i'm feeling a bit emo this few days and what i should be emo-ing about is school but it is not about school. here i am feeling unstress whereas everyone else is so stress out about their work makes me feel like, have i done enough? the answer is no and never. i have never done enough. i am trying now but right this moment, is not working. i dont know what i should do to improve. i am totally blank. and i say wow to these negative, pessimistic thoughts that currently running through my head for the past weeks.wow because first i am always looking on the bright side and always feeling optimistic. what the hell am i thinking?

and i really love the idea of disappearing.

maybe first start should be this blog.