since i am free,i shall blog.

hmm,what shall be my topic?

the infamous assasination of benazir bhutto?
the movie that i watched yesterday?-i am legend(awfully good)
the latest dilemma?
or just random?

random would do.anyway,jon just told me that he missed me!that is sweet.i miss him too.in fact,i miss my classmastes so much and i miss school and i miss my teachers too,which i didn't expect to miss them but what the hell.and i could make a long list of what i miss about school but it would be dready.

tomorrow's saturday and i got no plans.i think i head down to the library and indulge myself in books.

24 December- Shopping & Desa Kartika

On the eve of public holiday, my family and i went to Orchard Road,which was very very pack with people.don't they have like christmas dinner/party or something?

so first up,we went shopping around orchard centerpoint.sales are so damn freaking good,don't you think?i am sad that i finally finished with my money.i am left with 4 bucks that means i can't go out anymore(since i hate asking money from my parents).this sucks.

anyways,at 6pm we headed off to ngee ann city to have our dinner at desa kartika.my sister is on the house!the food was scrumptious and really by the time i was done, my stomach bloated.very fullfilling!after the dinner,we went to ps and shopped a bit more and called it a day.

yesterday my father told us that we are done with dining outside and shopping.after having dinner at banquet,causeway point yesterday he said that was the last one.haha,poor dad.i think that i went out more with my family than with my friends.it is ironic but well,my friends are busy unlike me,free and easy!

my brother is so kental.


we got free kerepoks and the sambal belacan is power giler but makes your tongue burn!

my mam,she is just showing off her new gold.

hoho,the udang tepong sedap!

tahu telur goreng.i didn't eat it cause i dislike tahu.blurgh!

happy and fed!

alrightey people,i need a job.(dah hundred times i said this but well,look at where i am now!)

alas,for after about a month,i get to meet my galfriends.oh my god,you girls have no idea how much i've been wanting to go out with you.i am so glad lala came despite she was tired and was from work.rahman was there too.haha,boys can be so fussy when shopping.

so,i shopped from 4 till 10 yesterday.it was exhausting!my feet hurts so bad.the crowd in orchard was overwhelming but leha and me managed to buy whatever we want.i am so satisfied.i almost done with my 100 bucks.if i work,i definitely be able to spend more.damn!maybe i start working next month.maybe baby.

and i love these two girls.we shall meet again next sunday,insyaallah.

mas was shocking pink yesterday.

alright,next week is the last week of 2007 and i am going to feel sappy because i have to leave so good memories behind.don't get me started.

yesterday was hari raya haji but it felt like a family gathering cause my paternal family were having bbq at kak sayang's condo and we're so casually dressed.the night was really cold and it felt good to see some of the cousins.i want a chalet next year!

anyways,congratulations to kak thuraiya!it is a baby boy!i want to see the baby and hopefully,the baby will have kak thuraiya's hidung yang mancung.speaking of which,i miss the sisters in halaqah too.too bad,we'll be seeing each other next year.

so for today,i went out with my family.one thing for sure,i can't stand the crowd!oh my gosh,how am i suppose to shop with all these crowd tomorrow.especially the crowd in orchard.oh god.tomorrow's shopping will not be sort of a therapy for me.

yes,everybody is talking.HADY WON THE ASIAN IDOL.unbelievable.woah,i am one proud singaporean.compared to the rest,i don't think he stood a chance but well,good looks does get its way.

saturday-

finally,the fairies meet up.
i think it was about time for us to see each other. i had so much fun with the girls and everything seems right.sitting on a couch in coffee bean,sipping to belgium chocolate(nyna's reccomendation),talking,sharing and the weather was beautiful.it is right.

and and,i will never get bored with arab street.that night,we walk along haji lane and omg,they had some kind of party,with loud music.haha,and the gals and i went to some really cool shops.


fizza,whom i rarely get to see.insyaallah,another outing.



haha,feeble attempt on being seductive.


i came across this from kak muna's blog.this is really what i need to read cause at that moment,i am such an angry,exhuasted person.

sometimes Allah does not only test us by taking away the life of the one person we wish is immortal. sometimes Allah tests us by making the one person we cannot stand, live longer. sometimes we are the test for another human. sometimes the other human is a test for us. forgive me, o Allah, for i am a weak servant of yours. grant me the strength i need, o Allah, for the battle is getting fierce. . .

blog,i shall.

despite how free i am,i am always reluctant to blog.okay,i admit,i am leading a monotonous life.(see how i try to avoid the word 'boring') but somehow,i can mock at other people who are working that they can't wake up late like i do,watch tv like i do,go out anytime like i do.no offence people but i have to make myself feel good cause everyone is so busy and i feel forgotten.friends,where have you been?maybe i start looking for something to do next year cause i can't make it for another two months.i think i had a deserving rest.

anyway,that's not the point i want to make.i want to make a point that my mother had been asking about my prelims result.gosh,dah lama berlalu but i didn't show it to her cause i don't think it is necessary to look at my prelims result and have some sort of a prediction whether i am able to get to poly.sometimes,i do think that my o level results will be the same as my prelims but i am assuring myself that i will get better grades.somehow,there is a voice telling me not to be so sure of yourself.i have been thinking about my results lately.i am sure,very that i will not get to jc cause the day my i sat for my bio papers,i have decided.my mam should not have mentioned this.

my family and i went to johor today.not to enjoy2 lah.just an outing together.shit,now at the checkpoint,you have to use your thumbprint which i find it a bit troublesome if the computer can't read your thumbprint.it happened to me just now.

so my family headed to city square.see,we had our lunch,then proceed to our desert at secret recipe and bought auntie anne's choc eclair pretzel(awefully nice!).shop around but found nothing decent there.now,i am going to fill my days,watching golden compass,enchanted,bee movie and stardust and then be a couch grouch.

my grandmother passed away on friday night.after 2 weeks in stroke/coma,she moved on.it is sad but to think of it,she will be safe with Allah.al-fateha buat nenekku.

anyway,on friday and saturday,the days were spent mostly sleeping(catching up) and searching for food cause everyone was tired and hungry.i love you all my cousins and i hope iqah will stop teasing me with the mr.M guy everytime he is there though i secretly enjoyed it but nothing will happened.i'll see you all on hari raya haji then!

and my new number is 963.......

want it,email me alright friends.

fizza!jana!are you free this saturday?
let's have the 'fairies outing'!


i think that was our last outing.you guys are one of the best thing that happened in my life so i would say that,i would never forget you guys,i mean girls.


and and,i feel kan my life right now mcm tak ada wawasan.
-wake up around 10am(after subuh prayers,definitely)
-watch tons of tv
-sulk in my bed more than i should cause the weather made it so good to snuggle in
-surfing the internet(which is becoming more boring so i resort to watching movies)
-do household chores and i felt like a maid unpaid.
-reading but the books is not intriguing enough(gosh,back to HP books)

but somehow,someway,i am enjoying this holiday.you deserve to have a two months break mas after all the hell you have gone through.

i have been watching this series of brothers and sisters for quite a while and i really like it because it captures the essence of having a large family.for me,being in a family that consists of 7(includes me)is somewhat privileged and the fact that you will never get bored.sometimes i think my family can catch me off guard with their antics,be it they are complaining,fighting or teasing.i will never get bored but i get annoyed more often.when 7 people,with different personality are to stay together,nothing can be right.there is bound to be fightings,bickerings and wrestling(yes,i wrestle too) going on.

no matter how flawed my family is,like how i hate when sis masy thinks she is the most helpful(padahal.padahal)and how sarah always complain everything to mam,how fed up i am with saufie for being immature when he is getting to 12 and how yasin can never be teased cause he will get really angry,unbelievably,i can still accept their flaws,knowing that i will deal with it for the rest of my life.if it is you friend's flaw,you sometimes cannot accept it and will never want to hang out with her/him again but with family,it is a different whole thing.that is why i am amaze by that.my friends can never hurt my feeling like how my family hurts my feeling.there is a huge contrast.

if my family is caught on film,i think mostly,the audience will see 1) masturah bossing around her brothers and acting like she is the mother here. 2)saufie and yasin will hang out together for awhile but they will end it with a fight. 3) sis masy and sarah will start their bickerings and masturah will watch and nods her head. 4) dad and mam with their bickerings too 5) the family occasional dinners 6) the family starts to tease one another and laughs together.

i bet people would want to watch it.every family is unique and different but most importantly,no matter how flawed your family is,they will stick to you till the end and they will be the one you will be asking for help.you hate your family?you should see mine.

HELLO DECEMBER

what?is december already?one more month to go and that's the end of 2007.now,i am reminiscing.time flies so fast and sometimes you are caught off guard.there is good and bad thing.good thing like if you're taking the O and time flew so fast and now is over and done.bad thing is good moments always pass by,too fast.

yesterday,halaqah(girls get together and shares about Islamic knowledge) session was good.it is getting more fulfilling and more clearer.it felt real good to get together with bunch of woman that is much much older than me.i kinda like to mix with people older than me because of the experiences that they have.i am also in a position where i don't do much talking but more of listening cause these women know better.

enough said.december is here and it means sales are on but money's a shit for me.(if you work,you get don't have to worry mas!)however,i will definitely ask for some money from dad since he will get his bonus.truthfully,i hate to ask money from my parents cause sometimes i think i don't deserve their money.haha,i know i'm not the perfect daughter they have pictured to be but in situation like this(where my clothes are out of stock and i am wearing the same thing all over again)i need to be thick skin.real thick.

the fact that i am spending most of the time at home and not working(like how the rest are doing),i feel that i can get use to this.staying home and doing whatever that i like.i just realised that finding a job is not my priority right now but if i am given an oppurtunity,i would not miss it.

yesterday,alas,i made a trip to the library.spent the time choosing the right books.however,all the books that i want(james patterson,mitch albom etc)is on loan.wth.gosh,don't tell me i need to reserve the books.anyway,after that i made another short visit to the hospital.it has been a week and my nenek is not waking up.the thought of not knowing when she will wake up is pretty concerning.after that,my family and i had dinner at arab street(where else!)and shop a little.

anyway,while the whole day that i have been out,i made some scrutinisation.haha,i observed a lot of people.don't underestimate my power of observation.i can even notice the minute flaws just by observing.

observation #1
i saw this guy who wore really very very tight skinny jeans.if his legs could speak,the legs would say that he is suffocating.

observation #2
i saw this guy in the train and his fashion sense was an alien to me.he was wearing a huge diamond(fake of course)cross necklace and the same one on his ear.omg.is wearing a cross is some kind of fashion must wear accessory?

observation #3
this guy,suddenly made a new friend in the train just because he wanted that new friend of his to send him the game that he was playing in his hp.haha,it was amusing cause he has a lot of guts to ask a stranger to bluetooth you that game.

observation #4
i actually,saw an indian guy trying to hook up an angmoh.this happened at along arab street and he asking a lot of questions.one of the qns he asked was,"so what are your plans tonight?".omg,he was definitely asking for sex.are we women what cheap?or because some of the women now make themselves look cheap?

i told i am skillful in this.

PROM 07- SINFUL NITE

FRIDAY was my prom nite,the night that i had been waiting for since i step into secondary school.so,imagine how excited i was because i can dress up and just let my hair down.so,the prom nite was held at le meridien hotel which was not as class as i was expecting but nevermind.the event was pretty fun,the food was great(i ate more than 55 buckeroos),endless photo-taking and the songs played was making me feel hype!good thing that they hired a DJ.

the only thing that was waiting for was to dance.hah.so the moment the MC said we can start to dance,i was the first person to go up front.the good thing also,the lights were off so nobody could actually see me dancing!i think i was a bit crazy to actually be jumping up and down with my heels cause after that,my feet hurts!

i had so much fun,i wish i could replay back.but all good things come to an end(and i bloody hate that phrase!)



ah loy and his never-apart toy.

geography lessons was always good.


the only cheena girl that i can rock with!

the girls that were by my side throughout the year 2007


okay,i was inspired to pose after watching so many cycles of America's Next Top Model.

i think this is the best thing happened in november and now back to my boring life with nothing to look forward to.

i know i have been away for quite a few days.lots of things that had happened,good and bad during this short period of time.i have been busy with prom shopping(which is utterly frustrating for me)and more importantly,my granny is seriously ill.

monday- shopping with stel at town but i found all the dress that tried on looks horrible on me.i don't know why.
tuesday- received bad news.all the relatives thought our granny was in nazak cause she was unconscious and we all thought she was moving on.but after about 6 hours of waiting,we called an ambulance and she was sent off to changi hospital.it was so tiring and i was at pasir ris for almost the whole day.
wednesday- i was at changi hospital from morning till night.there is like blood clot in my granny's brain so she is like in coma(but i'm not sure),unconscious all the way.
thursday-since prom is on friday,i do not have something to wear so i went shopping with leha and fatin.thank you guys!alas,i found something really simple and do not show the fatness in me.haha,seriously.
friday-PROM!

so,here i am,feeling a tad exhausted.i don't know when my granny will wake up,she might not wake up for a long time but everything is in God's hands.it is scary and i pity my mam cause she must be feeling real scared and worn out.this really came as a shock cause she was absolutely fine.so i hope nothing happens during the prom night.

ps:the next person who is going to ask me whether i am working or not,you will be verbally abused by me.(i will find something later!any recommendations?)

BITCH TIME

first of all,MY FREAKING O LEVELS IS OVER OVER OVER!
AND IT IS TIME TO PARTEY PARTEY!
when the clock strikes 1030am i was grinning all the way.i shouted yeay!
and guess where i celebrate after the o is over?!!yes,i heard you right!sentosa!
(mind me)

initially,i made the plans for an outing with malay peeps but you know,some are eager to find jobs and only 5 people turned up.hizam was the only guy so i think it was a privilege for him cause he knows our true secrets.hah!

anyway,we reached pretty late and only when din and lala came,the fun started.you never guess what we did.so,pictures are limited cause the rest,it is obscene!

and and i love to bath with the girls.i'm not a lesbian.i prefer if they were guys.opps.(that was a joke,a dirty one)






aah,sunset.

oh my!prom next week and i yet to find the the perfect dress.
i hope stel is free this week?

HARI RAYA-6 NOV

hari raya with friends was great.knowing that next year hari raya with them may be different,i enjoyed each moment with them despite the fact that we were all tired and sleep deprived.





mas,she just want to act kerek.

yusri's house is purple and i like it.

hari raya or karaoke session?this was at cikgu's house.and i get to karaoke too!gerek but orang yg terpaksa bertahan sudah tentu rasa tidak gerek.hah.

there are some things that i need(not want) to do.

1)borrow loads of library books.
2)deposit my hari raya money into my bank account.
3)go exercising.(it has been months already!)
4)find a job(but i predict i would not find anything and going to rot at home.argh!)
5)lastly,study for biology MCQ paper.(study real hard cause i screwed the theory.)

but here i am feeling utterly bored and knowing that i can do all of that,but i refused because i am procastinating.i am getting bored,really bored already at home.masyaallah!

here's what i want to do

1)go sentosa!
2)hunt for prom dress
3)plan for some more friends outing.

and the want always seem more attractive.wth.

i heard halaqah class is back today?yahoo!

since amalina haven't send me the raya pics,i would postpone the update tomorrow or someday.

you know,the days that i had been absence from blogsphere world,so much had happened and with each day passed,i am so reluctant to leave my friends.because we all know that by next year,everyone is going separate ways.it hurts to leave the good memories behind but life do go on.i am so jubilant at the fact that my life is going to be different next year and i am going to meet new friends and adjust myself again to change.change is good.

okay,i have some pictures to show.two days before the BIG O and two days after my b'day,the gals decided to give me a suprise treat at pizza hut.how sweet of them.we are all crazy,going out two days before the Os.however,it felt good to go out and enjoy the breeze at the esplanade especially when it is weekdays.now,i can even do it everyday!






lala.

dinah.

IT'S ALMOST OVER.

i am back people!
one more paper(bio MCQ)to go!which is next tuesday.
it feels like the Os are over.after the paper on tuesday,i was already shouting for joy.gosh,it felt really good.the burden is off my shoulders.the stress is overwhelming.however,the results awaits me and i am totally terrified.i joked with my friends that if we all can't make it,we go to ITE simei together.haha,bull.by far,maths is the toughest.p.biology and yesterday paper was pretty tough too but just because i didn't really study for it so serve me right.

so i'll be back with hari raya updates!

officially going on hiatus.

so to all people like me,

SELAMAT BERJUANG!

i really need to do this and i do not want to give it away just lke that.
i am woman with dreams,with aspirations and a woman who want to live in a quality life.

but i am not getting all that if i fail this.(unless i can get to marry a rich guy which is seemingly impossible)

alright.be back by 6 ot 13 november.

to remember someone's birthday is like giving someone's the greatest gift.

here i am,all alone in the house feeling like a crap.what,alone on your special day?
(maybe i am exaggerating cause later in the evening i am going to meet my family to go to teban)but still,i am happy yet the feeling of isolation(for few hours) is greatly felt.i woke to a morning feeling like i have an inadequate time to study chemistry and i was already freaking out.later,after my subuh prayers then i remembered,oh ya today is my birthday.you see how o level can make you forget the most important things.i even had nightmares(two,okay)about the Os.

enough about that.

i miss blogging but i gotta go.

thanks to everybody for your wishes.

lastly,happy birthday masturah.

before i go on hiatus,

i would like to wish all muslims,especially my cousins and friends SELAMAT HARI RAYA EIDULFITRI!with the message,maaf zahir dan batin.i seek forgiveness from everyone if i had done wrong to anyone of you and halakan makan and minum,jika ada.

sorry.i am kinda not in the mood to update pictures.

well,hari raya had been a blast and i really really love to see all my cousins,maternal or paternal side.i am thankful to have such a great family and relatives!

to all people taking o levels,all the best and it's time for the battle.

i'll see you people soon probably on 6 OR 13 November,alright.

i am down with flu!
aaahh,sucks.

this pictures are rather basi but still,it would not be a problem looking at my beautiful...pimples.haha.okay,enough about the pimps.i swear,it will get away before i even go to my next education life.

last friday,went to eat RAMEN TAN.met a charming waiter there.lala had already saw him so she was kicking me under the table and i was trying hard not to laugh when that guy came over to our table.so guys,if you see girls doing such immoral behaviour,you know they are interested in you.

before that,we went around shoe shopping.but dang,i found nothing.i did saw a heels but my feet is too wide to even wear that peeptoes heels.and now,i still have not found any heels!i am totally not ready for hari raya.

two more days to raya.13 more days to Os and 9 more days to rejoice my youth.(if you know what i am talking about)




tin.

sushi was yummmy!

leha.

lala.

this is embarassing.you know what.fatin is so tak tahu malu she went to ask a stranger,a malay guy to take picture for us.seriously,i was piasey.haha.

i love going out on friday night.just wait.