okay.i got a new uztaz in my religious class.goody.he's funny and he keep using the word stupid.and he says like this "stupid the stupid".and he asked the RI guy where is the islam cemetery and he don't know!so much for being in RI but don't know where is the islam cemetery.hey,not insulting him but it's just that when you're bloody smart,people expect you to know everything.anyway RI guy,you're cute.

and that lead to my topic.you see,when you're smart,first in class,when you come from special school,when you're have a higher rank and whatsoever,people have a higher expectation for you and they expect you to know everything and not to fail in everything.right?take an example from my daily life in school.sheena,the smart girl.she's clever and everything.sometimes i go to her if i have problems in studies cause i expect that she understand.teachers always think highly of her and my class always expect her to get first in class tests.so,imagine that one day,she failed her class test or she disappoint her teacher or even don't know what's the teacher teaching when i ask her,people will tend to think or say "how come you don't know?how can you fail you class test?"but if i were to fail any class test people won't bother but if sheena,the smart girl fail her class test people would say "how can a smart girl like you fail a class test?"you get what i mean?smart people always has a
disadvantage.they have to maintain good grades and of course,they have to work extra hard because if not,they will be ashamed if they failed in any kind of situation.do you people get what i mean?

anyway,my topic may sound dull but i think i need to touch on this.
and yeah,something hit me really hard in the head,literally.made me contemplate what happened recently and i guess i need to have that empathy feeling in me.my school has taught me this a lot of time.empathy.empathy.empathy.if not,i'll be one selfish girl.and that's not the deal.

and i think i need to really do something about my weight.like duh,i've been saying this so many times but only action proves.nevermind,wednesday will be off to swimming!swimswimswim!
and i read sunday times,this girl she's 169 weigh 47 and i'm like 168 weighing heavier than her?!!!!!what an absolute shame!!!!

okay,i think i need o level TYS but i heard popular don't sell that anymore!!i have my sister TYS o level years ago but i need chem,maths and bio.bloody hell,have to start stuying again next week.enough of one week rest.bloody crap,this is the kind of lifestyle i have to go through for another two years.if the express students,they need to go one hell of a year but for na,we suffered more than them.

OKAY,ENOUGH BLOGGING.I'VE SAID TOO MUCH.
MAM MADE BROWNIES!!YUM!