thursday-saturday ; Seri Palma Condo, JB with Cousins

they have been with me since the beginning.

i love each one of you :) and not forgetting kinah.

2010- to anticipate or to not anticipate.

i do not like to be ignored.

I had lots of fun in JB with my cousins.

sleepover.movie marathon till 4.30 in the morning.house bunny&ugly truth.swimming.jusco.

sushi king.shopping.baskin robbins.grocery shopping.bbq party. ilham's 5th bday.balloons in the pool.swimming.mama mia in the morning.baju butterfly.pajamas dresses.kain batik.henna-time.girly talks.laughter.pictures-taking.manhattan fish market.home.

now, i am left with 1 week of holiday.NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

i wish we have another one more week. not ready for school at all. i bet is gonna be hell since it's our last term of the year.

before school reopen, i still have more shopping to do. i think i am crazy. i keep thinking of what more to buy. i shall put that to an end tomorrow. i shall go shopping alone tomorrow if i am not lazy.IF.

and my whole week will be taken up.oh god. i need more time for my assignments! F!

alright, enjoy your 1 last precious week my friends!

ps/: i love you.

new shoes.somerset.blisters.7-eleven.f21.shopped.41 bucks.dhoby ghaut.the cathay.avatar tixs.hungry man is an angry man.far east.sakura.dinner. full man is a happy man.blisters.orchard road. dhoby ghaut. avatar.ended.plaza sing.mcd.shakerfries.facing mcd house, eating shakerfries.conversations. 10.50pm.train.home.one lucky girl.

tonight till saturday will be at yanie's condo at JB. ALL GIRLS ONLY. i cant wait. we're gonna have our slumber party, butterfly pajamas, swim under the stars, bbq, movies, ice cream, girly talks and so on.

alright everybody, enjoy your holidays!!

xoxo

tomorrow's plan is to head to 313 somerset alone, and then proceed to watch Avatar(not alone). sounds good.i think i'm the kinda of woman who would spend her money on clothes.(if i have money)not the kind who spends on bags and shoes.

how could you be so heartless..

this song is dedicated to you.

hahaha.

here is what i've been up to.

monday&tuesday- staying at home doing work

wednesday- late lunch at earl swensen@ vivo city, shopping @ orchard, rooftop @ OC with K. one word, Amazing!

thursday- new year( in Islamic calendar)@ masjid sultan, dinner @ beach road with family.

friday- bugis, reading comic books @ the library with K, yeah i know but we ran out of ideas of where to go but i like reading comics when i'm with him and Spore is getting boring, dinner at seoul garden@ CWP with K's family. (ps, i am not the kinda girl who cling to their gf/bf's family.)

saturday- stayed at home, evening at a cousin's house.

sunday- arab street with mam,shopping.

oh my, 2 more weeks to school! yet another busy week ahead, and ahead.

ps/: to the fairies, would love to meet, but someone, initiate please :)

i have been busy.

nutty oreo yoghurt at earl swensen made me smile :)))

here's a thought(s)

how can you be sure of your future? the future to me is extremely unpredictable, there is no way guessing. you can't get a glimpse of the future or find hints to it. how do you be so sure that everything you plan now for the future will happen?how can you get so confident because i know i cant now.how do you know that what you are planning now will be good for you in the future?what if it turns out wrong?what if the thing that you've been hoping for to happen in the future turned out to be a mistake? what will happen if the person that you have hopes for will disappoint you in the future?okay maybe on the brighter side, what if the future turned out to be unexpectable, you turned into a rich woman and marry a rich, good looking husband? wow that will be real good.the point is, i dont know if should be making plans. i dont know if plans will disappoint me in the end. all i know is that it will hurt be real bad. haha, i dont why i'm suddenly thinking of this. it is not that i am a negative person but i' m afraid my expectations will backstab me. i am afraid people that i love will disappoint me. i'm afraid, i admit. but i shouldnt be afraid. deep within, i know something good will happen. it's just the thought of disappointments is overclouding my mind. the future should be anticipated. after all i never know. after all i might just die tomorrow.

on friday night when i had sushi, i got to be one of the happiest girl around.

tuesday was pretty good.maybe real good. i didnt expect to receive bursary from school and i didnt check my email back then and when i did, the school said i have to collect my cheque. alhamdullilah, i feel so so thankful to Allah, i mean i dont think i deserve it but oh well. so now have to use my money wisely and spend on what i need, and not want.

alright then.

ps/: holidays is here!!! but oh well, next week have to start on my journals :/

school is over for me. project submitted and had my critique today. now that i'll be having my holidays, i am gonna spend it wisely since i will not have another one at the end of year 2 because of internship. there is still so much to do, hope everything will go well for me.

last sunday-east coast park

i'm feeling a bit emo this few days and what i should be emo-ing about is school but it is not about school. here i am feeling unstress whereas everyone else is so stress out about their work makes me feel like, have i done enough? the answer is no and never. i have never done enough. i am trying now but right this moment, is not working. i dont know what i should do to improve. i am totally blank. and i say wow to these negative, pessimistic thoughts that currently running through my head for the past weeks.wow because first i am always looking on the bright side and always feeling optimistic. what the hell am i thinking?

and i really love the idea of disappearing.

maybe first start should be this blog.

I MISS MY SEC GIRLFRIENDS. YES ALL OF YOU..

and maybe the guys too.

friday morning till saturday night- @ melaka celebrating hari raya haji

sunday afternoon- picnic with K's friends @ecp

had a really good weekend.

so it's time for work now this week.

Friday marked the end of our term 3!!!

holiday here i come!!

In order to come back to You, I know what i should do.

First, I should stop doing what I am doing.

Second,I should let go of the person that i love the most and praying that the person will come back to me someday.

Third, disappear.

Fourth, go into refuge.

Dubai. You. I.

Cant wait to travel around..Once i start working!

one of the important lesson in this life is to let go. let go of everything, your feelings, thoughts, anger, disappointment, people,boyfriend, ex best friend, clothes, shoes, things, tv shows. let go when they held no importance, when they are making everything worst, instead of making things better.

and now, i'm letting go of my autocad as you held of no importance. i am going to sleep.

PS/: WATCHING NEW MOON NEXT FRIDAY, AFTER SUBMISSION!WOOHOOT

"Allah is aware of human weaknesses and is forgiving; so come back.. Come back even if you have broken your repentance a thousand times.."

Read this from Sis Muna's Facebook. Just what i need.

dreams, can come true if you believe in it.

i am afraid of what's to come after i graduate. i dont want to be stuck with doing something that i dont like again.three years is enough of a lesson. i just wish, really wish that i will do something that i am interested in,somewhere along that line of work, i will be glad, before i start studying again. hopefully, that will happen. and if i have saved enough, i might want to consider studying overseas, together with K.. that will be real good. the future seemed endless, if only all will come true. countless plans ahead but the one who decides what's best for us, is Him.

ps/: i miss those halaqah days. i wouldnt be sitting here on friday night blogging, but learning something more beneficial. any chances of coming back Sis Muna?

tonight was good. finally,you're not as busy as you were..finally,we just get to sit in silence and enjoy the night away..oh, the wind was too good, i even felt like sleeping there. finally, there werent any arguements,how tired i am of that.i feel contented, i am going to sleep with a smile tonight.

however, the smile will fade when tomorrow comes. reality check, i have work to do. submission due in 3 weeks.

that's it the end of my weekend.

3 more weeks to school, hell it's gonna be but we have 4 weeks of holidays after that.great,just what i needed.

miss,miss,miss

you.

Earth, Sky, Divinity, Mortal.

Oneness. eg, Mosque.

i was looking up on mosques architecture at the school library and i told myself. if i ever goes around to becoming an established,rich architect, the first building i would build is the mosque. IF i ever, but i doubt i will. higher chances i wont but i can contribute in another way. the mosque, is not just a mosque and not just a place to pray.it would be wonderful if i experience an overwhelming interior space of a mosque. i think the mosque should gives us more than the feelings we already have when we enter a mosque. how we should experience the space when we step in the mosque, when we take our ablution, when we bow our heads towards Allah,when we have our foreheads on the praying mat and especially when we are having intimate time with Allah, Himself?these feelings can be enhanced through architecture and interior.wouldnt it be wonderful? when we step out of the mosque, feeling liberated and at peace? do i make sense here? i dont know how to explain further but i want that feeling.i want that mosque to linger in my head and makes me come back more because i feel Allah the most in that mosque. and not that we dont feel Him the most elsewhere but we need a place to feel belong. so lets all use of imagination and imagine that feeling...

i'm pretty tired for today.

probably will be sleeping early. heck to martin heidegger.i'm not gonna read you tonight. you might give me nightmares.

ps, i got 4 more weeks to submission and to holiday!! so fast, yeah i know :)

alright here i am typing this away..

today for a very long time, i am at home on a saturday, doing absolutely nothing(except trying to read and decipher martin heidgger for a review),watch ugly betty season 3 and had pastamania for dinner at lot 1 with sarah.

anyway, my last project for the entire 4 weeks has already been launched. for the very first time in this course ever, i was showing an interest and anticipated of what's going to come.this sliver,tiny interest and anticipation might die off soon, i think but come on, i always dreamed of having my own shop.i havent really thought about it but one thing for sure, it got to be a luxurious shop, as told my the project's brief.

okay, that's it.i'm off to bed..

gotta do work in the morning.stupid martin, why cant philosophers talk straight and not beat around the bush.

alright, queen said i should get a tagboard but you see the comment below there, everyone can start commenting cause it's now open for everyone.

i was watching the pursuit of happyness in the afternoon and the first reason i was watching it because you said i should. it got me thinking about certain things. first, i was imagining you and me, doing our pursuit together and what would it be like. i think you and i have a similar feeling on how we should live this world and that is to be content with just about everything. so imagining us pursuing something together seemed something good to look forward to. but maybe, if it all goes well between you and i.

so i continued thinking and separate myself from you. this is about me. what would i be pursuing? how is it gonna be like and the question is, what is happiness? how you're gonna pursue it without knowing what is happiness to you..it could be anything but for me, what should it be? the movie touches me and i am determined to work hard(i hope i stick to my words). look at chris, he had to go through insecurity by being homeless and here i am typing this from the comfort of my home, what kind of suffering and hardship is mine compared to his? i neither suffer nor works hard enough.

and this thinking went back to you again. chris got his son, someone to pursue the happyness with and someone to drive him to pursuing happyness. i would love if the someone could be you. or someone like you. then that pursuing is not only for yourself and that happyness you get is not only for yourself but it is being shared with the special person, someone who got to be the reason behind your pursuit.

i know, i am so emotional tonight but this is what i am feeling now and i wont deny those feelings.

alright be back, less emo.

go watch the movie, is worthwhile.

It's fine.

Chin up,

Let it go,

Walk away,

And pretend nothing happened.

PS/: i need you

you know what i want, CHEESE MUSHROOM EGG PRATA!!!!

wow,it's novermber already. 2 more months to another new year, 2010.

my first project of term 3 is done,alhamdullilah.

ps: all i want before my school life gets hectic is a really good day with you. busy, busy busy. that's life. do not let the work control you,you control the work.

i am glad is the weekend. my week has been exhausting. staring at the laptop for hours and hours is exhausting,plus the journey back to back carrying the almost 3 kg laptop. i am done for the day.

gonna spend a relaxing time watching amazing race and survivor.

have a great weekend, i know i will.

meeting K tomorrow, alas!

oh how i love to look forward to post-submission.

i kinda like the way things are between you and me. Chillaxed, relax, no hurry, no rush. it's not as if we're getting married tomorrow.

school's tomorrow. this time, i'm going for quality instead of quantity and i am just going with the flow. hopes so, considering the person that i am, i dont go with the flow. prays for the best this semester.

19th Birthday!

to my four girlfriends, thank you so much for the celebration, the donuts, the pods(which i was craving for!!!), the surprise picnic and the perlini silver pendant. thank you for your time and i am really touched. i love each of you. friends for life alright?xoxo.

Awak, i miss you!come date me! :)

I think my expectations of life is simple. i just want to have a really good job that i love and enjoy for up until i feel i am done working. before i do that i really want to continue studying after i graduate. i was talking to K's friend and she said she was taking english in Nus. It somehow sparked me the idea to go and dream about Nus rather than Sim but you know, i do not want to expect much from myself.whatever it is, if i ever have the opportunity, i will grab it. I met with a new lecturer,she said she used to write local dramas for mediacorp and it sounded so interesting. i think i know where i am heading but i am praying for the best and Allah knows best.

:(

what's the difference from 18 to 19 huh?

oh well, it's in 20mins time so i shall wish in advance.

happy birthday to myself :)

19? what's new?i shall find out.

this shall pissed queenie's off. my self-obsessesed picture,currently in fb and msn dp.haahaha.

sorry people, i dont give a hoot,it's my birthday!

i had a great time yesterday.first up, west coast park with the paternal side. so the cousins,17 of us once again made plans to 'torn' and venture. right after the whole gathering, we met up again @ teban around 12.we made our way to pasir ris park to venture,meaning jalan2 cari hantu and pasal. hahaha, it was so much fun because we tried to find the maze and the swamp area.the swamp area was so freaking dark, there were no lights.so two by two we walked in and tried to find our way out. and of course there are cowards like me, but i tried to be brave.hah.fortunately, nothing happened and we see no ghost. the maze that we wanted to go too looked different than before, as they put lights, probably because the place is spooky.

after the whole venture thing, we went to changi!to see bapoks!!hahah, as usual, my dear cousin has a thing for bapok.there were quite a lot of them compared to the time when i was there.after that we had our supper, prata mushroom cheese egg and teh tarik.oh my, what a fulfilling supper.by the time i reached home, it was 5 in the morning.

it was fun all in all and lets do it again!puteri darling, pictures please!!

what a nice way to end my school holidays.

now i'm waiting to meet K.

school is at 8 tmr!

OH NO 2 AND A HALF DAYS TO SCHOOL!!!!!!

ALRIGHT, GONNA RELISH MY LAST WEEKEND

FREAKS OUT

FREAKS OUT

FREAKS OUT

NOT READY

NOT READY

NEVER READY

lets do this so that we can wear matching-matching baju kurung for as long..cheesy or no cheesy.