phew,it's bloody over.

firstly,i woke up as usual,shower and everything.when it comes to drinking my nescafe,i started to feel the panic.my stomach ached.yeah,i was really really scared.till,i forgot to bring my dictionary.i just took the bus and as the doors closed,i suddenly remembered about my dictionary.lucky i was still at yew tee,so i rushed back home walking briskly.i think i was more like jogging.

by the time i was in school,i relaxed but as i got to my seat,looking at my barcode label and my answer sheet,it terrified me.my heart was beating in unusual way.it beats faster than norm.and never before i did the formal letter,i still wanted to write it cause it's easier than dialogue.in the midst of doing the formal letter,my mind stopped its function.i was blanked for a moment.i did what i was told.take a collective intake of breath and istigfar,prayed.thank god,my brain started to function.i already lost three marks cause i don't understand what it's meluap-luap.overall,i did fairly well.

okay.that's it.

i just loved the way backstreet boys sing.full of emotion.it made me remembered those days i was around primary 2,singing i want it that way,everybody and as long as you love me.ahah,kecik2 dah tahu love songs.

okay,ptm tmr.sucha waste of time.record book tmr.let's see how badly i've done.

the new chocolate cadbury boost is yummy!

CHALET WITH NEIGHBOURS 2006 @ECP

the chalet at ecp was indeed fun exclude the rain okay.we met at 8 and took uncle burn's lorry(his real name is bakar which in english it means burn).reached the place,shidah me and my sisters started to crap and laughed at cik usof's feet.his feet is bigger than his sandals.we started to eat nasi lemak and anything that i can stuff in.then,it RAINED!

the picture looked wonderful.we waited for few hours to stop.everyone was crowding under one shelter.meanwhile,i had a nice sip of teh tarik.

yeah.took some pictures.

me;rashi.

it stopped to rain,finally.and i wished i brought extra clothes so i can play with the mud water.

.

see,i'm jealous okay.i can only dipped my feet in the water but no splashing.

sarah.look at my accumulated fats!

then,it was time for games.

games for dad.the dad got ready for the games.ahaha,they are like idiots.

the husband have to run to the wife but before that,they have to...

eat the pear blindfoldedly.very funny.

and then,run to their wife.

ahaha,i was multi-tasking.laughing and taking photos at a time.next game is for children.

ahaha,huge balls.there's more pictures of them but lazy to upload.i can take one hour to upload everything!next game was for dad.

from left,my dad;bangla man;cik kerinting;uncle burn;awie(fake name);pakcik girl-girl.i like the last one.ahaha,the aunt and uncles gave them that nickname.

look at my dad!bloated tummy!

another game is for teenagers.guys.

last game is acting game.me and fahmi become the mother and father and my actual mother and father become the daughter and son.the "mam'" and "dad" have to pretend to scold their "children" as they went home late.very funny.i have a good potential to become a good mother.don't believe,we'll see.

hey mam dad,you're supposed to be scared not laughed at me when i'm scolding you!i said, "penat2 aku beranakkan kau,kau tipu kat aku!".in english,'i gave birth to you and still you lied to me!'.ahaha.and we won!

then,it was prize-giving.before that,me and rashi camwhored a bit.

my idea of taking this picture.

second attempt.

rad and me

hmm,mas is not a bad name at all.till someone wrote my name on the beach.

lastly,the name and the head.

i did flag day today.it was disastrous.i hated flag day but forced to come.still,i put up with a sincere smile and approached for donations.know what,i don't think i'll get cip hours cause the bag was light.excuse me,i even forked out all my 5 cens so,there's some money in the bag.anyhow,i had fun laughing with the guys just now.the ghost -story-turned-to-joke was silly.

anyway,i just finished studying malay.its' so nerve-recking.my sister can say it's easy but this year format is tough and i'm totally worried sick.i won't sleep without thinking about my malay o level.yeah,seriously.it seemed that i'm exaggerating but heck,i really need that a1.every point counts and it means tremendous to me.somehow,i can't the find the confidence which i'm lacking of.nevermind,the last thing you could do is pray.

going picnic tmr.probably grabbed my peribahasa worksheet with me.

shall blog on monday with pictures ya.

GOOD LUCK TO ALL PEOPLE WHO WILL BE TAKING MALAY O LEVEL!do it once,do it well.(my hod mt said this)

oh my.i just counted the number of my folders of pictures and there's 64 FOLDERS.can you imagine how many pictures i've taken since sec 2.i realised that i need to save the pictures in my thumbdrive in case my computer loses all the folders but i don't think my thumbdrive can fit all 64 folders.if my computer loses all the folders,there goes all my memories.

taylor hicks won.but i still prefer chris.american idol was fantastic.the best out of 5 seasons.so many celebrities.the sudden appearance of clay aiken was really hilarious.nah,will not elaborate.you guys should watch.

anyway,just now i got to hang out with haikal!oh gosh,i miss him cause it's been very long time since we hang out.the guys were making a fool of themseleves when they played with the i-gallop.oh goodness.we're gonna hang out during holidays too.i miss tommy too.make sure we go out together huh.and i miss my class and i miss my neighbours,not forgetting my cousins.

know what?while most people have lots of remedials and homework,i only have one remedial in the whole entire june holidays and also,ss and maths worksheet to be done.wow,i definitely appreciate my time bit by bit till school re-opens.

JUALAN RAKSASA(GSS)IS HERE!
gonna drag mam and better still dad,to go shopping.mam wanted to give me school allowances for holidays.i know i should take the money but being a good innocent girl,i only take half of it cause i know the other half is for shopping!

watching x-men on monday with the guys or on tuesday with the siblings?

okay men and women.bye.

my mam just bought me op sandals and i realised that my left feet is smaller than right.there's still some space for my left feet but not on the right.

ah,what the hell.

yesterday my sister's friend came over to my house.my sis and her secondary school friend seemed so happy to meet each other and they have lots to say.i was wondering if my friends and i got separated and meet again after few years,it will lots of fun cause there's surely lots to talk about.

i just found that i love listening to older people talks.their stories is much more interesting and i could listen to them for hours.just what i did when abg mamat told me his stories.

anyway,tomorrow is the end of my malay lesson and hopefully it's the last malay lesson that i have until next year,yeah,i'm really praying hard for my malay o level.

american idol next.taylor hicks anyone?

i stuff a lot of food today.mam cooked western food which is yummy but fattening.fries,salmon fish,veggies,beef,baked beans and eggs.everything at the same go.

i decided not to watch da vinc although my decision was reluctant one.my reasons,my sisters not watching with me and,i'm freaking underage despite that i'm so eager to go against the rule.the newspaper gave 2 out 5 rating.i don't whether the newspaper is reliable but my friend said that they were too much talking and preferred the book.of course, movie that feature from the book,the book will be incomparable.

nevermind.

i will and need to watch X-MEN 3.no matter what.even though i have to watch alone,i'll still go cause i love x-men and i watch x-men cartoons. morever,my fav hunk will be there.

hai,my hugh jackman.

okay,some overdue pictures send by lalala.

singapore idol was hilarious.my goodness,doesn't they understand what is shame?tidak ada kemaluan ke?i mean kemaluan yang lain.the singapore cowboy,the bapok who owns a 5k trenchcoat,the girl who says she is the hero and last but not least,the Nong Nong ago guy.

i bet many enjoyed watching singapore idol.

i had malay lesson from 0800 till 1545.nope,not complaing.me and jana was having fun cause farhan and ashari was making a lot of stupid jokes and matchmaking me with this ugly guy.yucks.ni lah akibatnya kalau masih single.

monday is my tv day.there's so do you think you can dance,anugerah skrin and desparate housewives.

okay,outta here.

aku ingin menjadi mimpi indah dalam tidurmu
aku ingin menjadi sesuatu yg mungkin bisa kau rindu
karena langkah merapuh tanpa dirimu
oh karena hati tlah letih

aku ingin menjadi sesuatu yg selalu bisa kau sentuh
aku ingin kau tahu bahwa ku selalu memujamu
tanpamu sepinya waktu merantai hati
oh bayangmu seakan-akan

reff: kau seperti nyanyian dalam hatiku
yg memanggil rinduku padamu
seperti udara yg kuhela
kau selalu ada

hanya dirimu yg bisa membuatku tenang
tanpa dirimu aku merasa hilang
dan sepi, dan sepi

such a nice song.

tell me the tales
that to me were so dear
NONG NONG ago
NONG NONG ago

ahaha,i can't get enough with this song.gosh,what a shame that he can't pronounced rightly.
anyway,SINGAPORE IDOL is coming in just twenty
minutes(1940)

you know what i did today?i made chocolate pudding!by my own,no help from mam(excluded the calls that i made to mam)except the help from the recipe book.my sister was impressed that i did actually bothered myself with all these stuff since i do not know how to cook even cook maggie mee and eggs.yeah,i never cook eggs before.even my pri 2 brother can manage to,but i still refuse which i can't explain why.but when i know how to cook eggs,i'll blog about it alright!

madrasah was really funny and i learnt a lot okay.the uztaz was really amusing.just want to share with what i've learnt:
Rukun Iman
1.percaya kepada ALLAH.
2.percaya kepada malaikat-malaikat
3.percaya kepada rasul-rasul
4.percaya kepada kitab-kitab ALLAH.
5.percaya kepada Hari Kiamat.
6.percaya kepada takdir Allah/Qadak dan Qadar

okay good.to the muslim,you learnt something probably not new to you but whatever.

NO MORE SUNDAY RELGIOUS SCHOOL FOR ONE MONTH!

ps:i'll miss that cute guy

THIERRY HENRY,THANK GOD YOU STAYED!
i'm extremely excited that henry stayed in arsenal.although i rarely got myself updated about football,but one thing for sure,arsenal need henry.henry is their key to victory despite that he didn't score for the champions league and lost to barcelona.i hear,hear.fatin is so delighted.

oh man,my stomach is wailing for food.i know how you feel tummy.i'm hungry too.

on thursday,my mam went to sakura and ate with her friends.made me so jealous as she told me about all the food that she have eaten.let's bring the whole neighbours to eat there.20 bucks per person and you can eat anything and everything you want.cool huh?

speaking of neighbours,we have a beach outing on 28.the day before my big exams.i was wondering whether or not i should go.i can study the day before the outing but i'm afraid that i would forget all the stuff that i have memorised when i go with the neighbours.surely, we will have fun and when you have fun,you tend to forget everything you study.now,i'm in a midst of dilemma.worst than a love triangle.you see,i don't want to have any regrets.

okay.
i read someone's blog and this person has no problem sharing his feelings to the public.it seems easy for him to tell people about his feelings.i really admired that kind of courage to publicise your thoughts that supposed to be within you only.whereas me,i never ever talk about how i really feel.it's either contented,resentment and seldom misery.if you notice,i hardly discuss about my problems.i either bottled up my feelings which is very unhealthy or put it aside and pretend nothing happens.i wanted to try to tell people about how i really feel,but no bloody way.the reader might find it amusing.if you really wanna know how i feel.four words.

I AM NOT SATISFIED.

go ahead and figure it out.

di dalam dunia ini kita tidak pernah keseorangan.ALLAH sentiasa bersama hamba-NYA yg tidak pernah lupa untuk mengingati-NYA dan beribadat kepada-NYA.Jika ada sesuatu yang menimpa kita,jangan mudah mengalah pada takdir yang mendatang atau menyalahkan takdir itu kerana ALLAH sentiasa adil pada hamba-NYA.Lagipun ALLAH tak akan berikan dugaan yang tak mampu kita hadapi.Kalau tidak tenang,hadaplah DIA.Insya-ALLAH DIA tidak akan hampakan kita.Dalam setiap kedukaan pasti ada rahmat yang tersembunyi.Kita tak pernah hilang dari ditimpa masalah,dilanda kekusutan,namun akhirnya bahagia pasti dikecapi.Setiap yg berlaku ada hikmahnya tetapi kadang-kala kami belun dapat merasai hikmah itu.

Ya Allah,hambamu perlukan Mu.

oh holy shit.i went to fatin's blog and found who is the winner of amazing race!i actually wanted to find out for myself and watch it today night.then,i read her blog and now i know who's the winner!i even forbid my brother to tell me who's the winner and shut my ears so i can't hear.same goes with american idol.i read fatin's blog and i knew who is out.you know,i just like to find out myself so it adds a bit of suspense.

i don't wanna go her blog anymore.seriously no.i'm kidding fatin diyana.by the way,i miss you girl.

anyway,today is holiday and i am at home accumulating fats.yes,i've been eating.yesterday,i splurged on kit kat and kinder beuno and today,i bought ice cream cone.tsk tsk,guilty pleasure.but less on guilt,more on pleasure.

yesterday,mam's advised me on boys.yes mam,i know we can't depend much on boys especially at my age.cikgu fazilah also talked about her love life.she said we can't put 100% hope on guys.okay boys,you guys are not behaving well.and anyhow,no boys ever proved me wrong and that they are worth every girl's tears.yes,i know girls cheat but who recover faster when a relationship spilt?subtle answer.i do not have to tell.

that's why i'm still single.people sometimes ask,do you have boyfriend.i said no.then they ask again,do you have any ex.i answered again,no.they then gave me a i-don't-believe-you reaction.everytime i get this kind of reaction,i'll laugh at them.what,my face looks as if i have lots of ex huh?muka aku mcm muka pompan suka tukar2 jantan ke?oh my.anyway,i do not know how long i'll be single.mana tahu,tmr i'll meet my,er what usually girls or boys will say,ah MyOnlyOne.yes,that bullshit.but heck no,i'm very fussy when it comes to boys.everything will not be right for me.

oh heck,what the hell.

hugh jackman aka wolverine aka logan.

HE'S HOT HUH.

despite his age,he got the charm.but still,i prefer mystique's power.

THIS IS A MUST-WATCH MOVIE!

i wanna watch da vinci tmr.if i got no one to watch with,i have to drag my sisters and watch at night since they both working.but,i doubt so cause masy wanted to watch on tuesday.whereas me,i wanna watch on the opening.

so people,wish me luck.pray that i can get to watch da vinci though i'm underage.

i'm reading the book again to recall back.dan is semangat to read the book.ahaha.

i'm dreading for school.for the whole next week,i only have one lesson which is malay.from 8 till 2.can you imagine that?i started to whine but i think that this is for my own good.i just have to suffer for about 12 days and that's it.i'll give my best shot and die die,i need to get a1 or a2 at least.if i were to get a1,that's it.no more malay till i leave this school.

anyway,i flunked my maths and pure bio.as usual.the marks were atrocious.not bad,but incredibly atrocious.pure biology is 90% based on o level and some of the maths question are o level questions.but,whether is o or n,it won't make freaking difference.and shit,i think i can demote myself to n level class.

okay people.that's that.

the reason why i gained weight
because mam never fails to feed me
so i would like to wish you
A HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY.

she is quite upset cause dad won't bring us out.i know why.cause he has to pay all the meals and probably our shopping too.you got PP already what! and mam you're mango pudding is delicious.


i watched mission impossible 3.my brother said that it is mission impossible three 'Is' cause of the III.gendeng lah.my father bought the pirated cd and half-way through,it got stuck.stupid dupid.but,managed to watch the ending.tu lah,buy pirated cd.

okay.jenny sent me some pictures.


behind the smile,i was like 'oh shit,you all are squeezing on me.

yay,i looked tall! no offence huh.

big heads,small feets.

okay,masing-masing lobang hidup.


oh shit.20 malay vocabulary to go.

I CANNOT BELIVE MY EARS.
um,maybe not ears but eyes.i was flipping through life and saw an advertisement on da vinci movie.then i was looking for the rating and it stated NC16-matured theme!bloody shit.what,i'm not that matured enough is it!i'm just 4 months short.it's not like as if many teenagers would want to watch unless they read the book or the christians would want to know what contradictions the movie may reveal.but anyhow,i would just have to ask my sister buy me the tickets or an alternative choice is to ask some stranger above 16 to buy me the tix.you know,this can get away easily.if
underage teenager can still buy alcohol without the cashier's concern then i think i could get away with easily.

seriously,this would not dampened my spirit to watch a movie that i've been waiting for month.



friday we went to bugis to shop.yeah,mainly shopping.i did get to wantan mee again and i dropped my chopstick as i was too engrossed eating the scrumptious meal.on top of that,a sweet bandung made the meal perfecto.

and

i just finished eating.my aunt made sambal belacan which goes which jeruk.but it's not spicy enough!

okay,going overboard.back to friday.so,we shopped at bugis street and went for rounds and rounds till everyone get what they wanted.they were so many blazers that are cheap!

so,reached home.

my cousins who just got married came and showed the wedding albums.it was really pretty pictures cause you'll never see a bride posing with a peace sign and doing poses like us,teenagers.they made the album into a story and photoshopped it.nice,makes me wanna get married and take lots of photos.

okay people.not much pictures cause jenna and lalala haven't send me pictures yet.

okay,this auntie from this shop is very kind to take photos for us.she offered herself okay.

step minah rocker sey.


YEAH,PEACE.


saturday is the perfect time for me to read.

gym was really tiring for me but nonetheless,i enjoyed it very much.and know what?i say a hot cute ass chinese guy from raffles.he's really cute okay.

anyway,i got my malay paper and thank god i passed the paper.starting from next week,the timetable will change and from 8-11 is malay period till 29.i'm so worried about taking the o level paper.malay is getting tough since the moe changed the format.

funny thing.i'm hurt?nonsense shit.

yeah,i'm going out tomorrow and it's been ages since i hang out.i think next friday,i would like to go for a swim and more gym session during holidays.

okay.watch out for tmr.pictures,here i come!

i got know this web from someone's blog and i started to play around with it and got addicted.just put your picture and they will find a match from someone's famous.

and i got this..


damn,i look like beyonce!didn't i tell you we shared the same DNA?
okay,the next picture.


yeah,i know i have the blood of eurasian.ahaha.
sammi cheng,are you my sister?


getting better.i look like eva from desparate housewife.but to me,i look
like a girl with fat ass.
.
this picture looks like...











ahaha.

okay.and you know what,one of my pictures looked like karena kapoor.but i can't remember which picture i used.











can't be blame.i have mixed blood.eurasion,chinese and also indian.

so,i began to tell my sisters.we tried out everyone face in our family.masyi looked like eminem and iqmal looked like angelina jolie!ahaha.it was so hilarious.mam also wanted to try and end up,she looked like this old man.ahaha.

okay till then.

WOOHOO!EXAMS OVER!

anyhow,i really had a hard,tough and difficult time doing the exams.i screwed up in ss as i read the wrong question.biology and maths,i'm proud to say that i'm going to flunk it.

nevermind,put that aside.is freaking over.

now,i would like to spend my quality time that i've lost because of studying and do things like reading and watching a lot of tvs.my self indulge is the only thing that can just relax my mind.i'll be treating myself by watching da vinci and x-men.

and,vesak day is holiday and next friday will be another holiday for me.i think i'm going out on both friday.i was jumping for joy you now.i'm so looking forward for holiday.

anyway,peterpan coming to singapore but i could not afford the ticket!i badly wanted to go and see them.i'm reluctant to ask mam for money.i want,i really want.

okay then.

malay's over.compared to the worksheets that i did in class,this paper is much more easier.i was a lucky bitch.probably not bitch.but,i was so happy.not to say that i'm so confident to get a1 but i do not have to worry about failing.since this year,i've been doing so badly for my malay worksheets.

anyway,my sister told me that her guy friends visited my blog just to see her without the tudung.what the hell?my blog is becoming popular but only for awhile.ahaha.

went to lot 1 just now with the my four besties.then,we're like confused and do not know where to hang out.i saw a lot of people that i know.cousin,juniors and acquaintances,a bapok who i still remembered and a bangla who used to mopped the floor at lot 1 and also primary school friends.i was like 'helo-ing' here and there.w're sitting at the interchange with no arah tujuan(point).i thought my tujuan is to go home but the real tujuan is to go to the mcdonalds,stayed there and discussed about our plans for june holidays.we came up with lots of plans,like playing soccer with guys.ahaha,our real intention to play not attract attention cause unlike me,i do not chase for attention instead,attention chased me.aha,what the hell am i trying to imply?

anyhow,i got 7 fecking days to go before i started to jump and scream for re-re-rejoice!so people,i can't stand it when my blog has no new pictures so wait for next friday.

lastly,HAPPY 40 SOMETHING TO DADDY!!!oh gosh,he's getting older day by day.

oh,bloody shit.just stay away from me.i take back my words.people change their mind and i've changed mine.don't you get it?i don't want to have anything that got to do with you anymore.you only complicate things.damn it,i had enough.yeah,if i were to spit vulgarities at you,you would i say i'm trying to act cool.please,don't pretend to be so saintly.

yes,i'm finding trouble with you.fighting will be splendid.

people say i look like minah!no freaking way.yeah,i asked the guys in my class whether i looked like a minah and they said yes.no,i denied!minah lawa boleh lah but minah-minah,it's totally unacceptable.hmph!i can't believe my ears.ahaha,zul made a joke out of that and we're roaring in laughter.anyhow,we talked about kiamat and i told them about my grandmother who past away and this danial really made a stupid joke out of it.but we were serious when talking about kiamat.then,we laughed again when dan and yus did that stupid danced or actions.

so,in conclusion i laughed a thousand times.maybe not thousand.

when i went home while in the bus,something amusing happened.i was standing in front two guys and beside me was another two guys.this guy opposite me was staring at this guy beside me.i was wondering,why must he stare at that guy instead of staring at me.guys should stare at girls not stare at their same gender.i was thinking whether the guy beside me looked hotter and better than me cause if he wasn't,the guy opposite me must be staring at me right.the sad thing is,i am nothing compared to a girl until a guy prefers to look at another guy instead of me.that thought almost made me laughed in the bus.

then,in the bus also i farted.damn,it was nice.i did another thing,i digged my nose in the lift and sometimes,i do sing in the lift.tell me there's no civilance camera.if not,i'll be embarassed to death.imagine the guy who was looking at the civilance camera saw me digging nose.oh goodness.why am i telling this to you?should i feel embarassed telling you all this.nah,who cares.everyone fart and dig right.if you're not you have difficulty farting and digging syndrome.

anyway people.i have to study.probably see you in a few days.

picnic was good.my family and i went out from the house around 5 cause it was raining heavily.as soon as i reached pasir ris beach,i went to my cousins and gave them 'cheek kiss'.oh,i miss them alot.then,as usual i grabbed some food and we started to talk and catch up with each other lives.we're laughing and talking about my cousin's girlfriends.ahaha.iqah told me the most juiciest update about someone that i have an eyed on.i was astonished in disbelief because i was jealous.then surpringly,the person that we've talked about came to our bbq.goddamn it,i was lost for words.the most exciting part was when we make an eye contact.
ahaha,i'm not in love lah.i don't even know him and i only get to see him very rarely,like once a year.

anyhow,i miss all my cousins from malaysia too.the last time we get to hang out together was like two years ago.i remembered when we watch shutter and hot chicks together.mostly,our abg sedara is at malaysia.only left with cik enab's son excluding the small kids which we do not hang out with.if there is more guys,it would have been better cause guys do spice things up.

one thing,i hate to stay in tent cause it's bloody scorching hot and the stifling heat is totally unbearable.

photos?ah,my battery's flat but i managed to snap a few pictures.

apa maksud aku tunjuk korang gambar ini?

see,that's my fav nephew.he called me cik mas and i felt old.

ahh,i can't find him at friendster.so goddamn pissed off.waste jer titik peluh aku :(