Saturday-

First up,met up with the fairies to celebrate jana's belated birthday.though that day wasn't an ideal day for us to spend the whole day together,i still enjoyed the company.every minute counts now that we're on our separate ways.so celebrated her birthday at mcafe,shawhouse.right fizza,mine gonna be luar chalet.haha,gosh,i can't wait for my 18th birthday.it may be the first bday, me not being a single.jeng jeng jeng!haha,who knows.okay,actually no biggie.aper jer mas.sidetrack.

cake from prima deli.no,i trust prima deli fully.haha,mcm paham.

haha.anyone wants to give the girl some smack on the face? as quoted from people,"muke stop it sey".

waiting for the arrival of guest of honour.

guest of honour came abeh muke nak action.haha.

fabulous time.xoxo.

right after that,met him.we ate at riverside restaurant,some indon restaurant at clarke quay.gosh,we couldn't finish the food cause the serving was not for two,is like for four people! so we kinda forced ourselves(no,more like he forcing me cause dinner was on him,whatever lah.haha)to finish up the food but no,too freaking full.totally reccommended.

so with our full stomachs,he wanted to take me to gmax bungy thingy.of course i said no!crazy.i'll be vomiting all over.so we sat directly infront of the gmax bungy thingy and enjoyed the night away.it was so good,talking to him and enjoying the scenery.there's fireworks too,so how romantic can it be.haha,i'm a sucker for that.

next saturday will be our last(not really)before he goes to NS.alamak,spoiler sey ni NS.

alright,school's tomorrow.i had enough of ontography!

La Salle 25th June-

fashion design is cool!

class 01.

awesome school.

i'm exhausted.i have not had a proper rest(where i watch tv,without doing stuffs in the middle of advertisements and read on my bed)since Monday.school has started and new term means new goals.i want to do my best for design studio and i thank Allah for the strength that He has given me.i don't know where all the optimism comes from but i hoped it'll spread through.i want my friends to be optimistic too.please kat ruifen quennie and hamie be confident of yourself.let's be confident of ourselves and we'll make it through the end alright.i hoped this strength goes on till the very end.InsyaAllah.

anyway,school has been great.i shall not count the number of assignments i have.haha.but it's pretty okay,i mean you cant be enjoying yourself most of the time in design school.the director of the school is now torturing us and i think he's gonna make us draw for 10 times on the piece of a1 paper,the most freaking huge paper.recently too,i've been showing my true colours to my friend.gosh,i can get excited at little little things.i'm glad that the photoshoot just now kinda bonded my class.01 needs to have class spirit!

alright there's so many things in my mind that i need to let it out.things have been great with me and him.family is great.i miss my secondary school friends so so so so much.masyaAllah.i need to see man and zul.dan and hizam.leha and lala.stella too and the list goes on.maybe after 10 july i can start planning but i really hope they'll be free.

okay i think i shall end here.enough of words,my post is too wordy but heck.i'm tired.going to sleep.

weekend here i come!

Night Cyling with Masjid Arabitah 20 June-

Imagine how tired i was.my camp ended on thursday evening.the next early morning,i was already up for my cip at the zoo.my cip was pretty fun cause i saw a lot of cute kids,gosh,and being in the zoo was awesome.i told you i love the zoo.

right after i got home,i changed my clothes and made my way to arabitah.you have no idea how exhuasted i was but i wouldn't want to miss a chance.i never night cycled before and i have never participate in any mosque event.anyway,my sisters and her friends were the organisers and he was there too.my sister(the other)and cousin were accompanying me so, i had lots of fun.my group was awesome!we cycled from redhill to labador park to kent ridge park.the event ended at 8am the next day.gosh,i was totally sleep deprived.but it was worth it.



honeystar!haha.nama kental.

the bicycles which were too tall for me.

my group won the best group!haha!

SSP 60 GEREK Camp 17-19 June-

the camp was awesome!i mean, i never been to a camp that has a theme and that has a mini gig.the committee did a great job.the games,the night walk,the drama workshops,the masquerade night,the moshing,the twists,the oldies song and the skit were so enjoyable.i had fun and the seniors were so funny.ada ada jer tau nak ketawa.i've made so many friends.definitely coming back to ssp and insyaAllah, this might be something i may happen to like.

some pictures that i stole.sorry guys( syafiqah and wano)for stealing without permission but the pictures are all so nice,i can't resist!

my group se-bloody merah!yeah,saiful was cross dressing.

you guys are awesome.

the hot girls and i looked tired.my eyes,gosh!

the hot guys.yg tengah tu samseng kampung.

freshies!

masquerade night.the room was awesome-ly decorated.

60s band.

twist and shout.

ssp.

KOONING!hahah,nizal was hilarious.

swinging sixties.

chickies hippies.

the winning group,SE-BLOODY MERAH.

last day,all shagged.

next update:

night cycling!

first day of school and already there is drawings to do!ah huh,ain't complaining.is so good to be back in school but there's a tad problem.no more abundance time to spend with him.

tuesday-thursday- ssp camp
friday- cip @ zoo,night cycling?
saturday-movie date.

so basically,this is how i'm gonna enjoy my last week of holidays.

First of all,HAPPY FATHER'S DAY.

Second of all,i watched dinamis performance yesterday at ngee ann.it was okay.i didn't understand most of the parts.i couldn't compare them with sp cause i havent watch any ssp performance.though,i have a feeling ssp is better than them?haha,biased i know.after the performance,went to eat at al ameen and reached home around 1am.

Third of all,i haven't talked/typed about the bbq.everyone agreed it was boring.seriously,i felt it was a tad letdown.maybe because some people went off early or maybe we're boring people.(nah,i'm not boring!)haha.

alright,managed to snap some pictures.

at ruifen's condo.

cheese!

ape je nadz.haha.


now,waiting for kfc and some canadian pizza!

ps/: next week,busy busy busy!

interesting qns.ppl never ask me this before.


nirah says:
hi
nirah says:
are ha hppy with ur life?
masstuurrahh says:
hey.
masstuurrahh says:
pretty much happy.kalau terlalu happy pon,means we're not living life
nirah says:
yup
masstuurrahh says:
wow,big qns
nirah says:
wads make u happy?
masstuurrahh says:
being surrounded by love ones.that is the most happiest thing
nirah says:
okie
nirah says:
but yy?
masstuurrahh says:
hmm..knowing that i always have to someone to go to,someone to share my happiness makes me happy too
nirah says:
okie..
nirah says:
u r so contented with diz
nirah says:
great
masstuurrahh says:
yeah.maybe having more money makes me happy too but is not the type of happiness i'm looking for.money equals to short term happiness.


so now,i ask you.are you happy?

Cousins Outing 10 June-

Alas,our plan worked this time,but there were four girls missing.(just wait for august,insyaAllah)
We went to town to shop and broke,i am.dang!singapore flyer and marina square was next.i was out from 12pm till 8+pm.phew,what a day huh girls.

alright,just feed on the pictures.

no,we didn't just went in to take pictures.

raihanna,my new found cousin.girl,there's more to learn bout the abdul rahman's family.not just the names.haha,iqah already gave an insight to our family.but it was such a bad insight.tsk,tsk.

popeye @ singapore flyer.

typical girls,doing typical things,taking typical shots,with their typical self timer camera.so how typical can we be?

the last picture was picture perfect i guess.from positioning the camera and everyone,this was the most memorable picture.haha.kecoh habis.

so girls,thanks a lot for the day.i love you girls.xoxo.

yesterday was awesome.cousins,i love to spend more time with you.insyaAllah,we'll be seeing you in august.i love you girls.

will update soon,with pictures!

and in the meantime,i'm getting ready to meet my bf.(best friend lah not boyfriend)and later at night,there's bbq at ruifen's condo.yeay baby.

You and Me-

been out for the whole week.that explained my absence.
just as what i wanted.to be preoccupied with things.this week and next week,i'll be busy.but my friends,you can book me on weekends.i've been wanting to go out with my secondary schoolmates but i'm so afraid to ask.since leha will be working,i guess i just meet up with the guys.hmm,maybe this saturday.hope my plan works if not,i have to find someone else to go out with me.

anyways,let me share you a story.on friday,i went out with him,as usual.so while we're walking,there was this crazy auntie walked behind us and she started cursing us.swear after swear.she stalked us even!crazy shit,that old hag.she cursed us and our parents.people were looking at us.humiliating i tell you.old faggot,may sense knock into your head someday.i shall forgive you.haha.looking back,it was hilarious.

aww,friday was fantastic.has always been.since we've been going out together,i think i've put on weight.from breeks,to seoul garden,to siam kitchen to fig and olive and to secret recipe and more to come.no more of ordering desert okay?damn,time flies fast for us.tomorrow,will be exactly one month before you go NS.damn.and i shall make myself be more preoccupied,especially on friday night.well i really hope i still have halaqah,so i have something else to look forward to the end of the week.shan't talk bout it anymore till the day comes.seriously,things are working out great for us and this is my first time experiencing all of this.i wanted this for long,now that i have it,i'll hold on to it,for as long.we'll see if fate is on our side.and if it's not,then it's not meant to be.i'm happy,more happier now,after i told him the truth.love is the most amazing feeling life has to offer :)
just be happy for me people.just be.

ps/: name and his picture shall not be revealed.not just yet.HAH.so busybodies,wait alright.

i want it to be constant.always there,whenever i want,i need it.don't ever disappear on me.never changing.just constant.stick to me.is all i want at the end of the day.do i deserve this? have i not been constant enough for you?i am scared,i am jealous.they keep going,keep leaving.maybe is for good,God knows.but i just want someone to be constant.

mas,assuming is bad.

Sexy Love-

This few days had been good.Monday,how i could i forget that day.Tuesday,go gaga over stuffs that my sister bought in bangkok and went shopping with my mam and sister at robinsons and arab street.Wednesday,shopped with my mam and brother again and another chillout session with him.I think this week,i'll be out 6 days in a row.i have everything planned,didn't i? and i'm already thinking of next week.gosh,sometimes i find myself crazy plus scary.

i am missing this bunch of girls.when are we're gonna see each other?i hope next week,okay.

and i miss our skirt day!skirt day for rf,kat and I.boots day for eunice.haha.

saw this picture from ryan's blog and i looked funny.pissed--because hidayat keep saying,1,2,1,2 but still didn't take a shot.i was tired from smiling so i frowned to ruin the whole picture.

haha,sucha bitch.

and lastly,i think this picture looked damn awesome cause the lighting is perfect.i don't think sam edit this picture but it looked like as if we're in the studio or something. cheeeeeesssse!

anyway,HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY FADHILA!i wanted to put a picture of us but i couldn't find anything recent,which means is time for us to see each other.i miss you,really.we're so good together last year.i will never forget all those times.babe,i love you.