since i am free,i shall blog.

hmm,what shall be my topic?

the infamous assasination of benazir bhutto?
the movie that i watched yesterday?-i am legend(awfully good)
the latest dilemma?
or just random?

random would do.anyway,jon just told me that he missed me!that is sweet.i miss him too.in fact,i miss my classmastes so much and i miss school and i miss my teachers too,which i didn't expect to miss them but what the hell.and i could make a long list of what i miss about school but it would be dready.

tomorrow's saturday and i got no plans.i think i head down to the library and indulge myself in books.

24 December- Shopping & Desa Kartika

On the eve of public holiday, my family and i went to Orchard Road,which was very very pack with people.don't they have like christmas dinner/party or something?

so first up,we went shopping around orchard centerpoint.sales are so damn freaking good,don't you think?i am sad that i finally finished with my money.i am left with 4 bucks that means i can't go out anymore(since i hate asking money from my parents).this sucks.

anyways,at 6pm we headed off to ngee ann city to have our dinner at desa kartika.my sister is on the house!the food was scrumptious and really by the time i was done, my stomach bloated.very fullfilling!after the dinner,we went to ps and shopped a bit more and called it a day.

yesterday my father told us that we are done with dining outside and shopping.after having dinner at banquet,causeway point yesterday he said that was the last one.haha,poor dad.i think that i went out more with my family than with my friends.it is ironic but well,my friends are busy unlike me,free and easy!

my brother is so kental.


we got free kerepoks and the sambal belacan is power giler but makes your tongue burn!

my mam,she is just showing off her new gold.

hoho,the udang tepong sedap!

tahu telur goreng.i didn't eat it cause i dislike tahu.blurgh!

happy and fed!

alrightey people,i need a job.(dah hundred times i said this but well,look at where i am now!)

alas,for after about a month,i get to meet my galfriends.oh my god,you girls have no idea how much i've been wanting to go out with you.i am so glad lala came despite she was tired and was from work.rahman was there too.haha,boys can be so fussy when shopping.

so,i shopped from 4 till 10 yesterday.it was exhausting!my feet hurts so bad.the crowd in orchard was overwhelming but leha and me managed to buy whatever we want.i am so satisfied.i almost done with my 100 bucks.if i work,i definitely be able to spend more.damn!maybe i start working next month.maybe baby.

and i love these two girls.we shall meet again next sunday,insyaallah.

mas was shocking pink yesterday.

alright,next week is the last week of 2007 and i am going to feel sappy because i have to leave so good memories behind.don't get me started.

yesterday was hari raya haji but it felt like a family gathering cause my paternal family were having bbq at kak sayang's condo and we're so casually dressed.the night was really cold and it felt good to see some of the cousins.i want a chalet next year!

anyways,congratulations to kak thuraiya!it is a baby boy!i want to see the baby and hopefully,the baby will have kak thuraiya's hidung yang mancung.speaking of which,i miss the sisters in halaqah too.too bad,we'll be seeing each other next year.

so for today,i went out with my family.one thing for sure,i can't stand the crowd!oh my gosh,how am i suppose to shop with all these crowd tomorrow.especially the crowd in orchard.oh god.tomorrow's shopping will not be sort of a therapy for me.

yes,everybody is talking.HADY WON THE ASIAN IDOL.unbelievable.woah,i am one proud singaporean.compared to the rest,i don't think he stood a chance but well,good looks does get its way.

saturday-

finally,the fairies meet up.
i think it was about time for us to see each other. i had so much fun with the girls and everything seems right.sitting on a couch in coffee bean,sipping to belgium chocolate(nyna's reccomendation),talking,sharing and the weather was beautiful.it is right.

and and,i will never get bored with arab street.that night,we walk along haji lane and omg,they had some kind of party,with loud music.haha,and the gals and i went to some really cool shops.


fizza,whom i rarely get to see.insyaallah,another outing.



haha,feeble attempt on being seductive.


i came across this from kak muna's blog.this is really what i need to read cause at that moment,i am such an angry,exhuasted person.

sometimes Allah does not only test us by taking away the life of the one person we wish is immortal. sometimes Allah tests us by making the one person we cannot stand, live longer. sometimes we are the test for another human. sometimes the other human is a test for us. forgive me, o Allah, for i am a weak servant of yours. grant me the strength i need, o Allah, for the battle is getting fierce. . .

blog,i shall.

despite how free i am,i am always reluctant to blog.okay,i admit,i am leading a monotonous life.(see how i try to avoid the word 'boring') but somehow,i can mock at other people who are working that they can't wake up late like i do,watch tv like i do,go out anytime like i do.no offence people but i have to make myself feel good cause everyone is so busy and i feel forgotten.friends,where have you been?maybe i start looking for something to do next year cause i can't make it for another two months.i think i had a deserving rest.

anyway,that's not the point i want to make.i want to make a point that my mother had been asking about my prelims result.gosh,dah lama berlalu but i didn't show it to her cause i don't think it is necessary to look at my prelims result and have some sort of a prediction whether i am able to get to poly.sometimes,i do think that my o level results will be the same as my prelims but i am assuring myself that i will get better grades.somehow,there is a voice telling me not to be so sure of yourself.i have been thinking about my results lately.i am sure,very that i will not get to jc cause the day my i sat for my bio papers,i have decided.my mam should not have mentioned this.

my family and i went to johor today.not to enjoy2 lah.just an outing together.shit,now at the checkpoint,you have to use your thumbprint which i find it a bit troublesome if the computer can't read your thumbprint.it happened to me just now.

so my family headed to city square.see,we had our lunch,then proceed to our desert at secret recipe and bought auntie anne's choc eclair pretzel(awefully nice!).shop around but found nothing decent there.now,i am going to fill my days,watching golden compass,enchanted,bee movie and stardust and then be a couch grouch.

my grandmother passed away on friday night.after 2 weeks in stroke/coma,she moved on.it is sad but to think of it,she will be safe with Allah.al-fateha buat nenekku.

anyway,on friday and saturday,the days were spent mostly sleeping(catching up) and searching for food cause everyone was tired and hungry.i love you all my cousins and i hope iqah will stop teasing me with the mr.M guy everytime he is there though i secretly enjoyed it but nothing will happened.i'll see you all on hari raya haji then!

and my new number is 963.......

want it,email me alright friends.

fizza!jana!are you free this saturday?
let's have the 'fairies outing'!


i think that was our last outing.you guys are one of the best thing that happened in my life so i would say that,i would never forget you guys,i mean girls.


and and,i feel kan my life right now mcm tak ada wawasan.
-wake up around 10am(after subuh prayers,definitely)
-watch tons of tv
-sulk in my bed more than i should cause the weather made it so good to snuggle in
-surfing the internet(which is becoming more boring so i resort to watching movies)
-do household chores and i felt like a maid unpaid.
-reading but the books is not intriguing enough(gosh,back to HP books)

but somehow,someway,i am enjoying this holiday.you deserve to have a two months break mas after all the hell you have gone through.

i have been watching this series of brothers and sisters for quite a while and i really like it because it captures the essence of having a large family.for me,being in a family that consists of 7(includes me)is somewhat privileged and the fact that you will never get bored.sometimes i think my family can catch me off guard with their antics,be it they are complaining,fighting or teasing.i will never get bored but i get annoyed more often.when 7 people,with different personality are to stay together,nothing can be right.there is bound to be fightings,bickerings and wrestling(yes,i wrestle too) going on.

no matter how flawed my family is,like how i hate when sis masy thinks she is the most helpful(padahal.padahal)and how sarah always complain everything to mam,how fed up i am with saufie for being immature when he is getting to 12 and how yasin can never be teased cause he will get really angry,unbelievably,i can still accept their flaws,knowing that i will deal with it for the rest of my life.if it is you friend's flaw,you sometimes cannot accept it and will never want to hang out with her/him again but with family,it is a different whole thing.that is why i am amaze by that.my friends can never hurt my feeling like how my family hurts my feeling.there is a huge contrast.

if my family is caught on film,i think mostly,the audience will see 1) masturah bossing around her brothers and acting like she is the mother here. 2)saufie and yasin will hang out together for awhile but they will end it with a fight. 3) sis masy and sarah will start their bickerings and masturah will watch and nods her head. 4) dad and mam with their bickerings too 5) the family occasional dinners 6) the family starts to tease one another and laughs together.

i bet people would want to watch it.every family is unique and different but most importantly,no matter how flawed your family is,they will stick to you till the end and they will be the one you will be asking for help.you hate your family?you should see mine.

HELLO DECEMBER

what?is december already?one more month to go and that's the end of 2007.now,i am reminiscing.time flies so fast and sometimes you are caught off guard.there is good and bad thing.good thing like if you're taking the O and time flew so fast and now is over and done.bad thing is good moments always pass by,too fast.

yesterday,halaqah(girls get together and shares about Islamic knowledge) session was good.it is getting more fulfilling and more clearer.it felt real good to get together with bunch of woman that is much much older than me.i kinda like to mix with people older than me because of the experiences that they have.i am also in a position where i don't do much talking but more of listening cause these women know better.

enough said.december is here and it means sales are on but money's a shit for me.(if you work,you get don't have to worry mas!)however,i will definitely ask for some money from dad since he will get his bonus.truthfully,i hate to ask money from my parents cause sometimes i think i don't deserve their money.haha,i know i'm not the perfect daughter they have pictured to be but in situation like this(where my clothes are out of stock and i am wearing the same thing all over again)i need to be thick skin.real thick.