the guy is such a hottie!well reached home,i was too tired to study for common test.i revised chemistry not for physics.well i should stop saying f word coz i'm used to it and i burst it out during abang johan's lesson.he reminded twice:"masturah,no obsenities!dunno the spelling)
Sunday, August 21, 2005
i had a nice sleep during madrasah lesson :) anyhow,my madrasah mates are super smart.everytime,they'll bring their homework to school and we'll talk bout school. then i'll feel so small,so inferior coz they way better smart than me.i'll prefer listening to them rather talking.look wat kind of school they come from.one from dunearn,one from CHIJ and another from cresent girls.when i see how smart they are,i see much more smarter ppl than them and then thinking how can i get to the course that i want in poly coz they are many more ppl wants the same course i want and i have to face competiton from other schools all over in s'pore and my confidence decreased.but never say die.just like wat the mr lee hsien long said.
yeah,i watched the national rally.i can't missed it.it's been three years i watched it and every speech is so inspirational and so thoughtful.mr lee talked bout lots of stuff.economic,terrorist and education.when it comes to the issue of education,he focuses on the ITE ppl and there will be.he talked bout services.how s'pore should treat their costumers and upgrading their skills on servicing ppl.then he talked bout upgrading s'pore.i really can't wait to see s'pore in few years time coz they will be upgrading hdb flats,rejuvanating orchard and transforming bugis.and the best plan is building the a garden at marina south,east and central and connecting them together so u can jog from one side to the other.woah..i can't wait for that..
i'm beggining to like political stuff.it interest me so much.i love to listen to man's speeches coz they are more interesting than the opposite gender.that's why i can't pay any attention to ms sim talking.one day,i hope i can go one of the rallies.it will be an honoured for me :)
yeah,i watched the national rally.i can't missed it.it's been three years i watched it and every speech is so inspirational and so thoughtful.mr lee talked bout lots of stuff.economic,terrorist and education.when it comes to the issue of education,he focuses on the ITE ppl and there will be.he talked bout services.how s'pore should treat their costumers and upgrading their skills on servicing ppl.then he talked bout upgrading s'pore.i really can't wait to see s'pore in few years time coz they will be upgrading hdb flats,rejuvanating orchard and transforming bugis.and the best plan is building the a garden at marina south,east and central and connecting them together so u can jog from one side to the other.woah..i can't wait for that..
i'm beggining to like political stuff.it interest me so much.i love to listen to man's speeches coz they are more interesting than the opposite gender.that's why i can't pay any attention to ms sim talking.one day,i hope i can go one of the rallies.it will be an honoured for me :)
basically today was totally dull.i just missed ndp a lots and lots.haiz.it's just so sad to leave things that we don't want.ahaha.i'm such an emo.anyway,.fuck haryati lah.i really can't fanthom why i hate her so much.lucky i've changed.if not she will be my next victim apart from mdm koh.
i went to friendster and this guy add me.at that moment i was mad at my father but suddenly when i looked at his pic,his smiles seemed to cheer me up and one of his caption made me laughed out.ahahaha.i felt like giving him a testi but oh no,i'm so malu!!!!anyway,he'll remain another aquantaince tat add me in friendster.not more than that.too bad mas.as i was reading my testi,i realised that my very own best fren didn't give me one and i didn't even give her too testi in her new account.pathetic eh?probably i write for her next time.
did i tell u i hate saturdays?esp when u have to spend time with ur family.no matter how much i try to love my parents,i just can't.their attitudes just pissing me off everytime.and yeah,i hate my brothers too coz they making life much more difficult for me and my family.thanks for having my sisters.masy always have something to talk bout and sarah have always been so patient to me.i think i'm so bad to her.i always vent my anger on her too and still,she tolerate it and even offer her kindness.thanks sis!
i went to friendster and this guy add me.at that moment i was mad at my father but suddenly when i looked at his pic,his smiles seemed to cheer me up and one of his caption made me laughed out.ahahaha.i felt like giving him a testi but oh no,i'm so malu!!!!anyway,he'll remain another aquantaince tat add me in friendster.not more than that.too bad mas.as i was reading my testi,i realised that my very own best fren didn't give me one and i didn't even give her too testi in her new account.pathetic eh?probably i write for her next time.
did i tell u i hate saturdays?esp when u have to spend time with ur family.no matter how much i try to love my parents,i just can't.their attitudes just pissing me off everytime.and yeah,i hate my brothers too coz they making life much more difficult for me and my family.thanks for having my sisters.masy always have something to talk bout and sarah have always been so patient to me.i think i'm so bad to her.i always vent my anger on her too and still,she tolerate it and even offer her kindness.thanks sis!
Saturday, August 20, 2005
changed my skin.it supposed to be black but it wasn't.i never had white skin before,so i gave it a try and since the skin is really nice!!..sorry to lin if i didn't used her skin for that long.my itchy hands can't stop it!
anyway,we didnt have any cca today but it was totally havocked when we want to go home coz we need to our guides teacher to write a letter so that we can go out from the school.my school's security is tight.i argued with mr goh and that mr lim bermisai kontot.so fed up.if i like this,i rather have cca on friday and nth on wednesday as the gates are open freely on that day.watever it is,i want to change the days coz it's so troublesome.
i passed my geog end of year!but i failed my map despite having 39/50 for my overall.i'm sucks at map lor.i knew it since the beginning.mis rin wrote on my paper:DISAPPOITING.i got 4/10.very teruk right?and i got paper 2 35 /40.i was happy that i'be beaten sheena but not satisfied coz uvanese beaten me.damn it.i must make sure i beat him in social studies.
went to lepak after school at kranji.around the turf club there and bawa blok maner ntah.but i prefer at kranji!i like!
anyway,we didnt have any cca today but it was totally havocked when we want to go home coz we need to our guides teacher to write a letter so that we can go out from the school.my school's security is tight.i argued with mr goh and that mr lim bermisai kontot.so fed up.if i like this,i rather have cca on friday and nth on wednesday as the gates are open freely on that day.watever it is,i want to change the days coz it's so troublesome.
i passed my geog end of year!but i failed my map despite having 39/50 for my overall.i'm sucks at map lor.i knew it since the beginning.mis rin wrote on my paper:DISAPPOITING.i got 4/10.very teruk right?and i got paper 2 35 /40.i was happy that i'be beaten sheena but not satisfied coz uvanese beaten me.damn it.i must make sure i beat him in social studies.
went to lepak after school at kranji.around the turf club there and bawa blok maner ntah.but i prefer at kranji!i like!
Thursday, August 18, 2005
wednesday:
had guides!it was awesome!honestly,i enjoyed it coz everyone was really being enthusiastic and was having FUN most importantly.coz guides dun usually have fun.anyway,since jana lin and me(in footdrill only)will take over we will make some progress changes in guides.our dreams of having guides a better cca than the rest and have some standard.and this with the help of our guider whether they are generous enough to bring us out of school.our POP this year will be at sentosa!yeay!
anyway,me lin jana hanged out in the toilet for one hour at lot 1 coz the new toilet was so cool and there was like a room for us to sit there and chat.i seriously had a fantastic time with my frens!lala lin aisyah jana and me!woohoo!!everything is getting on smoothly!love u guys!!
had guides!it was awesome!honestly,i enjoyed it coz everyone was really being enthusiastic and was having FUN most importantly.coz guides dun usually have fun.anyway,since jana lin and me(in footdrill only)will take over we will make some progress changes in guides.our dreams of having guides a better cca than the rest and have some standard.and this with the help of our guider whether they are generous enough to bring us out of school.our POP this year will be at sentosa!yeay!
anyway,me lin jana hanged out in the toilet for one hour at lot 1 coz the new toilet was so cool and there was like a room for us to sit there and chat.i seriously had a fantastic time with my frens!lala lin aisyah jana and me!woohoo!!everything is getting on smoothly!love u guys!!
Wednesday, August 17, 2005
i really cant stand haryati.sorry cher,the sight of u makes me wanna stuff my dirty unwashed socks to ur mouth.eventually,i've to get used with her coz she might probably be my english teacher for the rest of two years.before chem lesson,i looked for my file at the shelves and i didn't it.i panicked.sat down.wanting to cry.i was thinking bout all the worksheets that i've done and i always update my file and it all gone.so i double checked,and thankfully i saw my file being sandwiched in between somebody's else file.lucky i didn't waste my tear for that file.
didn't us see the signs?sorry gerl,i dun need ur replacement just boz lala had been absence most of the time when we go out.u didn't fit in the clique.i just can't accept you.it's not right.and i totally miss the old lala.hurhur,too bad gerl.
i was cramming bout adaptions of leaf and bout the lactose sucrose,maltase entrekinase thingy to my head today.i got so much to memorise and i think that my head can blow up anytime soon.but i like all the memorising.one eg.(i didn't look at any preference)mouth secretes salivary juice from the salivary glands and the enzyme that present is salivary amylase which breaks down starch to maltose.yeay!
didn't us see the signs?sorry gerl,i dun need ur replacement just boz lala had been absence most of the time when we go out.u didn't fit in the clique.i just can't accept you.it's not right.and i totally miss the old lala.hurhur,too bad gerl.
i was cramming bout adaptions of leaf and bout the lactose sucrose,maltase entrekinase thingy to my head today.i got so much to memorise and i think that my head can blow up anytime soon.but i like all the memorising.one eg.(i didn't look at any preference)mouth secretes salivary juice from the salivary glands and the enzyme that present is salivary amylase which breaks down starch to maltose.yeay!
monday:
had a stupid catching game during pe lesson which consist of me lala jana sheena amalina and nithiya.for just one round running around the field,we're tired.had a tenniston(using tennis racket to play badminton).my hands are now aching.i didn't noe that i've hidden talents.oh,i forgot,i used to be in badminton club :) dun believe right?thought so.
did ipw after school and had a blast.we're painting and i came out with this qns:how bout we play with the paint?and actually we did.me jana ben and george was chasing each other so that we can paint their face.ahaha.i was trying to spice things up and i really had so much fun.it was a great bonding.our prototype is almost finishing.thank god
i'm really exhuasted today.a lot of things that i've to juggle.problems,school work,upcoming common test and last but not least,project.nah,not complaining.
had a stupid catching game during pe lesson which consist of me lala jana sheena amalina and nithiya.for just one round running around the field,we're tired.had a tenniston(using tennis racket to play badminton).my hands are now aching.i didn't noe that i've hidden talents.oh,i forgot,i used to be in badminton club :) dun believe right?thought so.
did ipw after school and had a blast.we're painting and i came out with this qns:how bout we play with the paint?and actually we did.me jana ben and george was chasing each other so that we can paint their face.ahaha.i was trying to spice things up and i really had so much fun.it was a great bonding.our prototype is almost finishing.thank god
i'm really exhuasted today.a lot of things that i've to juggle.problems,school work,upcoming common test and last but not least,project.nah,not complaining.
Monday, August 15, 2005
wonder why i didn't out up the tagboard?coz i'm just so lazy.
anyway,everything happened for a reason.
i read an article in the sunday times under lifestyle section bout this guy named bertrand lee who met with an incident in mumbai while he was taking pictures i guess.he was hit by a 2000kg of truck and his legs was being crashed by the wheels of the heavy truck.his legs were rolled by the wheels and this happened quite a long time ago.i was inspired by the story of his life.he told the writer how he felt and dealt with this.he said that he always wishing to die but the fact that the family and fiancee still love them,he try to bounce up back and slowly recovered.i think if i were him,i' m not able to face the world with shame as he is in wheelchair and lost one leg and the other was amputated.he's still young.28 years old but unfortunately,he can't enjoyed as much as normal ppl do but he got his loves one.and i'm very proud of his fiancee coz she still loyal to him.unlike some gerls,if u're boyfren become disabled,u will feel undoubtlessly shameful of your boyfren.such an inspiring guy with an inspiring story to tell and made this a lesson for everyone to learn.everything can happen within a few seconds.it's all fated.that's why whenever you having a problem,be humble and dun exaggerate(like some ppl but i'm not referring to my frens coz they are strong ppl!).and think bout other ppl who went through a difficult ordeal than you.so guys,read the article that i've reccomended you.
anyway,everything happened for a reason.
i read an article in the sunday times under lifestyle section bout this guy named bertrand lee who met with an incident in mumbai while he was taking pictures i guess.he was hit by a 2000kg of truck and his legs was being crashed by the wheels of the heavy truck.his legs were rolled by the wheels and this happened quite a long time ago.i was inspired by the story of his life.he told the writer how he felt and dealt with this.he said that he always wishing to die but the fact that the family and fiancee still love them,he try to bounce up back and slowly recovered.i think if i were him,i' m not able to face the world with shame as he is in wheelchair and lost one leg and the other was amputated.he's still young.28 years old but unfortunately,he can't enjoyed as much as normal ppl do but he got his loves one.and i'm very proud of his fiancee coz she still loyal to him.unlike some gerls,if u're boyfren become disabled,u will feel undoubtlessly shameful of your boyfren.such an inspiring guy with an inspiring story to tell and made this a lesson for everyone to learn.everything can happen within a few seconds.it's all fated.that's why whenever you having a problem,be humble and dun exaggerate(like some ppl but i'm not referring to my frens coz they are strong ppl!).and think bout other ppl who went through a difficult ordeal than you.so guys,read the article that i've reccomended you.
i had fun with fatin and hanisah today.i was crapping all the way and managed not to sleep in class.but it doens't make any difference coz i was not listening to wat the uztazah was teaching.
anyhow,i got tons of unfinished homework to do.chem worksheet and biology workbook.i did't even take a look at it.i ought to do multi-tasking.watching the SIGNS and doing my homework.that should do the trick.feeling so lazy to go to school tmr.shucks.
u're so nice to me but i'm not
anyhow,i got tons of unfinished homework to do.chem worksheet and biology workbook.i did't even take a look at it.i ought to do multi-tasking.watching the SIGNS and doing my homework.that should do the trick.feeling so lazy to go to school tmr.shucks.
u're so nice to me but i'm not
Sunday, August 14, 2005
oh holy shit,something's worng with my blog.lin forgot to do the scroll thingy and now she's offline,so i have to delay time and wait for tmr to tell her.nvm,it's okie.i kinda have a rough time with my parents early in the morning coz i already planend to go aisyah's house for project and i have to look after my brothers as everyone is not at home.but i heckcare and went straight to aisyah's house.i had fun time.watching the pontianak menjerit and the ndp show.when it was our perfomance,i became extra excited and i saw that i did mistakes.it was very obvious.that stupid camera lah.distract me!anyway,we did our paintings and everything was half done and i can't wait to give haryati my work.she thinks that my group is not progressing and i assumed that it was their leader's fault.watever it is,i dun give a damn.reached home and there was chaos at my house.i tried my best not to vent my anger at anybody but i failed.i vented on my brothers,sister and you.i'm so sorry.i was totally mad and i just can't take it anymore.god bless my family.
Friday, August 12, 2005
i've made my decisions within seconds.i got my bill and it was not expensive but to my parents it is.so my father gave me options.use bill and cut off internet's line or use prepaid and still have internet line.
my option:use prepaid and have the internet.i dun care anymore.all i care in this world is playing computer and surfing the net!!!!
my option:use prepaid and have the internet.i dun care anymore.all i care in this world is playing computer and surfing the net!!!!
feel so lazy to go school nowadays and having haryati is wat i have to go through everyday and the worst part is that i have english lesson everyday with her.damn it.i can't stop complaining bout her to myself and making faces everytime she utter a word.anyway,the best part was after school.me lin aisyah jana went to lot 1 to look for tommy's present and we spend quite a long time deciding on wat to buy.we finally decided that we should buy him a levis boxer.so,with unshamed face,we search through the guy's boxer and underwear.we touched it and jana asked me to put on!siao ar!!everyone was looking at us but we heckcare.the levis boxer is really nice and i love it.dun think we're pervert okie.we headed to watson and spend a long and noisy time there and bought him toileteries.facial wash,soap,shampoo and toothpaste.a very weird thing to buy for someone's present.but we thought it was a creative idea.different from the rest and tommy can use it for his upcoming camp which is the specs course.
going to aisyah's house tmr to watch ndp together and to do our project!blog again!
going to aisyah's house tmr to watch ndp together and to do our project!blog again!
Thursday, August 11, 2005
school is back and it was sucks.i was sleepy for the whole fucking day.and that mdm haryati was really pissing me off.she was nagging and i was mimicking wat she said.damn her.i was totally very tired.i guess i didn't take my coffee.god.i'm addicted to it and it's not good at all.i reckon so.
so,nth much happened.and for a long time since,me jana and aisyah went home together.just the three of us.like we always do.(not to discriminate any of our frens)ahaha.and we laughed till we fell.and we refers to me and aisyah.we were looking at butterflies and it came to me and i missed a step, grabbed aisyah's hand and we fell together on the grass.we're quite shocked and we continued laughing till we forgot to stand up.and that jana was laughing at us and trying not to pee.ahahahaha
an indian said this:so hot and i'm gonna be black
reply to myself in murmured voice:dun worry,u're already black
my teacher:do your best(during actual ndp).the president is here.
me replying back:dun worry,i won't see him coz he's black(our performance is at night)
ps:sorry if i offend any of you here.i'm not trying to discriminate anyone of us.i got indian frens which i like them very best so i'm not against indians :)
so,nth much happened.and for a long time since,me jana and aisyah went home together.just the three of us.like we always do.(not to discriminate any of our frens)ahaha.and we laughed till we fell.and we refers to me and aisyah.we were looking at butterflies and it came to me and i missed a step, grabbed aisyah's hand and we fell together on the grass.we're quite shocked and we continued laughing till we forgot to stand up.and that jana was laughing at us and trying not to pee.ahahahaha
an indian said this:so hot and i'm gonna be black
reply to myself in murmured voice:dun worry,u're already black
my teacher:do your best(during actual ndp).the president is here.
me replying back:dun worry,i won't see him coz he's black(our performance is at night)
ps:sorry if i offend any of you here.i'm not trying to discriminate anyone of us.i got indian frens which i like them very best so i'm not against indians :)
Wednesday, August 10, 2005
tuesday:
happy 40th b'day s'pore!!and the big day comes and goes.
the whole perfomance was okie but i did some mistakes coz the camera was distracting me.i was busy looking at the camera till i forgot bout my formation.oh god.the feeling was really undescribable.i feel so proud to be a singaporean and to be a chua chu kang student for once.and i really gonna miss ndp so much.tze hee and chris.my orchids friends.the time we spend together in the bus singing,dancing,cheering,laughing,making jokes,waving at ppl in the bus like bus drivers passer-bys and enjoying ourselves.it was a fortunate thing to be in orchids.i missed the endless training under the hot sun.reminding aisyah to do her formation properly.my partner xian jun.the palm leaves coz they are so funny.the yummy food.the archers and the padang.the fireworks,walking home at night with jana aisyah fiza zul tommy haikal or syahril and everything!!oh god!!i can't believe it's the end of everything.for six months we've been praticising and now it's no more.i cried in the bus.but then cheered up after me and jana was acting cute and taking our "cute" pictures.i was laughing really mad as it was so funny!reached home very late as we went to coffeeshop to eat.and we talked bout very disgusting topic.oh my.
happy 40th b'day s'pore!!and the big day comes and goes.
the whole perfomance was okie but i did some mistakes coz the camera was distracting me.i was busy looking at the camera till i forgot bout my formation.oh god.the feeling was really undescribable.i feel so proud to be a singaporean and to be a chua chu kang student for once.and i really gonna miss ndp so much.tze hee and chris.my orchids friends.the time we spend together in the bus singing,dancing,cheering,laughing,making jokes,waving at ppl in the bus like bus drivers passer-bys and enjoying ourselves.it was a fortunate thing to be in orchids.i missed the endless training under the hot sun.reminding aisyah to do her formation properly.my partner xian jun.the palm leaves coz they are so funny.the yummy food.the archers and the padang.the fireworks,walking home at night with jana aisyah fiza zul tommy haikal or syahril and everything!!oh god!!i can't believe it's the end of everything.for six months we've been praticising and now it's no more.i cried in the bus.but then cheered up after me and jana was acting cute and taking our "cute" pictures.i was laughing really mad as it was so funny!reached home very late as we went to coffeeshop to eat.and we talked bout very disgusting topic.oh my.
monday:
i did the emcee-ing for the parade.first thing,i got scolded my few teachers coz i didn't come for the occasion as i was being told by seetoh that i should wear uniform.i was already panicked and changed shirts with this gerl.i thought i did well although i was realky shaking as this was my first time.during my talkings,i almost lose my voice and i had to cough.wah piang,so paisey.after that we had sing along and the mass dance of the reach out for the skies.i was dancing cum taking pictures of ppl dancing.had a fantastic time although the weather sucks.
went to nayli's b'day party at east coast chalet and i can't believed that i finally got to see nayli.me lala lin jana and zul went there.i fell near the swimming pool there coz i wanted to take nayli pic and i hit my digi cam on the floor.the kids including nayli started to say:"lari lagi,lari lagi!"i was really paisey.ahahaha.and my butt hurts a lot.played with abbas and i fell in love with him.he's so cute and he got a sarcastic mouth just like his brother and his mother.dan's mother is s0 funny!ahaha!i thought that i will feel left out but they really welcomed us.phew.and i enjoyed myself.ahaha.thanks to dan's family for inviting me and being so nice to us :)
reached home and then had to go makan2 with my neighbours.ate at al-azhar.the food was delicious but the drinks are nice.i drank mocca ice which was really yummy.i almost fall asleep while waiting for my neighbours to finish eating.went to geylang to buy durians and we missed the fireworks.too bad.we parked at kallang there to savour our durians.thought of going to changi airport but we went home at 2.wah.so tired man
i did the emcee-ing for the parade.first thing,i got scolded my few teachers coz i didn't come for the occasion as i was being told by seetoh that i should wear uniform.i was already panicked and changed shirts with this gerl.i thought i did well although i was realky shaking as this was my first time.during my talkings,i almost lose my voice and i had to cough.wah piang,so paisey.after that we had sing along and the mass dance of the reach out for the skies.i was dancing cum taking pictures of ppl dancing.had a fantastic time although the weather sucks.
went to nayli's b'day party at east coast chalet and i can't believed that i finally got to see nayli.me lala lin jana and zul went there.i fell near the swimming pool there coz i wanted to take nayli pic and i hit my digi cam on the floor.the kids including nayli started to say:"lari lagi,lari lagi!"i was really paisey.ahahaha.and my butt hurts a lot.played with abbas and i fell in love with him.he's so cute and he got a sarcastic mouth just like his brother and his mother.dan's mother is s0 funny!ahaha!i thought that i will feel left out but they really welcomed us.phew.and i enjoyed myself.ahaha.thanks to dan's family for inviting me and being so nice to us :)
reached home and then had to go makan2 with my neighbours.ate at al-azhar.the food was delicious but the drinks are nice.i drank mocca ice which was really yummy.i almost fall asleep while waiting for my neighbours to finish eating.went to geylang to buy durians and we missed the fireworks.too bad.we parked at kallang there to savour our durians.thought of going to changi airport but we went home at 2.wah.so tired man
it's been a long time i didn't update.well i've been very busy lately with some stuff and a lot of great thbings have been happening when i'm away :)
last saturday:
had the last ndp practice with the orchids.it was really the most touching moments that i went through with the rest of orchids.tze hee gave me a card and i burst into tears immediately.it was really touching and the most sweetest thing someone ever said.it wrote:
THE FAIRY GODMOTHER
you know,the AIs used to say that the fishes got 7 very beautiful girls.in chinese they called them (something in chinese)which means 'THE SEVEN FAIRIES'.and i used to say that i got 'malay seven fairies'.hah.u,aisyah,fadhila,helfizza,jannah,lin and qurratu.7,each attractive in your own way.but all very pretty.and you are the sort-of leader in the whole group :)
you'rea really smart.there were a lot of times when i simply gave up on reminding aisyah on the movements and formations cause she always seem blur.yup.and i left the explanation and reminder part to you and i get a perfect job done.fantastic!thank you!
you have a certain charm in you that makes people wanna listen to you.make use of this quality to encourage your friends and classmates to study hard,do your best for ndp.enjoy yourself
that was wat he wrote to me.as i was reading this,tears started to flow.how weak is my emotions.he's just a great person to be with.he's patience made him the greatest person i ever met.he inspired me and i wanted to be like him.full of patience and really nice to everyone.i remebered that a lots of time i vent my anger at him.when i didn't get my shoe,i was scolding him till i cried.the time when we had to change formation and i was the one started to complain to him.and when i didn't get to rest,he came to me but i walked away.and the time when i didn't put in any effort for him.i'm so sorry tze hee.but still he was bearing with my attitude.i really gonna miss him so much and really thanked him for all those times that we had together.see ypu in 5 years times.
Friday, August 05, 2005
outrageous!
i didn't have time to blog.i had a lot of tests to do study.i just finished my geog end of the year exam paper yesterday,chem test and an unfinished maths test just now.almost every week i'll have at least a test to study and that makes me quite stressful coz we're have to fit in the time with our ndp and our projects too.yesterday,i threw my tantrums at mr lim.this time,he was my victim.i was busy doing my brochure and have few minutes left to do coz we're have to assemble for ndp.the class have to be locked at 1.45 but we're still there.and mr lim was there wanting to lock the doors.this was our coversation but not word by word.
me:(in the mood of kanchiongness and mad at lala coz she wrote the wrong thing)
mr lim:hurry up gerls,it's 1.45
me:yeah2...
mr lim:you noe wat time u have to assemble right?
me:wait for awhile!
mr lim:it's 1.45 already.quick!
me:CIBAI!!!!!!!!
mr lim:wat did you say?who say that?u want me to slap who is it??!!!
jana:donno
mr lim:is you right(looking at jana)
jana:wat?not me lah(looking innocent)
mr lim:then who is it?
me:me lah!!
mr lim:what's ur name gerl?
me:for wat you want to noe?!(walking away with lala,fiza and jana)
mr lim:come here(pointing at fiza)
me:wat do you want her for?anything can ask me right!
mr lim:u dun keypoh(closing the door,wanting to have privacy and talked something which i forgot to fiza)
me:(interupting)quick lah!!we need to go for ndp!!
mr lim:say (something)COWARD!DUN WANT TO TELL UR NAME!
me:(feeling frustrated)MASTURAH LAH!!!!!
mr lim:why did u say the C word?
me:i wasn't saying it to you!!i was saying to my fren!!(looking at lala and pretending to scold her cibai)
mr lim:are u sure.are u sincere?put ur hand on ur chest so that i can see u're sincere(actually he meant not telling lies.wassup with the sincere huh?i dun understand)
me:(snort out and start to out my hand on my chest)i sincerely didn't say that to you.
mr lim:okie
me:(quickly walked away,laughing and said vulgarities in malay)CIBAI!!(again)
that was it.ahahaha.wat a stupid teacher!
had ndp just now and it was a sort of ceremony.we present our a.i our cards and when tze hee(the actual spelling)came out to receive the card,i stood out to clap for him.and to my horror,i was the only one standing up and cheering for him.actually the orchids suggested that we should stand up,so i stood up and then realised that nobody was standing with me.so i have the bear the embarassment.but not that paisey ar,they so bad ar.say want to stand up but didn't.bloody hell.and they laughed at me.ahahaha.after tat have to wait for ndp rehearsels in school where the sec 4 and 5s are marching.i was the emcee for that event.i was shocked to noe and really very excited bout it coz i always want to be emcee for any event.thanks miss seetoh for choosing me :)
me:(in the mood of kanchiongness and mad at lala coz she wrote the wrong thing)
mr lim:hurry up gerls,it's 1.45
me:yeah2...
mr lim:you noe wat time u have to assemble right?
me:wait for awhile!
mr lim:it's 1.45 already.quick!
me:CIBAI!!!!!!!!
mr lim:wat did you say?who say that?u want me to slap who is it??!!!
jana:donno
mr lim:is you right(looking at jana)
jana:wat?not me lah(looking innocent)
mr lim:then who is it?
me:me lah!!
mr lim:what's ur name gerl?
me:for wat you want to noe?!(walking away with lala,fiza and jana)
mr lim:come here(pointing at fiza)
me:wat do you want her for?anything can ask me right!
mr lim:u dun keypoh(closing the door,wanting to have privacy and talked something which i forgot to fiza)
me:(interupting)quick lah!!we need to go for ndp!!
mr lim:say (something)COWARD!DUN WANT TO TELL UR NAME!
me:(feeling frustrated)MASTURAH LAH!!!!!
mr lim:why did u say the C word?
me:i wasn't saying it to you!!i was saying to my fren!!(looking at lala and pretending to scold her cibai)
mr lim:are u sure.are u sincere?put ur hand on ur chest so that i can see u're sincere(actually he meant not telling lies.wassup with the sincere huh?i dun understand)
me:(snort out and start to out my hand on my chest)i sincerely didn't say that to you.
mr lim:okie
me:(quickly walked away,laughing and said vulgarities in malay)CIBAI!!(again)
that was it.ahahaha.wat a stupid teacher!
had ndp just now and it was a sort of ceremony.we present our a.i our cards and when tze hee(the actual spelling)came out to receive the card,i stood out to clap for him.and to my horror,i was the only one standing up and cheering for him.actually the orchids suggested that we should stand up,so i stood up and then realised that nobody was standing with me.so i have the bear the embarassment.but not that paisey ar,they so bad ar.say want to stand up but didn't.bloody hell.and they laughed at me.ahahaha.after tat have to wait for ndp rehearsels in school where the sec 4 and 5s are marching.i was the emcee for that event.i was shocked to noe and really very excited bout it coz i always want to be emcee for any event.thanks miss seetoh for choosing me :)
happy b'day tommy
happy b'day belated b'day my dear t0mmy!!..i love you a lots and thanks for being a great fren to me and never fail to make me laugh!hope happiness fill you for the rest of ur lives and hope that ur dreams of becoming a clown will come true!!love ya!!! maucks baby!
Tuesday, August 02, 2005
haryati.u suck!
i was mad.mad at tat haryati!she asked the class to cut a lot of articles so that we can do like a sort of newpaper review.i was cursing her to arun.thanks for bearing my nonsense arun!i bought the papers so she can asked me to cut watever she wants?..wad do u think? cutting lessons?..that's sounds nice..i would love cutting things when i'm mad at her..like cut her tudung..and then cut her hair..and proceed to her eyes,mouth..and her insides..her tummy..livers and intestines..that would be nice..okie..i'm talking rubbish..doesn't mean she's malay..i must like her rite?..bring back my mr tan to me can can can?? sorry to arun for hurting ur ears as i can't stop complaining and mumbling to myself very much..
one moment i was really happy..and another moment i feel like crying..i feel so sad..wat happened to me oh god? my smiles are my pains,my laughter are my cries for help..i like that..i came up with that when i'm on my way home..to tell you,i have at least 5-10 minutes of self reflection everyday when i comes home..that makes me a better person..i'm contemplating announcing to ppl my new url..should i or should i not?..see first lah..ciao!
one moment i was really happy..and another moment i feel like crying..i feel so sad..wat happened to me oh god? my smiles are my pains,my laughter are my cries for help..i like that..i came up with that when i'm on my way home..to tell you,i have at least 5-10 minutes of self reflection everyday when i comes home..that makes me a better person..i'm contemplating announcing to ppl my new url..should i or should i not?..see first lah..ciao!
Monday, August 01, 2005
being sick is great
i didn't go to school today.i'm sick.my asthma is back.i thought that i've crashed this illness coz it's been a year i didn't have any asthma attack.on sunday,i went to clinic but all were close.damn it right?i was totally out of breath when i reached yew tee as i can't walk very long distance when i'm having asthma.so today i didn't go to clinic as i feeling better and i dun want to waste my parent's money.i stayed at home and had a great time.it's good to spend you time for urself coz u're always surrounded by frens and family.so,i read seventeen and cleo.had a nice sleep in the afternoons and a delicious nasi ayam meal for lunch.but one thing that bothers me is that my headache is really bad till i feel like crashing my head to the wall.nvm,i take panadols later.i miss my frens even though it's been one day.i dun think they miss me :) got to from dan that tmr is map test.lucky someone told me coz none of my frens cared to sms me and tell me wat's happening to me or in school.a bit of disappointment flushed through :( nvm,i reckoned that they might be busy.dun just think of urself masturah.there's so much i want to say but little time i had now.i'm craving for PILLOWS.i can't wait for my sister to come back and bring my pillows to me!i guess that's all.ciao baby!
the new bloggy!
oh yeah.i did a new fresh account with a new url.the reasons why i did a new account?i got bored with the previous one and i felt that my blog is a bit boring.yeah.so this template is just temporary.i thought of asking my fren's help to make me a new layout but i think they might me busy with school and ndp.i'll miss my previous blog.a lot of memories are written there and it will remain there as long this blogspot can live as i didn't actually close down but just delete the template away.so for now,let's revive this new blog!
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