yesterday was officially the bad(i shall not call it worst)day.

i had a breakdown yesterday during class.

masturah never ever break down during class or matter of fact,in front of people.i hate to show my weaknesses,remember?i had been keeping it all inside and he(my lecturer) was the triggering factor.he just hit that spot and i'm all rivers and rainfalls.i hadn't been feeling extra bubbly,extra enthusiastic,extra happy ever since monday.i don't know what's wrong.i have been thinking a lot and i'm getting use to his absence.this is not easy but i'm trying.

and today,i thought it would be better.i was already late for class.when i reached yew tee mrt,i remembered that i didn't bring my tessies along so i went back home and my brother wasn't being helpful at all.(is like a 5 min walk back to home)i was fasting by the way.i wanted to cry but i snapped myself.i need to be better.i need to feel better.

alright mas,tomorrow will be better and if another adversity falls upon you then just tell yourself that there's a barakah in every adversity.i need to get close to Allah.27th,please come quick!

10 more days mas,just be patient.10 more days till i pour my heart content to him.
ns spoiler,ns spoiler,ns spoiler.

ps/: i know this post sounds like i'm some kind of whiny crybaby.i'm not most of the time.it sucked to feel this way.