i had the best day at work.
it all started per normal but towards the end, the company was having an occasion, there was buffet and i get to look around and see people. i get to talk to the engineer guys and i was just simply happy.it took almost a month to at least have people recognise me. i didn't know that will ended just like that.i got to know that friday was my last day.it breaks my heart.i don't know why it bothers me but i gonna miss that place.i gonna miss the engineer guys cause they sometimes made my day.i'll miss kong's genuine smile and the way he talks with conviction.i'll miss my new temp friend and the auntie cleaner.
mas,you attach to things so easily.
i really hope i can get a job at another department so at least,i can get to see them and do something!while waiting for school which will be in april!
well,till then.
ps/: tomorrow's FEBRUARY!. can't you imagine it!
Thursday, January 31, 2008
Sunday, January 27, 2008
i submitted my jae this morning.
* huge bloody sigh of relief
and even though,the courses that i chose was not my best interest in heart,i pray that whatever course that i am in,i will insyaallah,like the course.okay,enough about all of this.i won't talk about this anymore.uh,huh.
good news today people.
i went shoppppping! hah! there was this john little sale at expo and i bought some stuff and it felt good.take your mind off things.guys,you should try.but,but i haven't shop for clothes.i might,do it tmr alone if these female hormones go on a rage! i went to raffles too, for awhile.it has been too long since i step there.so my girlfriends,can you make your time for me?pretty pleaaseee?
till then.
ps/: i had such a good conversation with Mr. today. haha.just felt like telling the whole world.
* huge bloody sigh of relief
and even though,the courses that i chose was not my best interest in heart,i pray that whatever course that i am in,i will insyaallah,like the course.okay,enough about all of this.i won't talk about this anymore.uh,huh.
good news today people.
i went shoppppping! hah! there was this john little sale at expo and i bought some stuff and it felt good.take your mind off things.guys,you should try.but,but i haven't shop for clothes.i might,do it tmr alone if these female hormones go on a rage! i went to raffles too, for awhile.it has been too long since i step there.so my girlfriends,can you make your time for me?pretty pleaaseee?
till then.
ps/: i had such a good conversation with Mr. today. haha.just felt like telling the whole world.
alright.i shall keep you update.i know people want to know me results.you,busybody,typicals. haha,i am kidding you not.
okay here it goes.
my o level result is good.it could have been really really good if i hadn't screwed maths.insyaallah,i could get to poly.pray for me people.i need that much.i can't get to my dream mass comm course.i can't be what i need to be.i can't do what i love to do.i can't be a journalist.there,i told the whole world what i aspire to be and i never really told anyone.maybe a few knows but i know,i believe deeply,profoundly that everything happens for a reason.God's reasons and i will try to do what i have passionately want to do when i grow up,when i have money to study again,insyaallah.my hopes aren't shattered.it shatters the minute i give up. but i don't know,interest changes but i hope this won't. for my results,i am happy with it and i am glad to say that i have no regrets,at all!syukur,ya Allah.
now,i need the support that i need from my loved ones.i never been this serious in my whole life.choosing the courses was the toughest and most scariest.i am more scared than i was when i waited for my results.really.i have not submit my jae thingy.i need to be thorough.pray for me people,that i will get the most apt course.
till then.
after the results baby! congrats to my fav juniors in the whole world.
i need my retail therepy!now,now!
ps/: i can finally throw all my books and worksheets and files which i have kept for so long! feels so good!
okay here it goes.
my o level result is good.it could have been really really good if i hadn't screwed maths.insyaallah,i could get to poly.pray for me people.i need that much.i can't get to my dream mass comm course.i can't be what i need to be.i can't do what i love to do.i can't be a journalist.there,i told the whole world what i aspire to be and i never really told anyone.maybe a few knows but i know,i believe deeply,profoundly that everything happens for a reason.God's reasons and i will try to do what i have passionately want to do when i grow up,when i have money to study again,insyaallah.my hopes aren't shattered.it shatters the minute i give up. but i don't know,interest changes but i hope this won't. for my results,i am happy with it and i am glad to say that i have no regrets,at all!syukur,ya Allah.
now,i need the support that i need from my loved ones.i never been this serious in my whole life.choosing the courses was the toughest and most scariest.i am more scared than i was when i waited for my results.really.i have not submit my jae thingy.i need to be thorough.pray for me people,that i will get the most apt course.
till then.
after the results baby! congrats to my fav juniors in the whole world.
i need my retail therepy!now,now!
ps/: i can finally throw all my books and worksheets and files which i have kept for so long! feels so good!
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
i never wanted anything else than this.now,my focal concern is this.i need this more than i need my branded clothes,more than i need the tv and books and more than i need a boyfriend.to God,i pray for this,let this duniawi be good for me and ukhrawi be much much better.
okay,maybe i exaggerate but i should be!tomorrow is the big day.gamut of emotions rolling in my heart,in my brain.i am happy,excited cause maybe things would turn out good but at the same time,this heart,this brain is filled with trepidition and questions.
so,to my fellow muslims,please say a little prayer for me.may Allah bless you.
ps/: we'll see if i can tell you readers about my results.if good,of course lah,i brag a bit but if not,you can take the hint huh.
okay,maybe i exaggerate but i should be!tomorrow is the big day.gamut of emotions rolling in my heart,in my brain.i am happy,excited cause maybe things would turn out good but at the same time,this heart,this brain is filled with trepidition and questions.
so,to my fellow muslims,please say a little prayer for me.may Allah bless you.
ps/: we'll see if i can tell you readers about my results.if good,of course lah,i brag a bit but if not,you can take the hint huh.
Monday, January 21, 2008
The Wedding- Melaka 19/01
so,my uncle made an opening speech.
some of the mak ciks and cousins who came.
the girl's side.hmm,notice someone familiar?
haha!i like this picture best. behind that smile lies a man whose heart is thumping with a speed of 200km/h. i keep thinking what was abg thinking of.i am a married man soon.responsibility,responsibility,responsibility.
and before the tok kadi proceed,he asked abg to recite al fatihah,mengucap dua kalimah shahadat,selawat nabi and some important questions.ni,kalau org singapore kene buat mcm gini,tak dapat ah.lelaki ingat nak khawin jer!yg lain not important.(why suddenly,i am typing in malay?)
aww,ilham is so bloody cute!
before,i go off,i have to say few things.
first of all,congratulations to abg haidar!the first male cousin to get married and for making an opening for the other three(maybe four?)male cousins getting hitch this year!(i bloody can't wait!i love wedding!)
anyway,my family and cik usop's family went to melaka together to witness the solemnisation.aww,i wished my whole lot cousins were there too.the solemnisation was taken place at a very huge beautiful mosque.don't you think getting hitch at a mosque is the most romantic thing?( mine's going to be at masjid sultan!HAHA.perasan,boyfriend pon tak pernah ada!proven:girls like to dream a lot.) well,the ceremony was right after zuhur and imagine what time i woke.5am in the morning!
so,my uncle made an opening speech.
some of the mak ciks and cousins who came.
the girl's side.hmm,notice someone familiar?
haha!i like this picture best. behind that smile lies a man whose heart is thumping with a speed of 200km/h. i keep thinking what was abg thinking of.i am a married man soon.responsibility,responsibility,responsibility.
and before the tok kadi proceed,he asked abg to recite al fatihah,mengucap dua kalimah shahadat,selawat nabi and some important questions.ni,kalau org singapore kene buat mcm gini,tak dapat ah.lelaki ingat nak khawin jer!yg lain not important.(why suddenly,i am typing in malay?)
aww,ilham is so bloody cute!
before,i go off,i have to say few things.
first: o level result this friday? wow,i can't wait to see my friends and be back in unform!( behind this enthusiasm lies a terrified looking girl)
second: i am riiicccchhhhhh!haha,just feel like saying that!not to show off but after a hardwork,loneliness,starved,brain freeze and morning frenzy situations, the money is worth it. it is a big deal,my first ever salary!my mam is more excited than me.money isn't everything mam.(okay,i lied.money makes up 50% of happiness,especially of you live in singapore)
enough of my stories.i need to get ready for tomorrow and watch heroes and B&S.
Thursday, January 17, 2008
i've been busy.
with what?
none other than watching tv and engrossing myself with two incredible books. Nina:Adolescence and Kite Runner.
let's talk about my favourtite subject here.Yesterday was American Idol.as usual,every year,i will not miss it albiet people's sayings that AI is losing its lustre.and as usual,i will ponder upon myself about why the hell people wasted their time to get audition.i understand that America's society are always about fame and beauty but goodness gracious,i can't imagine how desparate they are for that tiny weeny bit of fame.worst,some even think they can sing and even their family think that they can sing!
(a scenario)
daughter:mom,do you think i can sing? do you think i should try out for AI?
mom: yes honey,why not.you sound exactly like tina tuner baby. the judges gonna freak out when they hear you.
yes,the judges did freak out.what an incomprehensible thinking and behaviour is that?!
i am glad that i live in singapore.for once i know,our people here is not as thick-skinned, pretty self-aware and when i say i want to sing,i know that my family and friends will smack me back into my life thinking that i must be outta my mind.
despite that,i will still watch AI and let Americans entertain us with their ridicule antics.well,what can i say,i am an opinionated person.
ps/: i'll be back by sunday with yet another beautifool pictures.be heading down to melaka to attend my cousin's solemnisation!
with what?
none other than watching tv and engrossing myself with two incredible books. Nina:Adolescence and Kite Runner.
let's talk about my favourtite subject here.Yesterday was American Idol.as usual,every year,i will not miss it albiet people's sayings that AI is losing its lustre.and as usual,i will ponder upon myself about why the hell people wasted their time to get audition.i understand that America's society are always about fame and beauty but goodness gracious,i can't imagine how desparate they are for that tiny weeny bit of fame.worst,some even think they can sing and even their family think that they can sing!
(a scenario)
daughter:mom,do you think i can sing? do you think i should try out for AI?
mom: yes honey,why not.you sound exactly like tina tuner baby. the judges gonna freak out when they hear you.
yes,the judges did freak out.what an incomprehensible thinking and behaviour is that?!
i am glad that i live in singapore.for once i know,our people here is not as thick-skinned, pretty self-aware and when i say i want to sing,i know that my family and friends will smack me back into my life thinking that i must be outta my mind.
despite that,i will still watch AI and let Americans entertain us with their ridicule antics.well,what can i say,i am an opinionated person.
ps/: i'll be back by sunday with yet another beautifool pictures.be heading down to melaka to attend my cousin's solemnisation!
Monday, January 14, 2008
Saturday- Little India Baby!
this is the only food-shot i took cause i was starviing.there is even cheese nan!must try okay.
when comes to mustafa,we goofed around.haha,stupid actually.
and when our way back,we took imperfect pictures.all looked ugly but candid more better.
alright retarded lady,you need to stock up your clothes once your money slides in okay.
so,on the evening of saturday,my family and i went out to little india!goodness,it has been quite sometime since we stepped there.(my father used to bring us there quite some time last year) so,in belated birthday of my mam,we found an indian restaurant to eat.the food was SCRUMPTIOUUUSS. i love the nan and kima so much though it is spicy but i like it that way. when i stepped to little india,i was so glad cause i get to be in other's culture.(for once,i don't feel like being a malay) indians are not that bad,you see.their culture is the most vibrant and colourful and oh boy,i love to dance to their hindi songs.malay culture quite boring huh.
then,after the unforgetable meal,we went to mustafa center,walked around.the crowd was crazy and i don't get it why they have to grocery-shop on saturday night!
alright pictures,as told.
mam not photogenic(i quote from her okay) but her daughter do justice to this picture.hah!
the resturant was dark but i like the ambience and the background hindi musics!
this is the only food-shot i took cause i was starviing.there is even cheese nan!must try okay.
when comes to mustafa,we goofed around.haha,stupid actually.
and when our way back,we took imperfect pictures.all looked ugly but candid more better.
alright retarded lady,you need to stock up your clothes once your money slides in okay.
and today,at work,i made a blunder and i humiliate myself!gosh,that man looked at me with disbelief.i can't never forget his look but i am trying to coax myself that mistakes happened.seriously mas,it is no bigger.
Friday-
It was pretty memorable day for me.let's start from the top.in my 17 years of life,i never ever eat alone outside but on friday,i went to have lunch break at IMM and ate burger king ALONE. seriously,it felt like ____. since,i am a loner at work and my stomach screams for food,i braved myself to eat alone.it was such a brave move for me cause it's no easy.so what's the big deal people may ask.it is a huge deal cause being independant,you need to have a bucketfull of guts to do it.
Another memorable day,(this is a good memory)was halaqah class.in my 17 years of life,i never ever hugged and cheek-kiss with my sisters before so on that day,all the sisters have to do it so,i am out of choice.hah!but it felt good.to be hugging and kissing everybody.i love it cause i feel loved by people.i was crying while hugging and kissing(i am a baby)and i wished i could cry more but my pride stepped in(i hate to cry in front of people).the feeling was the best.now i know what it feels like to be crying on someone's shoulders.now,i am looking forward for that.i love kak muna more than before and i love the sisters more than before too.
ps/: i'll update on my trip to little india!(with pictures okay.since i've not been posting beautiful pictures of me.)
It was pretty memorable day for me.let's start from the top.in my 17 years of life,i never ever eat alone outside but on friday,i went to have lunch break at IMM and ate burger king ALONE. seriously,it felt like ____. since,i am a loner at work and my stomach screams for food,i braved myself to eat alone.it was such a brave move for me cause it's no easy.so what's the big deal people may ask.it is a huge deal cause being independant,you need to have a bucketfull of guts to do it.
Another memorable day,(this is a good memory)was halaqah class.in my 17 years of life,i never ever hugged and cheek-kiss with my sisters before so on that day,all the sisters have to do it so,i am out of choice.hah!but it felt good.to be hugging and kissing everybody.i love it cause i feel loved by people.i was crying while hugging and kissing(i am a baby)and i wished i could cry more but my pride stepped in(i hate to cry in front of people).the feeling was the best.now i know what it feels like to be crying on someone's shoulders.now,i am looking forward for that.i love kak muna more than before and i love the sisters more than before too.
ps/: i'll update on my trip to little india!(with pictures okay.since i've not been posting beautiful pictures of me.)
Thursday, January 10, 2008
tomorrow is frididadidadiya!
okay,that was quoted from rod monteiro,if you know who he is.(gosh,i love the Married Men)
i need my weekends baby!now,i am begining to relish the weekends,all thanks to the job huh.
anyway,i have nothing to blog about.nothing interesting happened by the way.okay maybe this.today,i saw something funny in the morning while i was on my way to work.there is this van that pull off directly in front of me and there was these words that plastered to the van.it says," Amahs on Wheels". (amah=maids) poor maids,they have to ride on that van and the whole world knows their designation is.it can get pretty embarassing.there's even a website on the van. amahsonwheels dot com.seriously.
and maybe this is interesting too.right now america is having their presidential election and oh boy,i find it interesting.the famous two candidate is a woman and a black man.hilary clinton and barrack obama.i can't wait to find out the results.i kinda like if obama wins cause,god!the racism there is pretty bad and all the former presidents are white people.i hope he wins.and who says he looks like osama?
okay,that was quoted from rod monteiro,if you know who he is.(gosh,i love the Married Men)
i need my weekends baby!now,i am begining to relish the weekends,all thanks to the job huh.
anyway,i have nothing to blog about.nothing interesting happened by the way.okay maybe this.today,i saw something funny in the morning while i was on my way to work.there is this van that pull off directly in front of me and there was these words that plastered to the van.it says," Amahs on Wheels". (amah=maids) poor maids,they have to ride on that van and the whole world knows their designation is.it can get pretty embarassing.there's even a website on the van. amahsonwheels dot com.seriously.
and maybe this is interesting too.right now america is having their presidential election and oh boy,i find it interesting.the famous two candidate is a woman and a black man.hilary clinton and barrack obama.i can't wait to find out the results.i kinda like if obama wins cause,god!the racism there is pretty bad and all the former presidents are white people.i hope he wins.and who says he looks like osama?
Tuesday, January 08, 2008
Sunday, January 06, 2008
tomorrrow is monday!
working is not what you expect.it is not fun especially if you have no friends and nobody to talk to(cause i'm the only temporary worker) and for the 10 hours,you are doing the same thing.so,i have been talking to myself.
one time,i was photocopying something and i was saying something like this(in my head):
me:women are so good.they are very good at multi-tasking(yes,i was multi-tasking)and without us the company will in be unproductive.women are efficient workers and by the way,it is only women who get organise and do all these filing shit.what will man do without us? i am doing good for this company.
and then,skali,i forgot to scan one sheet of paper!because of these thoughts,i have to scan again all!haha,then i was saying like: women,they can be so narcissistic.
working is not what you expect.it is not fun especially if you have no friends and nobody to talk to(cause i'm the only temporary worker) and for the 10 hours,you are doing the same thing.so,i have been talking to myself.
one time,i was photocopying something and i was saying something like this(in my head):
me:women are so good.they are very good at multi-tasking(yes,i was multi-tasking)and without us the company will in be unproductive.women are efficient workers and by the way,it is only women who get organise and do all these filing shit.what will man do without us? i am doing good for this company.
and then,skali,i forgot to scan one sheet of paper!because of these thoughts,i have to scan again all!haha,then i was saying like: women,they can be so narcissistic.
Thursday, January 03, 2008
first day of school was great.i get to meet my lovely friends and teachers and see familiar faces.
okay,you liar.yes,i am imagining myself how it feels like if i get to see my friends again cause i miss them and no matter how much they tried to deny,they miss me too.haha.
NEWS FLASH
masturah is officially working.haha,today is my first day!you think i am going to rot at home and stay fat?(i told jon that when he see me,he will see a nice and toned body) my mam's friend got me a job as an office girl or my father would like to call it admin assist.it feels so surreal to be stepping to an office and having a table of your own.after a hard day of work,my back aches. it feels so weird to be waking up early and having shower and drinking coffee.the last time was i think the last day of o level that i did that routine!
NEWS FLASH 2
if you have read my previous entry,my resolution is to take risks and after two days i made that resolution,there is a particular risks that i ought to take but i am second guessing.gosh,why must i face this particular risks now!why can't it come like months after i made the resolution.i am feeling like my brain cells got entwined and i can't think!think mas,think!why can't it be so easy for me.(afterall,life isn't bed of roses) i hate when i can't come up with anything cause as ironic it may sound,i am a practical person and i should be coming up with practical reasons and answers but all i am facing right now is a huge blank of paper and i can't seem to write anything down. O Allah,help me find my answers and show me Your way cause You knows more than i do.with whatever decisions that i come up with,i know it will be Your decision and may people can accept it.Ameen.
*lesson learnt-do not make any new year resolution ever if you know you can't keep it and if you ever found yourself in my situation.
*taking a huge sigh of relief after i have talked to leha about this and shared a shred of my problem to you.
okay,you liar.yes,i am imagining myself how it feels like if i get to see my friends again cause i miss them and no matter how much they tried to deny,they miss me too.haha.
NEWS FLASH
masturah is officially working.haha,today is my first day!you think i am going to rot at home and stay fat?(i told jon that when he see me,he will see a nice and toned body) my mam's friend got me a job as an office girl or my father would like to call it admin assist.it feels so surreal to be stepping to an office and having a table of your own.after a hard day of work,my back aches. it feels so weird to be waking up early and having shower and drinking coffee.the last time was i think the last day of o level that i did that routine!
NEWS FLASH 2
if you have read my previous entry,my resolution is to take risks and after two days i made that resolution,there is a particular risks that i ought to take but i am second guessing.gosh,why must i face this particular risks now!why can't it come like months after i made the resolution.i am feeling like my brain cells got entwined and i can't think!think mas,think!why can't it be so easy for me.(afterall,life isn't bed of roses) i hate when i can't come up with anything cause as ironic it may sound,i am a practical person and i should be coming up with practical reasons and answers but all i am facing right now is a huge blank of paper and i can't seem to write anything down. O Allah,help me find my answers and show me Your way cause You knows more than i do.with whatever decisions that i come up with,i know it will be Your decision and may people can accept it.Ameen.
*lesson learnt-do not make any new year resolution ever if you know you can't keep it and if you ever found yourself in my situation.
*taking a huge sigh of relief after i have talked to leha about this and shared a shred of my problem to you.
Tuesday, January 01, 2008
new year's eve it is!
oh my.tomorrow's 2008 and you know what?i actually looking forward to this year.i think 2008 is going to be really different.new school,new friends,new environment,new kinda of men to look out for.haha but seriously until i know what's my o level result is,then i know what 2008 has in store.plus,i am really excited that i am going to turn 18 next year.18!big deal okay which i don't know why but 18 is like,wah dah besar gitu kan.
however,2007 is the year that i will never ever forget.2007 brings a greater impact in my life and i love every piece of memory that i have in 2007.it feels really sad to leave behind the good like my friends and the school which i had spent my last 5 teenage years there but somehow i am glad that everything is over.the big o's especially.the experiences and the lessons learnt are priceless,simply priceless.
2007 means a lot to me as(random):
1) i have ended my big o's
2)i achieved my big dream which turned out bad.i wanted to be a contingent commander for the guard of honour.what you want doesn't always turn out what you really want.
3) 5/2 awesome campfire dance
4) 5/2 awesome teacher's dance and its practices
5)the sentosa trips with beloved company.
6)prom nite which i had been dying to go since sec 1.
7)harry potter 7th book,the very last.
8)mr tan teaching my class.haha!
9)new friendship made with leha,fatin,dinah,stella,jon,george....more of course!
10)nenek passed away this year.
11)more family-outings.
12)halaqah classes,the sisters and kak muna especially.
13)the stress that i went through made me stronger.
well,comes new year,new year resolutions are made too but i am not sure whether i can keep it.one thing's for sure i wanted to take risks next year.i wanted to be brave and do things which i always fear to.i hope 2008 would be blessed with happiness,insyaallah.
i would like to extend thanks to all my friends who crossed my path and became a part of my secondary school life.thank you to my family and beloved cousins for everything.i love you people who has been there for me throughout 2007.i would never forget what God has bring me to and i am endlessly grateful and thankful because i am blessed.
now,i am ending my new year's post.thank you to readers too!
oh my.tomorrow's 2008 and you know what?i actually looking forward to this year.i think 2008 is going to be really different.new school,new friends,new environment,new kinda of men to look out for.haha but seriously until i know what's my o level result is,then i know what 2008 has in store.plus,i am really excited that i am going to turn 18 next year.18!big deal okay which i don't know why but 18 is like,wah dah besar gitu kan.
however,2007 is the year that i will never ever forget.2007 brings a greater impact in my life and i love every piece of memory that i have in 2007.it feels really sad to leave behind the good like my friends and the school which i had spent my last 5 teenage years there but somehow i am glad that everything is over.the big o's especially.the experiences and the lessons learnt are priceless,simply priceless.
2007 means a lot to me as(random):
1) i have ended my big o's
2)i achieved my big dream which turned out bad.i wanted to be a contingent commander for the guard of honour.what you want doesn't always turn out what you really want.
3) 5/2 awesome campfire dance
4) 5/2 awesome teacher's dance and its practices
5)the sentosa trips with beloved company.
6)prom nite which i had been dying to go since sec 1.
7)harry potter 7th book,the very last.
8)mr tan teaching my class.haha!
9)new friendship made with leha,fatin,dinah,stella,jon,george....more of course!
10)nenek passed away this year.
11)more family-outings.
12)halaqah classes,the sisters and kak muna especially.
13)the stress that i went through made me stronger.
well,comes new year,new year resolutions are made too but i am not sure whether i can keep it.one thing's for sure i wanted to take risks next year.i wanted to be brave and do things which i always fear to.i hope 2008 would be blessed with happiness,insyaallah.
i would like to extend thanks to all my friends who crossed my path and became a part of my secondary school life.thank you to my family and beloved cousins for everything.i love you people who has been there for me throughout 2007.i would never forget what God has bring me to and i am endlessly grateful and thankful because i am blessed.
now,i am ending my new year's post.thank you to readers too!
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