Tuesday Fairies-

Meet up with the faries( without Fizza) yesterday. gosh, we have lots to talk about and had a great laugh with them. oh my,i love them a lot. they always remind me of the good times that i had in 2005 and 2006. i hope this friendship stays as long as possible( Insyaallah) and that aisyah will be flower girl when i get married.haha!


show that pink braces of yours,aisyah!

this picture is the best. to you girls,i pray that your life would be smooth and steady and that your future would be bright and that you are successful in dunawi and ukhrawi. Ameen. You girls can always count on me if help is needed.

Lots of love and xoxo,

Masturah, your "Fairy Godmother"

ps/: if you people wonder why we called ourselves fairies and i, as godmother. A guy named Tze Hee created that up for us.

pss/: be back by saturday!

Saturday Night Baby! -

i did have plans for saturday.initially,i asked leha out to bugis,just to wander around and basically waste my time.gosh,my life is so wasted,i know.so,when we're on our way to arab street to have our dinner,we're coincidentally met with lala and her bf, dinah,amin and nadiah. i was so shocked and there came our unexpected night.


so, we sat at musi cafe to have our dinner and oh boy, the night was bloody fun and i made friends with nadiah, man-man's gf.so the rest came,zul,rahman and sam.(aka samantha!haha,not!) took a lot of pictures,gosh,it felt like some kind of reunion.it has been a month since i last saw lala and dinah and i really miss them.

so,here are some of the awesome pictures:


i know,you know.mas always the over one.

babes,i love you.

nadiah.

if i ever make you puke..i'm sincerely sorry.

after the dinner, we had sisha. boy,i was damn excited.first time alright!so understandable.i was like,come on,bring it on! so i was the first to try and haha, i couldn't get the smoke out of my mouth.eventually,i did and to be honest, i don't really like shisha but i could do it once it awhile.

haha!step vogue.the bunch that i hanged out with on saturday night.

haha,seriously,amatuer and zul,forever rude.hah

that's the way!

i love this picture maybe because of the lighting(okay i admit.i think i looked good,not pretty,in this picture.)

well,that was my saturday night and i am glad.i am glad that i can finally spend time with leha lala and dina,rahman and zul.i hope the friendship goes a long way.Insyaallah.I wish they will never forget me like some people do. some of my friends have forgotten about me but it's okay. i'll always receive them with open hearts if they come back to me. i know i sound emotional but really, sometimes you wish that certain people wouldn't leave you just like that. i hope too,when i already have my own poly friends, i will never forget the people that have left a mark in my life.

for that,i wanna say sorry to the fairies if i ever neglect you girls. i'll be seeing you girls tomorrow.

...same for loneliness- you let go,let the tears flow,feel it completely but eventually be able to say, " All right,that was my moment with loneliness.I'm not afraid of feeling lonely but now i'm going to put that loneliness aside and know that there are other emotions in the world and i'm going to experience them as well,". "Detachment"

weekend's tomorrow.not looking forward at all cause i have no plans tomorrow! arggh.i want to go out with double L but Lala,spare a day for me please?

if i have nothing tomorrow,i think i'll head down to national library to do intensive scavenger book-hunting and then maybe at home i'll watch some movies and if time is still ample,i would bake brownies and maybe spaghetti.how's that for a saturday?

and next week,i'll be very busy and booked.good,that will make time pass faster.

ps/: i want to see baby Ahmad today! bring him kak thuraiya( like as if she read this)

Achievement

My achievement for today was,i finally got myself up early in the morning to jog.seriously,i have been wanting to do so but shucks,procastination is one of the reason why i haven't exercise. i ran alone for only one round!i know it's pathetic but i was having stomach cramps( clever,i shouldn't have my breakfast 15 mins before my jog)so insyaallah,more running to come! i am thrillleeeed!

Singapore's achievement for today was we won the first Youth Olympic bid against Moscow! that is some awesome news isn't it? imagine in 2010, we could actually witness a sports competition and supporting our own country.there's more to look forward in Singapore. i want to watch the F1,albiet the fact that i don't know any F1 racers except lewis hamilton but it would be cool.i want to ride on the Singapore Flyer,albiet the fact that one ticket could cost you 27 bucks.i want to go to one of the casinos and play poker cards,albiet the fact that islamic law forbid any form of gambling.haha,okay,i kidding about that one!

before i go, i want to share with you something that i read:
i know my journey's not over yet,and that life is a winding path,but i can only hope it somehow circles back to the place i belong.That's how it think of it now.I belong with you
- Nicholas Sparks, Nights in Rodanthe

ps/: i'm expecting a call tonight.

Tuesday-

The first message that i got was from the moe.i got posted to Singapore Poly!(course? you guys will know sooner or later) seconds after that,i went back to sleep but messages after messages keep coming in. Gosh, people are more eager than me.haha.i bet fizza would be delighted to know that i'm in the same school as her but too bad i can't tell her now cause she is india.sorry babe,i didn't say goodbye to you!

i actually wanted to go to this particular business course in Np so badly that i went there to appeal but i didn't appeal cause the cop was just too high(morever,the system wouldn't accept it.stupid system!) and it sucks. i want np but sometimes the things that we wanted so badly doesn't always turn to something we expect. half heartedly i accepted the course that i am in and i just prayed for the best. i keep telling myself that dunia is not important,doesn't matter if i didn't get any job because of the diploma i am in.rezeki di tangan tuhan,not in our future employers. now,i am looking forward to school and i heard in sp,there are a lots of hot looking guys? this one,i anticipate! haha!

so leha and me spent our last moment in np( we both wanted that school) and then we both went to town to do some retail therapy! walked around town made me feel good and i bought yet another forever 21 top. i need to make a note to myself to save up some money but i have few other things to buy( like school bag, flip flops and denim jeans,shit!)and i really badly need a job! so i hope that the resume that i sent to will reach to respective people and pintu rezeki akan dibuka untuk saya,insyaallah.

alright,i think i'll update tomorrow!

Saturday-

For the whole day, a early as 12,i was already out with my family.
First stop was Wak Milah's house at Pasir Ris. Since Kak Nana gave birth to a baby girl, we all came down to see Baby Hana. She is cute and her eyes is to kill for. Didn't snap any photos of her cause the anak dara was busy talking in one room. so many stories to tell to iqah. and i get to see my fav little cousins.we'll be seeing them next time in may? insyaallah.

the second stop was teban garden, Ucu's house. my rather large family was having meeting tergempa. the uncles and aunts were planning on a holiday together! yeay! insyaallah, the plan is on, if not, other activities that we planned will hopefully be carrried out. after that, we have b'day celebration,followed by singing out of tunes,followed by taking endless pictures and lastly the inevitable sabotaging.



mainly,it is syafinaz's bday and her cake is the BOMB!

cake maut sey. this is every 8 year old dream cake,seriously.

aww,cute huh.

the other february babies. the cake does not match certain people obviously but what the heck, we celebrated everything at a go,even those who are celebrating their anniversary.

aww,i love you guys. and we have so many stories to tell. best kan biler jumpe cousins. so many things to tell.

mas nak feeling feeling dgn cake. pardon me.when i was eight years old,i don't have a cake this big but well,i did remember that i had a big party.

the kakaks.sepatutnya i should be in here cause i'm 18! but nevermind.haha, i'll stay young.

bermula lah..

elly,why your father sibok2 kat situ? haha.

intan maisara is so cute.

sabotaging began. sarah was the first victim.padan muke!

after that people yg tak bersalah and not their bday also got sabo-ed. in our family,no one is being sparred.no one.

i love my cousins, both sides, and i hope we could be together till we get married and have kids.

insyaallah. looking forward for whatever plans with the hamzah's family. holiday together? it's gonna be one crazy event!

and speaking of b'day,i am thinking of having my own b'day celebration.i know my bday is like so far away but it is just a thought.it is never too old to have b'day party and last year was one of the worst bday ever so i thought this year i should do something. have a theme or something. it would be fun!

ps/: tomorrow is the result of which school we're getting?

Jumper was pretty good. i have to give 4 stars out of 5.hayden made me drool,seriously and it has been long since he hit the screen.star wars was his previous movie.


thank god he booked the tix cause it was full house and half of the people there was couples celebrating v day.damn!i hope i don't looked like one of them yesterday.when i was on my way to the cathay alone,i saw guys holding a bouquet of flowers and i can't supressed my laughter.it was hilarious! red roses are so cliched.i would rather if a guy buy me a box of chocolates or diamonds.(provided i am dating someone rich) roses should be given on every date and not every valentine's day.


tomorrow,something good to look out for. get to see both cousins from maternal and paternal side. yeah!


and friday..spritual purification,with these girls. hari tu makan cheese fries best kan.haha.

yesterday was one of the good episodes.i love grey's anatomy and i regretted not watching the first and second seasons.and those who think mcdreamy is hot,i disagree!he is not hot,maybe charming.whatever it is,i am waiting for desparate housewives and ugly betty to be back on screen.

life has been same old,same old.no,no.i think i have a problem and if it's love you guessed,then it is right.damn,love is so complicated but everyones wants to be in it.everyone wants to feel a shred of it.(i'm not talking about this since v.day is tomorrow,which i don't give a damn about it)

tomorrow's jumper and jump i will to the cinema!

saturday- after a very long time, i went to syarahan at arab association.the syarahan was by habib omar, who is related to prophet Muhammad. thanks kak muna for the information. i know,i should be doing things that are benefit to ukhrawi but here in singapore, it seems impossible but nothing is impossible right?

this is something.

What MASTURAH Means

(bold means yes,you are right and italic means,err,what did you just say?)

You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated.You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want.You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way!

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong.(HAHA,i have to laugh at this one)You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know.You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do.

You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life.You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home.You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble.

You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way.And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life.You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it.

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.

ps/: i need to start looking for jobs!

Valerie-Amy Winehouse

i have been listening to AW.her songs are infectious and the genre is different from most songs i listened to.

anyway,i went out yesterday.i went on a date.HAHA.i know,it has been ages and zamans since i went out on a date but i feel like i need to do this cause i have been too afraid,now today,i can say proudly that i am reaadyy to date any guys out there!seriously,it went fine and i thought i could be so so freaking nervous but i actually not that nervous.that guy was nervous instead.(i know,i bring nerves to guys,hah) i won't go into details but one thing for sure,i won't be having a boyfriend soon cause i need to expand my wings so i could fly from one guy to another.HAHA. i am kidding! so guys,i am still available,no worries.(seriously,that sounds so cheap and desparate) i saw leha and her ehem ehem too yesterday and i asked her whether i could borrow her ehem ehem for awhile.haha,leha, where could i get one?(quoted from 27 dresses,if you remember)

holidays is here!(what a news to me!) and where do malays go during cny holidays.apa lagi,the beach lah! i maybe be down on friday but i don't know.friends,friends please ask me out will you.don't forget me just like that cause i have been such a good friend and now you're forgetting me? hmm,now i am thinking of sentosa outing or smthg.

enough of me.gosh,i think i'm going to update everyday so till then,i mean till tomorrow.

oh ya,i almost forget. HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY SARAH!
you better get your butt home now cause i want to eat the cake!

REMINISCE

i woke up today with a plan.

i planned to clear all my textbooks,files,worksheets and school-related stuffs.the moment i opened my drawer,i was already feeling emotional.i took out the books one by one,scrutinised each one.you know what,i can't bring myself to throw my BIOLOGY textbook.yes,i can't.i don't know why.even though,bio was my least favourite subject and i was always sleeping in biology classes(which attributed to a d7 for my o level.surprise,surprise!),there is something about that textbook that gives a sentimental value to it,maybe because i had so much fun during practical.so i decided to give it to my brother cause he loves science and maybe because i can still see the book lying around in my house.

in the midst of clearing,many thoughts flowed in my mind.like how i will miss english lessons and mdm hayati.i will never forget her.when i was sec 3,i hated her so much.i don't know why but i always thought that she didn't give any attention to me(well,because i didn't gave her the attention she needed that time)and that i know she don't like me.however,last year,my perception of her changed completely,maybe because i was getting a tad matured.i began to response to her and she reciprocated.thanks to her,i got a b3 for english which i was more than happier to get.she was the first subject teacher that i thanked after the results.

in retrospective, i learned that feelings and perception can change even towards someone who we really hates.therefore, i never want to hate anybody.as times passed and i meet people who lived here to constantly test our patience,i will try my best not to hate because we ourselves are not as perfect.i questioned myself,who am i to hate this person.there is only one person here who is perfect that is Nabi Muhammad so we are no prophets nor we are Gods.just live in this world like we are dying tomorrow and love is what we should pass on and alleviate the hate that is within us,which can destroy ourselves and the people around.i am happy to say that,i have no enemies and i wish i could say that till the day i die.

and lastly,i came across with my class photographs.i laughed loudly on my own and how much i will missed them.i think i made used of my secondary school times.i had many friends and i was well-liked(i hope this is true.this is what the teachers said,not me okay)so there is no need for me to say," i wish i could rewind back to secondary school".

till then.

ps/: you won't imagine who i am going out with today!

hey you people!

on a monday afternoon,i went to teck whye to buy my contact lens and to my dismay,the shop was closed!what a convenient!good thing,teck whye have other spectacle shops so i bought a pair for 15 bucks.then,i proceeded to jurong library where i dug for good books.what i don't understand was why everytime i went out alone,i have to laugh at someone or something.i will look like an idiot,supressing my laughter if i witness something funny.well,it feels good.

anyway,this was my last day at work so i snapped some pictures.


this was my table.and you see the packet of sweets?i bought it on the day that the company told me that friday was my last day.how sad.

i will definitely miss this office,aww.

another temp worker that i made friends with,xiao hui.

tomorrow,back to normal.

back to waking up late.back to spending hours on the net.back to watching and stuffing myself with tv shows and movies.back to laying in bed and waiting for time to past by.

well,i'm gonna give myself a break and in the meantime,looking for some other office jobs.

and in the meantime too i have some list of things to do:
-go to the library.
-throw all my secondary school books.
-starts writing,if inspiration comes along.
-buy contact lens at teck whye(cause it's frigging cheap there)
-maybe jog?swim?
-watch kite runner alone?
-come clean

saturday was well spent with leha.went to town and it was raining!but but,it doesn't stop us.we went to watch 27 dresses which was oh-so-sweet and very-chick-flick.i love katherine heigl.after that,i went shopping.very typical of us huh.the next movie to watch is kite runner,jumper and ps i love you.i know,i can't watch all so if there's anyone to treat me,i would be glad.hah!

just now,i had a good time with my family :)

ps/: expect more updates from me cause since i am free..