thinking back,i was foolish.sorry,this heart is made of stone.hard,nothing can penetrate me.not yet,i guess.why was it hard for me to understand?i think that's my problem.i never want to understand anybody.if they made a mistake,i never ever stop to imagine me in their shoes.if i could,then i would fanthom how everything led to them making a mistake.i would think that there's always a way to avoid mistakes and i would blame them if they didn't put in effort to avoid their mistakes.but huh,what would i know?if people around me put in so much effort to avoid their wrong doings.cause i think they are just making an excuse.so tell me how to be an understanding person?haha,am i even making sense?

what the hell,i am happy now.i think i might be the luckiest girl tonight,hopefully tomorrow too and until the end.

xoxo.

shit.i shouldn't say what i've said.
sorry.

Friday-

I had a blast on friday with my cousins!almost everyone turned up so it went pretty well. after maghrib, we went to find a good spot and waited for like almost an hour to catch the fireworks. it was truly fantastic.my cousins and i were the noisest among the rest.hahah,can't help it but we've got to express our excitement in any way.we're like oohh,ahhh,wooohoooo,yeaaaa and all you could think of.hahah.after that,we got stuck in the crowd but we managed and had really late dinner at popeye,sg flyer.reached home like pretty late but heck.

next year please!!
alright pictures.

beautiful huh.

the teenagers.yuck,i hate to be called a teenager.is 18 still a teenager?makes me feel like i'm some kid.ironically,being a teenager is the best stage of my life.

the 20s.

irah.

pout.

haha,instead of taking the pictures of fireworks,why not take your picture with the fireworks right?haha,i was going crazy so that i could get a good shot.

hahah,poor najib,he's the only guy around.told him to bring his cousin!no girls,i no longer have a crush on the m guy.(but i can't wait to see him when abang didik get married!)

at popeye.camwhored,what else.

the M sisters.

Saturday-

Watched fireworks again.i know!one day is not enough huh?jakun kepe huh mas.but this time round is with someone else.it was amazing too,no words can describe how i feel.no,not about how i feel about the fireworks but about how it feels to watch the fireworks with the other significant.

Sunday-

Kenduri at ayah andak's house.Halaqah class ended today,will resumed after ramadhan.aww,

gonna miss my sunday nights,even though the journey there takes about an hour,is all worth,what halaqah had done to me.

my holidays officially started.i wanna work.i've said that like 100 times already.i know.

Ann Siang Hill-

Yesterday was DID field trip.and field trip reminds me of secondary school time.Anways,the purpose of this trip was to take some good photography of architectural elements,interior and whatnots.This reminded me of my MWOS days.It was pretty fun,i think.

anyway,discovered a one hell of a function in my camera.this is totally candid.

alley.

art or vandalism?

four awesome people.

hahah,cool shit right.

alright,i'm lazy to post all the photography shots that i've taken.

i'm looking forward for tonight!!!!!

watching fireworks with my cousins!!!it was a new tradition to watch fireworks around this time of the year.we did it last year so this year,we asked more cousins to come this time round so hopefully,everything's gonna be smooth.insyaAllah.

meeting bbf tomorrow.can't wait!

xoxo

i know,i'm the last girl on earth to watch gossip girl season 1(okay maybe second last cause my sister's watching too and i'm ahead of her)i've heard of gossip girl but couldnt be bothered to download the shows.so thanks to KAT for lending me the dvd,now i get to watch it from the comfort of my tv screen.and,and I LOVE GOSSIP GIRL.love it and i know every girl would and should love it.I love DAN,although nate is hot but he's got that gay look.

alright,now M's gotta go.xoxo.(haha,feeling2 gossip girl)wait,i think i like people to call me M now.i mean mas is so common so people,M is me.hahahahha.

hey guys holidays are here and i NEED A JOB.so please,anyone,i love to work.i have experience in admin work.(desparate call)

alright.monday was critique.And if you people wondering what critique is then let me tell you. you lay down all your work for the past weeks and 7 adults,lecturers will scrutinise your work and give constructive comments that may be make you or break you.some daring lectures will definitely criticise your work,saying that your model is not good enough,you are not working hard or whatsoever.

so monday was mine.i had to present and with the presentation,i did fine.maybe i'm not doing well with models but heck,i've seen the rest so i ought to say good job to myself.i'm still hoping for a C though.but seriously, when they look at my work,i felt so insecured.i know i'm not good(no,nothing gotta do with my esteem,you have to look at my work and compare with the others) and is like they are scrutinising my flaws.that,is not a good experience.

some of the lecturers.6 guys 1 girl.guys,they do intimidate you more.

gosh,this picture is so ugly because i never see myself look this timid before.

okay,some pictures last week.damn,i think i looked good in aviator.(wth,can't we sometimes feel good about ourselves?)okay,just imagine it without those tags.

after submission,everyone's looking happy.

THAT'S THE END OF SEMESTER ONE GUYS!!

and to all taking their sem exams,i have something to say,

EXAM KEPE?!HAHA.

okay,i shall bake tomorrow.

PROJECT'S DONE!gonna submit everything tomorrow.all my hardwork comes down to this.

thank God.

CANT WAIT FOR TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

two more days.two more days.two more days
To submission and hearing your voice.


ps,pray for me that i'll get the job.
ps ps,i'm doing alright without boyfriend.

the starting of a miserable week.is not that i had premonitions that this week will be bad.okay,it wouldn't be so so bad.i shall give myself a benefit of a doubt.hai,the things that i, we had to go through.it is only the 4th month.still premature,still new.but GOD has plans for us.He planned this and i shall succumbed to this.5 days and it will be over.however,there will be more tests in the future.it will never stop.tell me that He is doing this for me,that ALLAH loves me.
well,i have to see this as a positive side.in every angle.let see how i do being boy/bestfriend-less.


school tomorrow.can't wait!

i just got to know that next week,i have no class except design studio.it means that next week will be of total slack.why next week!that is the week that i want to occupy myself and get my mind be preoccupied with things!i shall ask people out then.

school has been okay.it's like your own time,own target.since we're doing our project,we can slack around if we want to.anyhow,i have two more days to finish it and i have done 1 out 4 of the whole thing.the thing is constructed,means we're doing something like d&t also.i aint bringing the cube home cause it's freaking huge and i don't wanna the cube to be attracting attention.gosh,i think i can't finish my project but oh wells.

anyway,next week is my last week i guess.gosh,no more school till october.i think i'll get a job.hopefully everything goes well cause i aint spending time at home and i need to earn money considering the fact that in DID,we have to spend a lot on art stuffs.

last saturday-



the express guys.

anyway girls,i'll be free soon and i hope to meet you girls before puasa but but aisyah is schooling.haha.tp lembab ah holidays.

just received a bad news.what i'm gonna do for five days!keeping myself busy all the way.hai..

saturday-

went back to chua chu kang secondary school for food and fun fair.oh my,i missed some of the teachers and classmates.seeing those familiar faces was good and bad.bad cause i find myself not wanting to see some people,which i don't know why.and and,mr loy was shocked to see me in headscarf.his jaws dropped.really,i'm not lying!hahah,well,i've always been like that when i'm outside of school(exclude prom night).hahaha,i hope to have one more reunion with the malay peeps.maybe we could meet only after puasa.

in the evening,went out again.one whole day have to listen to someone's army stories.fun kepe.haha.but the night ended and i went back home dragging myself and muke boring plastered across my face.you should see how i looked in the train.next week, i want to spend one whole day with you and that is an order.hmph.

alright,some pics taken in studio-


it was hamie's bday.and we surprised her.cause of my flawless acting,she didn't suspect a single thing.haha.kat's acting was not that bad either.haha.

after a boring lecture.


tomorrow's monday and i just realised that i have like less than 5 days to do my final project and i have not started on a single thing.well,not to worries,most of them too have not started so we can screw up together right people.hah.

alright,can't wait for national day!!no,not because i'll be down at esplanade to witness fireworks like any random singaporeans would do,but because i can spend time with my loved ones.

ps/: halaqah today!