Last Saturday- GJ Jalan Raya

jalan raya last saturday was awesome. well it was my first with K. Thanks for inviting me :)


haha,muke nak kerek! (ps Ama this is for you.remember what you want to see last friday?)


hahah!my face was like in a mess!!compared to the previous.couldn't be bothered touching up.

martini in the house.haha,not!!

the whole lot of bunch.

i admit,i like attention but i don't seek for it.

girls.

girls.

idris's house.part paling kelakar. remember his potrait!hahaha.

okay this is K and my sister's group of friends.obviously i am the extra one but i am escorting my sister as well.hahah.and imagine what time was taken? about 1am in the morning!i was fecking exhausted!10am till 1am.

more jalan rayas to come K? InsyaAllah.

i love weekends.when one whole crazy week just ended,all i want to do is come home to you. literally.

56 drawings in a week!!

18 more to go.this semester is making more sense to me i think.girls lets do this together!

18 and Legal-

Well,obviously someone turned 18 today.18,like oh my god!to tell the truth,i was a tad sad cause i couldnt get to spend my birthday with someone special just because he is camp.But when i think back,i had the best time so far when i am 18.18 will mean a lot to me cause so many good things had happened this year.i'm so happy,blessed and thankful.Alhamdullilah.


at home.

in school.they girls surprised me and i wasn't that surprised but it meant a lot to me girls.the thought that counts.


lunch + shopping! on him!

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Last Friday-Hari Raya with CCKS

girls.

guys.

leha.

lala.

5/2 rocks!

School has quite boring. we had photography workshop and i'm not head over heels over photography.i just like practical but the theory can be really boring.maybe because of the boring lecturers.well at least the trip to little india was quite fun.i do enjoyed taking photographs there.

anyway..

Monday- Farewell Dinner

Najib,our only bee among the flowers is going back to Mesir so we cousins met up cause we might not see him till june next year!so long!i had so much fun with them.kecoh giler!

everybody else is candid and i am not.

bj.

candid 1.

candid 2.

okay i don't know what i was doing.

ignore sarah's iritating face.haha.

Last Friday-Hari Raya Outing with Girlfriends + Lin's Bday Surprise.

Light up under the blok.

ooohhh the others did came up with something for my bday-advanced.

It was so fun with them.Really fun when i get to tease Aisyah!oh gosh!

alright that's all.

the only good thing that will happen on my bday is,desparate housewives season 4 is back!

haha,i am pathetic like that.

my wireless is working just fine.alhamdullilah.i proved you wrong.


school's starting tomorrow.and how i could i possibly be looking forward for school after what i did?oh babe,i hope you didn't keep any grudges and may our friendship stay even though what happened.i am guilty,still am till i know we're both okay.


and i have been so so busy with raya outing it's taking a whole lot of time.next week will be the last of the last.raya outing with secondary school friends!!!and also khidhir's friends.
girlfriends,i had a blast.

more updates when i get all the pictures.


and monday is the start of the week of being boyfriend-less.anyway,i'm so glad that you came to my house for raya :) mam did you notice how that my face will light up when i'm with him?!

alright my stupid wireless keep disconnecting.and is getting on my nerves but i am trying to be patient and pray that miracle will happen.sometimes i just want to leave everything to God. never underestimate the power of the Almighty. He might just fixed my problem.ah huh don't laugh at me people.i prove you wrong.

anyway,school is starting soon!!!!!honestly,i'm pretty scared.i heard yixuan is leaving so i am scared that when i come to school on monday,the number of people quitting increased.okay i don't know what i'm scared of.i want to leave everything to God,right?

alright,i think that's it i wanna say here.

Hey everyone! Selamat Hari Raya!

alright,lets just get to the point.


First day of raya,it was such a rush for our family.being car less,we need to make sure we get in time so that we could see everyone.so,we were from one end to another end of singapore.pasir ris to teban.so yeah.and we didn't have time to snap some pictures.and this is the only decent pic i've got and my dad looked like he's half sleeping.hahah.and and,i'm supposed to be brown but i looked a tad yellowish.hahah, i don't know how that happened.

mam's side.the whole lot of girls.

and this was the only picture taken at dad's side.we were late and they took pictures without us.next time aight cousins.anyway i wasn't in the mood to take picture all thanks to the pimples!!argghh!

last friday.

and last saturday,i was down with headache,flu and slight fever.totally wasn't in the mood to take picture.it was sucks,getting sick on festive season.

and this was the only best picture taken with my nephew.aww,he's so cute.

alright,that's all. i know my post is so lack of enthusiasm but heck.

be back.

the fasting month has ended.the heart feels heavy to leave ramadhan.

syawal is here.i learnt something valuable.not everyone looked forward for syawal.not all muslims get to buy 2 new set of hari raya clothes,new shoes and new bags.not all will be anticipating to get their house clean,to get to change to new curtains,new bedsheet or new set of furniture.i realised that there are some brothers and sisters out there didn't get to feel the luxury of life like i do.i realised that there some brothers and sisters out there feel that there are missing someone this syawal,their loved ones left before them.i realised that not all will be happy and joyful like i do when i meet my relatives because the cold war that they had built over years.

so this syawal,i'm trying to be thankful that i have everything that i needed that other might need it more than i do.

before i go,would like to wish to my cousins,friends or whoever that read my blogs,
SALAM EIDULFITRI.Forgive me if i have done hurt anyone in any way.Forgive my wrong doings.MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN.

saturday-
pointless shopping @orchard and bugis, break fast at alfalah, didn't have time to eat proper dinner,there goes our swensens and our last buka together, went back home early, met up with his and sister's friends(well they are friends) under the blok, waited for the sister to come back home, sister's surprise tak menjadi, waited for mom to come back for terawih, my family,neighbours and his/sister's friends went to eat at gombak.

wow,i had a great time on saturday,minus the heated conversation we had.however it led to something good.


my sister tak tahu malu asked me to put this in my blog.so here's a late shoutout to you,
HAPPY 22nd BIRTHDAY.you got 4 years,only 4 years and out you'll go.hahahah.

i put this not to show that i have no friends lah but i think what they did was sweet.yg tak glamour celebrate bawah blok jer.haha,but my parents are not at home so i can't invite them to my house.so people...guess which one is mine?haha.


this is when my parents,neighbours and bros were back from terawih.to my dear brothers, even though you can catch some fish with a vespa bait in years later,i wish you could use another bait.maybe audi bait or something like that huh.show that we Saad family got class.hahahah.



at gombak.hahaha,sempat lepak lepas terawih.


1 and a half day to RAYA.
okay i tell you the truth,i am not so looking forward for it.nope,didn't find the mood in geylang.okay just because,i have to compromise my saturdays to go for jalan raya.for 3 weeks at least.so is it a good thing or a bad thing?

tomorrow is saturday!the only day i have a life.
cause you are my life.

going geylang tonight at around 10 plus.the later the better.i need to find my festive mood.i hope i find it in geylang.but i might just be dampened by the crowd.hahaha.

i am more calm,collected and cool.always cool.hahaha,if you know what i mean.

anyway,ramadhan is ending soon,next tuesday.you know,ramadhan is the only time we think about people who are less fortunate.do you think by next month you'll remember how blessed,lucky you are?no.cause you are so busy celebrating hari raya.i don't want to forget how lucky i am.if i keep reminding myself that my life is better than the others,maybe everytime i face a problem,i can tell myself,that there are people with problems that are 10 times worst than mine.if i could just think of that,i wouldn't feel so sad or angry.

anyway,last saturday i helped out with giving out money and bubur to the less fortunate people at a mosque.there's this atuk that touched me.i don't why i feel like crying when i think of him.maybe because i pity him.poor atuk living with a friend,also as old as him.imagining how he could get through his life and he is so weak.i think another reason maybe because i miss my grandfather tok man.i was thinking of how life would be if he's around. i never get close to any of my grandparents and this year,i am celebrating hari raya grandparent-less.that what makes me sad i guess,seeing the old people at the mosque.regretting at the fact that i did not spend more time with my grandparents.

i cannot bear to see old people living alone even though they have children.if that's what they want then is okay.the thing that i despise the most is children not taking care of their parents.even though i am not the perfect daughter but i vow to take care of my parents when they get older cause this is the only way to show that i appreciate what they have done for me,sacrificed for me.

blame khidhir for getting me into all these feelings.hahah,no seriously.thanks a lot for asking me to come although initially i do not want to.seeing your family again makes me happy cause i feel welcomed this time.just wanna tell you that life with you has been absolutely fantastic.i love every moment of it.

i shall update!

been pretty busy,preparing for hari raya!baking can be fun but tiring cause my mam,she's crazy!
she can do like 4 different types of kuih in a day!of course,sarah and i was her victim.
haha.anyway,to all coming to my house,check out my cookies.the specialty.insyaAllah it will turned out nice cause this is my second time doing the recipe.

anyway,there's so many things to do!i need to plan for hari raya outings(well,who else will do it,if not me)and birthdays.i'm getting into a panic mode.i need the house to be cleaned by saturday and dad is sucha lazy dad nowadays.haha,wassup with me!call my mam crazy.now saying my dad is lazy!i told you i'm getting panic.mcm aku jer head of the house.and i need to buy some things for hari raya.need to remind sis to buy one more bedsheet and thinking whether i should buy hari raya bag.i think i need to go out on saturday.the same day i want the house to be clean.so how?!!cause only by saturday,i'll be done baking so i don't have any other time! alright breath mas. wow,aku melebih pulak.

policeman help me!!!(haha okay,you must be confused.K got posted to police!only one thing i had in mind,more expensive dining!!by may next year.right inspector?haha,seriously no.)

by the way, I GOT A C FOR DESIGN STUDIO!!!!that was my aim.alhamdullilah.i think i was marked for my effort.

alright,i better get going!

"If you're afraid of everyone leaving you,what do you do?"
"Make them stay."
"And if you can't do that, or don't know how to?"
" I don't know."
" Yes, you do. In fact you've done it. You leave first, so you don't have to watch them walk away."

-Plain Truth by Jodi Picoult.

i do find myself in that situation for a few times.i think it is less hurting,to walk away first.

It's close to 1230am in the morning. Nowadays i don't bother to sleep at 11.i kinda like this solitary feeling.okay not really solitude cause i got my boy to keep me company,sometimes cause he ditched me to get some sleep.anyway, i am kinda sad that this one week is almost over and after this i am going drive myself up to the wall, more than before.but maybe it will be better cause i think i'll be busy baking for raya.can't wait to invite my friends over!

eh..why they didn't show what we get for design studio and tod.anyway,i am so happy that i got B+ for oral communication.my fav module but sadly,next sem will be a different module.haha,no more showing off how you're confident up at the front mas.and i know there's other presentation but talking about designs and concepts will definitely lower my confidence cause i don't know what i'm blabbering at times.

12 more days to raya.i do looked forward for raya but i think i looked forward more to school.i know! school?come one mas!but i totally cannot sit at home any longer.the only thing that keep me sane is meeting K, reading book, watching my fav tv shows and performing terawih.so consider the rest of the 24hour,i am insane.


imagine myself in diah mastura's shoes(the blogger) so i think i should be grateful arent i?at least i'm not suffering from anything except mental exhaustion from staying at home.

alright i know,i've been droning about the fact that i hate holidays.maybe i should stop.

the chocolate cookies bubble tea is damn good.my brother bought it for me and he made a deal with me.he buy me the bubble tea for me and i allow him to play games on the lappie.hahah,i practically ignored him.i love it when i made deals with my brother cause i'll get what i want but he doesn't necessarily get what he wants.

last wednesday,went out with my poly friends.we went all the way to changi aiport!nothing much at t3 but we went there just to eat popeye's. i was so fulled after that my stomach hurts. had a great time with them!girls,i honestly can't wait for school.

alright it's almost 1 am.

i am frustrated.there are so many things that i need to learn and understand.and understanding is not the best part of all.i am infuriated that sometimes i wish i was back to my old self. and that, is a scary thought cause i am happy with where i am now but.there's always a but.humans, they can never be grateful.

but i did what i think was right.for me for you for us.

when i'm with you, everything is effortless.