TILL DEATH DO US APART
today was an unfortunate for my dearest friends.the news that someone close had passed away was unexpected for her.meeting death for the first time wasn't easy.that is why i want to talk about it.death.in all my life,i had met death for four times.the very first time when i was in primary 2,my grandfather that i was quite close with passed away.being a mere 8 year old girl,i understand the situation that i am in.as i grow up and death comes along,i came to the understanding that people comes people go but honestly,i never know what it is like to lose someone that you are really close.i never been in a bereavement before.so to me,i never face a true meaning of death of someone.
to stel and kerene,my thoughts are with you and i know you will be strong.take care guys.
BACK TO NOW.
now,i can feel the stress.stress because of everything.i am exhausted everytime and worries never ever leave my mind.i have issues with myself nowadays and it is frustrating.i am not working hard as i should have.i have been thinking,
'what is going to happen if i do not do well for os.' o level is killing me.
next week is mock exam.no complains.hah!
Friday, September 28, 2007
Saturday, September 22, 2007
INTERNET BEING A BITCH AND WHATNOTS.
it has been a week since i logged on to the computer and my internet being bitchy.i do not know why.even it is not working with my sis lappie.i can't wait for te signet guy to come to my house and fix it.now i am using wireless internet,FYI.
however,i hardly have any time for internet,for blogging even.too busy with much important things,like study.one more month baby,one more month and that's it.
this few days have been exhausting but i am trying my very best to stay awake in school.been sleeping pretty late to study,to watch tv,still.
now,i am reading JAMES PATTERSON MAXIMUM RIDE.this book is awesome.the second best fiction book i ever read.i am always inspired by the author.his imagination is a way beyond comprehension.thanks jon for lending me the awesome book.
you know what?probably prom nite is going to cancel!this is all because not many people are attending.i mean,come on.prom nite is like once in a lifetime thing.how boring can those ccksians be?especially to those who can afford to buy.go and buy the tix people.i mean,a lot of kaching is going to be spend but hey,i am sacrificing it,so why dont you,boring nimrods.i am even using my own money.i beg mr narain,please i wanna have prom.don't care about the attendance.
enough said.today,i woke up and helped my dad to paint the house.whoa,tough job man.we only finished like one quarter of the house.i painted like about an hour or so but after that i crashed the bed.haha.my bedroom is going to look more brighter now.gosh,i can't wait to see my house all clean and new for hari raya.i would love to invite my friends to come but we'll see whether time allows.
it has been a week since i logged on to the computer and my internet being bitchy.i do not know why.even it is not working with my sis lappie.i can't wait for te signet guy to come to my house and fix it.now i am using wireless internet,FYI.
however,i hardly have any time for internet,for blogging even.too busy with much important things,like study.one more month baby,one more month and that's it.
this few days have been exhausting but i am trying my very best to stay awake in school.been sleeping pretty late to study,to watch tv,still.
now,i am reading JAMES PATTERSON MAXIMUM RIDE.this book is awesome.the second best fiction book i ever read.i am always inspired by the author.his imagination is a way beyond comprehension.thanks jon for lending me the awesome book.
you know what?probably prom nite is going to cancel!this is all because not many people are attending.i mean,come on.prom nite is like once in a lifetime thing.how boring can those ccksians be?especially to those who can afford to buy.go and buy the tix people.i mean,a lot of kaching is going to be spend but hey,i am sacrificing it,so why dont you,boring nimrods.i am even using my own money.i beg mr narain,please i wanna have prom.don't care about the attendance.
enough said.today,i woke up and helped my dad to paint the house.whoa,tough job man.we only finished like one quarter of the house.i painted like about an hour or so but after that i crashed the bed.haha.my bedroom is going to look more brighter now.gosh,i can't wait to see my house all clean and new for hari raya.i would love to invite my friends to come but we'll see whether time allows.
Sunday, September 16, 2007
today for break fast,i'll be eating mee soto and homemade pizza!yummys.every month during ramadhan,there is always always a good meal with family.the other day,i ate meatballs,potato with winced meat in it and mee siam.and i am looking forward for more food.cause food=free-stress.
okay,this update is just random.
i am bored.
okay,this update is just random.
i am bored.
Wednesday, September 12, 2007
yesterday night was dreadful.i can't go to sleep for like the first time,despite the fact that my body is tired.in the midst of trying to sleep,i went to the bathroom for 5 times.not stomachache.i tried to sleep for almost one hour,gave up and opened my chemistry till 1.gosh,the feeling of not getting sleep was a nightmare for me.pity the insomnic people.morever,i am not nocturnal and i do not like to be alone late at night.i am not coward.just dont like the feeling of being alone late night.
anyway,this few days,sex was most mentioned topic.i mean,not sex as in the activity itself but other meanings of it.on monday,my class talked about masturbation.my classmates has a lot of questions about the M,like whether it is good or bad.so this poor teacher had to do a lot of explaination.he was apparently interested in sharing the knowledge about the M.it was hilarious!eventually,i walked off from the class saying,"okay,i am not interested in masturbation,i'm more interested in my lunch".haha!on tuesday,the L girls and i talked about man's sex appeal.his nose,his jawline and whatnots.there is only one sex appeal i am interested in but i am shh-ing about it.
whatever it is,i will not talk about any sex-got-to-do topics cause FASTING MONTH IS HERE.it is a holy month,so i need to give respects to it.anyway,i love fasting month and if non-muslims often wonder,why the heck we need to suffer ourselves?why do we need to fast?there are so many benefits of it and here,take a look.you can just read the headline if you want to cause it is pretty long.
The Objectives of Ramadan Fasting:
a) To get rid of bad habits:
Ramadan Fasting demands the strict and solid resolution to submit oneself to a special diet which, often corrects habits, harmful to the health, that we may get into, during the running year, thus to comply with a severely regulated diet and some bad habits, as a self-willed sacrifice. This is why we notice that the Holy Quran mentions patience, tolerance, will, and perseverance as being synonyms of fasting.
b) To suffer hunger thus feel the difficult life of the poor:
This endurance provokes in ourselves the feeling of association with their sorrows and deprivations. This feeling, so humane and compassionate, is much more expressive than a whole series of well-prepared speeches or well-organized public demonstrations. The rich people who never experience deprivation, discover, through fasting, the hardship imposed on needy people. Then, their hearts become more tractable, and their hands, will exercise generosity and charity towards the needy.
c) To Appreciate God's beyond measure donations:
The daylight is never enough estimated unless we endure the night darkness. Also we cannot know the real value of happiness until we lose it. So when we fast, we suffer hunger, thirst and deprivation of so many other leisure's we used to enjoy before fasting. Then, we effectively evaluate the life comforts Mighty God has gifted us with.
d) To discover the sanitary advantages:
Dr. Alexis Karlil, in his book... says: The exaggerated variety of our meals, their excessive quantities and assortments, make the alimentary regulating in the human life become ineffective. With the legislation of Fasting by all religions the humanity has known to attract notice to thousands, even millions of human beings who never know satiety. Moreover, fasting activates the blood circulation and purifies heart and soul. Besides, the modern medicine has proved that fasting is a remedy for diseases that affect the man of this century because of overeating and the variety of canned food. In this case, fasting is as being a treatment, and even a preventive at the same time.
e) Recalling of evident return to God:
In fact, Ramadan fasting is a stage where the human being is the closest to God. The fasting period, Ramadan is a time when one submits to spiritual and social changes.
f) One acquires loyalty, honesty and sincerity to God, by fasting: Ramadan fasting is a confidential act which occurs between the human being and his Creator. This act must be impregnated with full sincerity and the deepest loyalty. Now in case fasting loses its honesty, it becomes a hypocrisy.
g) Regulating habit:
By Ramadan fasting, we acquire the habit of punctuality. We breakfast at fixed time, and we abstain from eating and drinking at a strict and special time. Moreover, becoming accustomed to regulations leads to the respect of time, of word and promise, and so one becomes trustworthy, well estimated, able to carry out one's responsibilities, and to fulfill one's social duties.
h) Spreading assistance and mutual help in the society:
Ramadan fasting inspires love and tightens links among the family members who live the whole fasting period in the same routine which approaches them to God. Habits change automatically during the period, and the family members meet in the evenings to say prayers appropriated to this holy occasion. The morals and fruitful consequences of fasting extend to the vast society, where collaboration between its members, and decent behavior are demonstrated. Charity and mutual help occupy a remarkable place, and brotherhood and equality triumph, which that is, the most human acts and the holiest purpose of the fasting.
anyway,this few days,sex was most mentioned topic.i mean,not sex as in the activity itself but other meanings of it.on monday,my class talked about masturbation.my classmates has a lot of questions about the M,like whether it is good or bad.so this poor teacher had to do a lot of explaination.he was apparently interested in sharing the knowledge about the M.it was hilarious!eventually,i walked off from the class saying,"okay,i am not interested in masturbation,i'm more interested in my lunch".haha!on tuesday,the L girls and i talked about man's sex appeal.his nose,his jawline and whatnots.there is only one sex appeal i am interested in but i am shh-ing about it.
whatever it is,i will not talk about any sex-got-to-do topics cause FASTING MONTH IS HERE.it is a holy month,so i need to give respects to it.anyway,i love fasting month and if non-muslims often wonder,why the heck we need to suffer ourselves?why do we need to fast?there are so many benefits of it and here,take a look.you can just read the headline if you want to cause it is pretty long.
The Objectives of Ramadan Fasting:
a) To get rid of bad habits:
Ramadan Fasting demands the strict and solid resolution to submit oneself to a special diet which, often corrects habits, harmful to the health, that we may get into, during the running year, thus to comply with a severely regulated diet and some bad habits, as a self-willed sacrifice. This is why we notice that the Holy Quran mentions patience, tolerance, will, and perseverance as being synonyms of fasting.
b) To suffer hunger thus feel the difficult life of the poor:
This endurance provokes in ourselves the feeling of association with their sorrows and deprivations. This feeling, so humane and compassionate, is much more expressive than a whole series of well-prepared speeches or well-organized public demonstrations. The rich people who never experience deprivation, discover, through fasting, the hardship imposed on needy people. Then, their hearts become more tractable, and their hands, will exercise generosity and charity towards the needy.
c) To Appreciate God's beyond measure donations:
The daylight is never enough estimated unless we endure the night darkness. Also we cannot know the real value of happiness until we lose it. So when we fast, we suffer hunger, thirst and deprivation of so many other leisure's we used to enjoy before fasting. Then, we effectively evaluate the life comforts Mighty God has gifted us with.
d) To discover the sanitary advantages:
Dr. Alexis Karlil, in his book... says: The exaggerated variety of our meals, their excessive quantities and assortments, make the alimentary regulating in the human life become ineffective. With the legislation of Fasting by all religions the humanity has known to attract notice to thousands, even millions of human beings who never know satiety. Moreover, fasting activates the blood circulation and purifies heart and soul. Besides, the modern medicine has proved that fasting is a remedy for diseases that affect the man of this century because of overeating and the variety of canned food. In this case, fasting is as being a treatment, and even a preventive at the same time.
e) Recalling of evident return to God:
In fact, Ramadan fasting is a stage where the human being is the closest to God. The fasting period, Ramadan is a time when one submits to spiritual and social changes.
f) One acquires loyalty, honesty and sincerity to God, by fasting: Ramadan fasting is a confidential act which occurs between the human being and his Creator. This act must be impregnated with full sincerity and the deepest loyalty. Now in case fasting loses its honesty, it becomes a hypocrisy.
g) Regulating habit:
By Ramadan fasting, we acquire the habit of punctuality. We breakfast at fixed time, and we abstain from eating and drinking at a strict and special time. Moreover, becoming accustomed to regulations leads to the respect of time, of word and promise, and so one becomes trustworthy, well estimated, able to carry out one's responsibilities, and to fulfill one's social duties.
h) Spreading assistance and mutual help in the society:
Ramadan fasting inspires love and tightens links among the family members who live the whole fasting period in the same routine which approaches them to God. Habits change automatically during the period, and the family members meet in the evenings to say prayers appropriated to this holy occasion. The morals and fruitful consequences of fasting extend to the vast society, where collaboration between its members, and decent behavior are demonstrated. Charity and mutual help occupy a remarkable place, and brotherhood and equality triumph, which that is, the most human acts and the holiest purpose of the fasting.
Saturday, September 08, 2007
alright.i am back,with pictures of three decades ago.
before that,i am going to bore people with stories.nothing much happened lately(how could something really good happened to me,during this period of time?).anyway,i went out on friday,alas with my parents and two annoying brothers.guess where did we go.none other than bugis!(if you wanna know why my family always go to bugis because my father worked there and the place is convenient)the best thing was that,we had dinner at altazzas-egyptian restaurant,along the arab streets,where mostly people get their sishas(i am gg to try one,don't laugh).and holy moly,the food was nice.i had chicken swish kebab which cost 9 bucks.quite worthy though.ah huh,i am making my sisters jealous.sorry no pics,cause who wants to take picture,in the midst of having a great dinner?shopped around OG and well,that's all.i can't wait to shop again,you know shop for the hari raya stuffs.
okay,i'll shut and let you see the pics.
TEACHER'S DAY CELEBRATION-
i don't why i put this pic,but i think stel is hot.haha,with that so called cleavage of yours.hah,i am kidding!
we danced.
look at kerene,she's wooorkking it!
the very semangat(enthu)ending.
the very shaky mas
chey,mas mcm paham.
haha,the performers!
CCKSS FOOD AND FUN FAIR-
fizza!
haikal.used to be my best buds.sucha funny guy.
NATIONAL DAY CELEBRATION-
MCD time!
YAMSENG!zul looked horrible.hah!
the malay peeps from 5/2.
before that,i am going to bore people with stories.nothing much happened lately(how could something really good happened to me,during this period of time?).anyway,i went out on friday,alas with my parents and two annoying brothers.guess where did we go.none other than bugis!(if you wanna know why my family always go to bugis because my father worked there and the place is convenient)the best thing was that,we had dinner at altazzas-egyptian restaurant,along the arab streets,where mostly people get their sishas(i am gg to try one,don't laugh).and holy moly,the food was nice.i had chicken swish kebab which cost 9 bucks.quite worthy though.ah huh,i am making my sisters jealous.sorry no pics,cause who wants to take picture,in the midst of having a great dinner?shopped around OG and well,that's all.i can't wait to shop again,you know shop for the hari raya stuffs.
okay,i'll shut and let you see the pics.
TEACHER'S DAY CELEBRATION-
i don't why i put this pic,but i think stel is hot.haha,with that so called cleavage of yours.hah,i am kidding!
we danced.
look at kerene,she's wooorkking it!
the very semangat(enthu)ending.
the very shaky mas
chey,mas mcm paham.
haha,the performers!
CCKSS FOOD AND FUN FAIR-
fizza!
haikal.used to be my best buds.sucha funny guy.
NATIONAL DAY CELEBRATION-
MCD time!
YAMSENG!zul looked horrible.hah!
the malay peeps from 5/2.
Thursday, September 06, 2007
okay,a proper post.(not like the previous where,i sound,er,what did i sound like?)
anyways,today i am feeling goooood.positively gooood.i am productive and i doing okay with my maths.good news for me huh.but,i shall not bore you with my revisions plan.
this holiday,i have yet to go out,you know take a breather,a break.i want to go out.i want to walk along the streets of orchard or spend my time in MS.i want to spend money(besides on food,which i had been doing so,mcd,egg tarts,eclairs,chocos and mcd,well since i studied there for three days).gosh,i am putting on weight.a lot of people say i am fat(which i took it as being potentially fatter in future)and some people say i am not fat.bootylicious.okay.that was me.so,i am skeptic about what people got to say about my weight.i do not care unless my weight does not exceed 55kg.i am happy with my curves man.like what tyra said,so what!so,there goes my opinion.
i can't believe that 3 more days,i have to attend school.no more wearing flip flops to school.i have to be more strict on my tv consumption.i am only watching tv on wed and thurs,probably friday.grey's anatomy,ANTM(new season!).i am making big sacrifices(yes,it is huge okay).i am missing CSI,though everything about CSI is totally cool.i did think of becoming one of them.haha,but looking at my biology grades,i give a pass.hah.
oh ya,the other day,i was in mcd.i met this guy from kranji sec.i remembered him being the nerd,wearing black rimmed glasses and he usually took 302.gosh,now he looked so charming.but he is with a chinese girl!why does malay guys have to go after chinese girls!what a pity.nevermind,i am pretty much happy with my status.single and loving it.i must embrace that.
okay lah.i am done.
anyways,today i am feeling goooood.positively gooood.i am productive and i doing okay with my maths.good news for me huh.but,i shall not bore you with my revisions plan.
this holiday,i have yet to go out,you know take a breather,a break.i want to go out.i want to walk along the streets of orchard or spend my time in MS.i want to spend money(besides on food,which i had been doing so,mcd,egg tarts,eclairs,chocos and mcd,well since i studied there for three days).gosh,i am putting on weight.a lot of people say i am fat(which i took it as being potentially fatter in future)and some people say i am not fat.bootylicious.okay.that was me.so,i am skeptic about what people got to say about my weight.i do not care unless my weight does not exceed 55kg.i am happy with my curves man.like what tyra said,so what!so,there goes my opinion.
i can't believe that 3 more days,i have to attend school.no more wearing flip flops to school.i have to be more strict on my tv consumption.i am only watching tv on wed and thurs,probably friday.grey's anatomy,ANTM(new season!).i am making big sacrifices(yes,it is huge okay).i am missing CSI,though everything about CSI is totally cool.i did think of becoming one of them.haha,but looking at my biology grades,i give a pass.hah.
oh ya,the other day,i was in mcd.i met this guy from kranji sec.i remembered him being the nerd,wearing black rimmed glasses and he usually took 302.gosh,now he looked so charming.but he is with a chinese girl!why does malay guys have to go after chinese girls!what a pity.nevermind,i am pretty much happy with my status.single and loving it.i must embrace that.
okay lah.i am done.
Tuesday, September 04, 2007
hellidays are boring.i still go for school,which doesn't make a holiday a holiday.
anyway,feeling extremely lazy to study.revisions spent at mcd was a waste of time.i don't know why.is it because of the surrounding,environment or is it just me.i think the latter.totally,unproductive.still,i am continuing.mcd at teck whye cc have a lot of studious people.SG teenagers are indeed boring teenagers.sometimes i wish,we do not have o level and everybody has the same qualifications.same jobs,same earnings,same status.no competition,jealousy or enviness.just plain equal.and sometimes,you just do not know why you are feeling this way.unexplainable.unfanthomable.just outright bs.the actions that you did were unaccountable,unjustifiable.you do not know why you should live when you know you will face the imminent death anytime.you live like how the rest lived and you become a person that everyone wants you to become.probably,that is life part about.
and i don't know why i say all that bull.
anyway,feeling extremely lazy to study.revisions spent at mcd was a waste of time.i don't know why.is it because of the surrounding,environment or is it just me.i think the latter.totally,unproductive.still,i am continuing.mcd at teck whye cc have a lot of studious people.SG teenagers are indeed boring teenagers.sometimes i wish,we do not have o level and everybody has the same qualifications.same jobs,same earnings,same status.no competition,jealousy or enviness.just plain equal.and sometimes,you just do not know why you are feeling this way.unexplainable.unfanthomable.just outright bs.the actions that you did were unaccountable,unjustifiable.you do not know why you should live when you know you will face the imminent death anytime.you live like how the rest lived and you become a person that everyone wants you to become.probably,that is life part about.
and i don't know why i say all that bull.
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