Ellyna's Surprise Party-

I tell you,organising a surprise party is ain't easy,right faridah? all the lies and everything.haha,but it was worth it right. i never been part of surprising people and i never been surprised by anyone before but i would love if someone organise a surprise party for me( hint#1)

at jurong bus interchange.haha,tak tahu malu.

like rombongan apa je.

faridah muke stress.hah!

everyone got into their hiding.hah.

aww...

the cake is specially designed.isn't it sweet? (hint #2)

and what would a surprise be without special friends?(hint#3) elly's friends are so sweet and awesome.especially that mak cik.

and also,what would a surprise be without your darling cousins? (hint#4)

haha!elly,muke dah cuci dgn facial wash?

and what would a surprise be without your family? (hint# 5)

ni semua muke kebuluh.haha,gosh,we were hungry okay.

elly's got so many bday presents and i specially like the gift of a book and photo album(hint #6)

group photo!

amacam elly,best tak?

ps/: all that hints,just ignore.haha,if you know what i mean,good.

yesterday night was damn good.happy 21st my darling cousin,ELLY.

i'll post bout yesterday tomorrow,with pictures.yeah.

psss: today's halaqah and..you know,i know.

Everyone is flawed.Period.Period,mas.

and it sucks when perfection is often seek.when expectations are always over-demanding,over-achieving.when goals are too high to score.when aims are made difficult.because all of it will culminated to a disappointment.a huge fat,disappointment.and you got no one else to blame baby.no one.

my new baby weighs almost 3 kg.i don't think i can bear to carry this new baby of mine around.

my new baby is a laptop.hp high end model.only for design students.and me being a design student? doesn't sound right.cause i always thought that i would end up being a business student,or mass comm student,or science student.never would i imagine i would become a DESIGN STUDENT. so i'm not used to saying it.damn,design student!

i seriously think that bringing a laptop to school would be such a fuss.mas,belum2 dah complain.ape jer.

and i went to orchard yesterday,again.this time shopping for real.but what i seriously don't comprehend is why i always can't find the perfect shoe.leha buka kedai kasut okay cause maybe someone in this world would know what i want.

i need to buy school stuffs by next week.7 april,unofficially starts school already.what with freshman orientation and suchs.yeah baby!

ps/: maroon 5 in town baby!!! unfortunately,i can't get hold of the tix.sold out man.damn.( okay i lied.no money is the reason)

WebCam Craze-

okay,i admitted.i was trying to act sexy here but tak menjadi.fine,i admit.

from stardust-

Yvaine: You know when I said I knew little about love? That wasn't true. I know a lot about love. I've seen it, centuries and centuries of it, and it was the only thing that made watching your world bearable. All those wars. Pain, lies, hate... It made me want to turn away and never look down again. But when I see the way that mankind loves... You could search to the furthest reaches of the universe and never find anything more beautiful. So yes, I know that love is unconditional. But I also know that it can be unpredictable, unexpected, uncontrollable, unbearable and strangely easy to mistake for loathing, and... What I'm trying to say, Tristan is... I think I love you. Is this love, Tristan? I never imagined I'd know it for myself. My heart... It feels like my chest can barely contain it. Like it's trying to escape because it doesn't belong to me anymore. It belongs to you. And if you wanted it, I'd wish for nothing in exchange - no gifts. No goods. No demonstrations of devotion. Nothing but knowing you loved me too. Just your heart, in exchange for mine.

seriously,i'm not being lovey dovey here but this,is just wow.

Books and Me-

it looked like i have 4 books finish up.i am pretty contented that my days will be filled with reading books.thanks to cik dewi for the books and i've been wanting to read bagaikan puteri.i've been reading malay books lately.i think is good for me so that i won't forget my roots.malay people nowadays all perasan jadi orang putih celup.speaks and read only in english.and guiltily,i am one of them.

and other books that i want to read is:

1) ps i love you (dying to read this book too)

2) step on a crack

3) the notebook (fed up already with searching cause i can't find it in library)

okay enough with your books and what-you-want-to-read.

friday night was good! went out with my neighbours to have our dinner and the best part was listening to the pakciks and makciks stories.oh,i love my neighbours and i don't want to leave this neighbourhood.

will be going out in an hour!(time check:3.32pm)the weather doesn't looked pretty good!please don't rain.biler nak keluar dgn leha,mesti hujan.

i had been busy.

tuesday-
i went out with him.we had dinner at seoul garden @ orchard taka.the dinner cost a bomb but the food was not bad.we both decided to skip lunch and by 8pm,my stomach was screaming for food!it was such a pleasant night,i think i could do it over again.from the food,to the strolling at town,to the home.and mam,i'll try my very best not to break anyone's heart,especially this one, insyaAllah.

wednesday-
i went to maulidur rasul at al-maarif @ paya lebar.it was such an unforgettable event and i never felt so semangat in reciting the zikirullah/selawat whatever it is callled.the atmosphere was indescribable.insyaAllah,i'll attend next year event.thanks to kak muna for the information.thanks to Allah.

thursday-
i went to bugis with shidah,my cousin.finally,i had wanton mee after a very long time.and this hand,is seriously itchy cause i bought myself a tube top.tsk tsk.

friday-
HOME!

so,that was my week.i can't wait to see leha tomorrow!!!!

ps/ : happy birthday to you.believe in me,i had the intention of making this right.

i did went to SP yesterday but not alone.thanks huh dan and zam for accompanying me.seriously,we totally felt like SP student when we got the student card,when we sat around with laptops,when people asked us for directions and especially when we went to the school library to watch a movie.(with the help of hazwan,of course)haha!i can't wait for school already!!!!!!!!!!!!!!but at the same time,i'm feeling a tad sappy.i miss my school very very much and i can't wait to go to school again.

anyway,i thought i'll be getting my laptop by wednesday but the lappie that i should be getting is out of stock or something?i have to wait and i don't know when i'll be getting it since there are 151 people ahead of me.(there's a waiting list or smthg)damn,i can't wait to use the webcam!

okay,enough about school stuffs and put hold the enthusiasm mas because before school starts, you need to:
1) buy a school bag.
2) buy a shoe.
3) buy 2 more clothes.
4) buy your art stuffs(i can't believe i'll be having art stuffs and the total cost is 130bucks.shit!)
5) buy laptop cover?

and shiiiiiiiiiiiiittttttttttttt,i have no money.i need at least 200 bucks and i'll have to keep my pride aside and beg for money.

saturday was like a food spree for me and my family.
since past few days, my stomach was not cooperating with me and i guessed i had stomach flu or something.and of course,i hadn't been eating a lot.if i eat,i feel like throwing up.

so saturday,first up was eunos.actually,we wanted to eat at popeye's @ changi airport but i was really hungry,we stopped at eunos.i had goreng pisang,kelidik,claypot rice and lastly ice kachang. went to changi airport after that to send off my cousin,najib back to mesir and we stopped at mcd.i had french fries,coke,spoonful of ice cream and a bite of apple pie.after sending najib,we went to bugis and we stopped at this place.i had goreng pisang(again),mouthful of nasi lemak and mee siam and teh tarik.we went shopping after that.lastly,i had corn cups and avocado drink.

now,thinking back,i ate A LOT.

gosh,now i think i've put back the weight that i lost when i had the stomach upset.now,sunday, i had some minor stomach pains. haha,tu ah makan tak ingat dunia.but seriously, it was really good and my father didn't actually mind.he just let us spent on food so why not resist the opportunity right.

anyway,yesterday, my father brought me to his fav. book shop that sell religious books and i fall in love with some of the books.i wish i could buy the other two books but i decided to buy this book title Stories of Prophets.and,amazingly,the books were written in english!gosh,i think next month,i'll ask my father to buy me another one more book.mesti kasi punyer pasal kalau benda2 yg baik,dia tak boleh kata no.haha.

so that was how i spent my saturday.

and tomorrow,i'm going to SP.Alone.
gosh,i don't think i would but who else would wanna accompany me right? and ya, i'll be purchasing my lappie next week!actually,i don't mind if i don't need to buy cause it would be really troublesome but heck.laptop,laptop lah.

wont you be my solid ground?

SICK SICK SICK

one moment,i feel so so cold and another moment,i am fanning myself. it has been so long since i got sick but syukur alhamdullilah.kalau sakit makna nyer, Allah nak hilangkan dosa2 kite.

be back,healthy!

Hamzah's Family @ ECP-

I had fun on sunday! moments like this,i feel very appreciative,thankful and grateful. i can't never thank Allah SWT enough.(well you can,with lots of ibadah and constant remembrance)
The weather that day was playing tricks with us.one moment it pitter patter, another moment, it was all sunshine.


First up, we played blow wind blow. haha,kinda of childish but it was hilarious when we teased people who semangat lari to get a place. this game made me remembered about the good times i had with guides.( we always played this game) I miss guides!!!!

puteri pening..hah.

after that,we played uno but in a tent. 7 people in one tent baby.

early bbq.

finally,it rained cats and dogs but it was for short while,thank goodness.

cousins camwhored!

shidah muke stoink,hah.

i love this shot! we tried countless times to get this perfect shot.when the aeroplanes was in a distance,we got ready with our camera and pose.haha,hardwork pays.

that's my hand on the cat.okay,this is the only cat that i braved enough to touch just because it was leashed and did not move around. i am terrify especially when cats run across me! momok is so damn cute actually, and ironically i never find cats cute,even kittens.but still,i am scared of cats.insyaallah,will overcome one day. go mas!

hamzah's.

picture perfect.i called this picture, album-cover-lookalike.

alright!we'll meet soon darling cousins!

1. My ex is... is sucha bastard.pardon me mas,but are you sure you have an ex before?
2. Maybe I should... accept this new feelings and don't hold it back.
3. I love...my family,cousins and friends,they are my life.
4. I don't understand... why we should do a medical checkup before we get enrol to poly.damn! what a waste of money!
5. I lose... patience easily.especially to my two brothers.actually,to anyone that irritate me. trust me,i'm the least-patience person but i'm trying very hard.
6. People say I'm... over-enthusiastic? i don't know. that's what i think people would say about me if they know me really well.i never ask.who cares about what people think about you?
7. Love is... what i yet to understand but i know,it's the most wonderful feeling the world got to offer.
8. Somewhere, someone is... definitely missing me cause it's has been days since we talk.haha!
9. I will always... remember Allah for everything that He has given me and i'm always grateful,InsyaAllah.
10. Forever is... what people should not promise.
11. I never want to... be in interoir design but i guess you'll never get what you always want.
12. I think the current US president... is getting jitters.hail for barrack obama!
13. When I wake up in the morning... i looked at the time so i won't be too late or early for my subuh prayers.
14. My past... is a piece of regretness and an experience of a lifetime and because of all of that, i learnt to avoid mistakes and makes better decisions.
15. I get annoyed... when the house phone rings while i'm using the comp and there's nobody else to pick it up.
16. Parties are for... people who love to have some fun!
17. My dog is... a female. i called her bitch.
18. My cats are... did you know i'm terrify of cats!
19. Kisses are best when... they are sincere.i loved friday kisses from the sisters!
20. Tomorrow... is Sunday! might going to the beach with my paternal family!
21. I really want... my brothers to grow up,my course to be something that i would fall in love with,money and a listening ear.
22. I have low tolerance for people who... looked down on minah tudung,especially if they are a muslim themselves.they should understand us.

i'm feeling utterly bored and lonely.there's no way i'm gonna spend my saturday like this.

i need to be sure of this.
i need to think.
i need to analyse.
i need to be practical.
i need to decide.
i need to be fast.

tomorrow's saturday.not looking forward at all!!!!!!because,my parents and masyi went to kl and be back by late saturday night and sarah will be out,enjoying while i,masturah have to take care of my two little f***king irritating brothers.my day tomorrow,will be officially hell.maybe i should ask my friends to come over to watch movies or something.after this,i will demand some money from my parents because while they are away,i played mom(okay not mom but more of a devil stepmom).it is not an easy job.eh mas,buat kerja biar ikhlas,satu pahala pun tak dpt nanti.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

ps/: sorry leha,i couldn't go out tomorrow but you can come to my house!i wish lala is free too!

pss/: once again nyna my darling cousin, happy 17th birthday!

it rained when i walked back home from lotty 1 and this is how i felt.
TRANQUILITY.CALM.HAPINESS.GRATEFUL.LOVED.

i've been listening to eisley for the past few days. last time was amy drughouse now, is eisley. i've been meaning to write this.

Answers.life is about questions.i've always asked myself a lot of questions.why do i feel this way? why do i fated to meet him? why does this challenge seemed never ending? why do i feel happy? why they behave like this? and to all these questions,i had no answer.i want an answer. and i asked myself again, do people ever at a point of their life get desparate for an answer too? i've always been searching, scourging like a rat for an answer. i demanded it. i wanted it now.this instant. i think people do feel this way too where they just want an answer to everything. being technologically dependant, we searched our answers in the internet.type it," is he the one?" under the search engine,hoping that whatever clarification we found on the net will helped us answer the question. for some, they buy books,to help them find the answer.is really amazing with what the world has to offer now. we could now find an answer in books,internet and television. answer that we should know, that in our hearts nobody could understand.but somehow,is the answer that we find in internet,in books right all along? it is true? true to our hearts? the answer is no. never. the only person that know the right answer is us.the answer is within us,no books no website can answer our questions. i think because we people are sometimes too tech savvy and being tech savvy means, being instantaneous. this makes us think that we can find an answer in the internet,instantly. there is no way we can find an answer that instant. we have to go through several phases,several obstacles to finally reach the answer to everything. but sometimes, we looked for it too hard that we are blinded from the answer,which is there,infront of our eyes.well, what can we say. life is about questions,but never about the answers.

Thursday Night 28/02 5/2 Class Chalet-

Alright, i've been looking forward for a 5/2 class chalet and so, leha and me organised one for our class.most of the malay people came and i'm so disappointed that my chinese classmates didn't have the time. Nevermind, the next time i organise one,i'll be racist. Haha. the chalet was taken place at aloha loyang.oh boy, what a fun night i had with the rest and we didn't sleep for the whole day!

First up. BBQ from 8pm till 11pm. and boys being boys, they played soccer at the time when we want to bbq.

so,nadiah,the tembok(haha,she's very brave)went to ask a stranger for help cause we're so extremely famished and needed the fire to start going.

so, in the meantime we celebrated zul and dan's belated and advanced b'day.fatin baked a cake for them.how sweet!

zul made a speech and it was so f. hilarious!

hizam and rahman obviously kepo.

one two three, GIGOLO! haha,the girls camwhored.

11pm till 12am. the girls had their own girly time. apa lagi, we danced! but of course not in the presence of boys.

12am till 1am+. we played captain ball and soccer and girls got thrashed by guys but oh well, i scored 2 goals didn't i? okay,action ah.

2am-4am. the girls wanted to swim after sweating like a pig,playing captain's ball and soccer. i know. what were we thinking! swimming at 2am in the morning.it was freezing cold. the guys joined us later cause they were too tempted! it was so fun cause we're like shushing each other so that we won't get caught.after that me leha and lala got punk'd by the guys!!!they lied to us that our stuff and hps got stolen and we totally believed them.so we ran all the way back to the chalet and found them sitting there watching tv. bunch of bastards!

5am to 630am. we have ghost story-telling session. by the time everyone was so sleepy.

yus looked obviously sleepy here.

630am till 7am. we thought of catching the sunrise and it was a beautiful morning but no sun and no rise! what a pity.

7am. while waiting for the gate to open, the three musketeers joined an apek who was exercising. this was the most hilarious thing that happened and seriously, what they hell were they thinking! poor apek.

so,the rest started to join and gosh.

after that, everyone got back and we slept for a while before checking out at 9am. we had breakfast after that and went home.

i had lots and lots of fun that night and i am so glad that everyone came and enjoyed themselves. maybe, there will be the next time but i don't want to organise it.hah!i'm definitely gonna miss them so much!

alrightey.