Girlfriends @ town-

Wednesday,finally,finally met up with the girls after postponing the outing for so many times. i had so much fun,laughing with you girls.thanks for the time ladies.


oh yeah, we spontaneously wanted to take picture right outside heeren.no,not to grab any attention,it was just spontaneous.

aww, jana dah mcm kakak2 sekarang!haha.so sweet..hahaha!

as usual.we hanged out at mcafe@ shaw.oh,lin brought(not dropped,hah)her holga!seriously it felt like a toy camera and i am so tempted to take many shots of ourselves.anyway, we had to wait till lin finishes the film till we can see the outcome.

bdk tu dah turn from western to eastern,eversince she's in tp.hahha.

i will see you girls soon.xoxo.

KL-


train to Kl.


good morning kl!it was around 8 in the morning!

oh!my bro had a haircut.his curly rambut mcm sarang tebuan is gone!

tired.checked in the hotel.

change and went out to masjid india.

lrt/mrt rides was fun!though, transferring mrt to lrt was exhausting,i cant deny how i love to find my way around kl.when i am on feet,i try to regconise buildings so that i can walk around and be lost and then find my way again.loves it.

before heading to petaling street,had a&w.i miss root beer float!nothing's the same as a&w!and petaling was okay.it would have been better if the guys stopped passing comments to me. hello, me with the Pimps you still call pretty?your tactics doesn't work on me.

next day.morning faces.gosh

headed to the twin tower.i had never been up there before.yeah i know.sad.
while queueing for tickets,i went out with my bro to camwhore!haha,my bro unreluctantly will take my vain shots for me.

at last,got my hands on the tixs.

beautiful.i love it.if only the skyline was more outstanding than it would have been better.

family.we're famous for bringing each other down.

started to take jump shots.hahah,everyone was looking at us.my mam did a great job capturing this considering her photography skills.i bet she has any.

dad wanted too but it turned out to be like this.hahah!

hahah.candid.

in the lift.

after that.

next suria klcc for shopping!

and i think that's it for the pictures.cause i realised we didn't take more pictures when we went to masjid india(again)and times square.

alright i'll see you again.

i am not done packing.and the reason behind this reluctancy is,i am not ready to be far away from you.laugh if you want.but if you feel what i feel before than you'll understand.i am not looking forward.maybe not yet.but whatever it is,i am glad to be away from here for a short while.

when i come back,i am gonna make sure i spend my last month of 2008 with the loved ones.fairies outing soon next week,insyaAllah.i hope to meet the cousins once again by next week too.and i have to finish my CCC reflection by next week,start my mood box which i have no idea how.and the next next week,hope to meet ccks peeps,twilight with the kat rf hammie and maureen and christmas with K.and the very last week of december,school reopens and meeting K again for new year eve.hahah,probably be under my blok!hahah.

insyaAllah i hope everything goes as i plan.i am missing lots of people already.
why is love intensifies by absence?

BYE everyone.have a good weekend.
lots of love,xoxo.

interesting news!

tartar sauce @ long john silver cost 20 cents now!!!
like O.M.G(in a very bimbotic way)
i know,i know,i was shocked too.

in time of crisis,i shall be more aware of my money.actually honestly speaking i don't waste a lot. i don't splurge,i mean how can i when i have to constantly use my money for school.i am trying my best not to waste more money on junks.i think it can be done.a chocolate for a week.more,would mean i am really hungry or stress.and and,i can't always depend on my newly recent source-r.but i end up depending on him.hahaha.for food only.

anyway,today i had the most awful awful cramps at the most awful timing.in the train.i was on my way to ICA and i had to go cause they need my thumbprint so the pain started when i was going to leave.hai,the things we girls have to go through.boys only go through ns for like 2 years and we, until menopause!so boys,no complains.

This was supposed to be Last Week-

Last Saturday
my family had tahlil plus katam Quran over at my house.It was JAM PACKED.my relatives on my dad's side,some relatives on my mam's side,my neighbours,him and his friends were there. only at night,more people started to stream in and me,i have to work around.even though i was tired i love people coming to my house.i love the idea of gathering people.

anyway,my uncle is so funny.he was interrogating me about him.even my dad didn't ask a lot of questions!and and,my two dearest cousins kinah and fiza slept over my house!!it has been too long since we have done that.


my brother reading the Holy Quran.if someone finishes reading the Quran we can choose to have a sort of ceremony(i dont know if it's a correct term) and he have to read a few excerpts from the Quran in front of everybody.i was quite nervous for him.and and i didn't have my own ceremony but my father has something bigger planned for me.whatever dad.

Last Friday-
it was elaine's wedding, my DID lecturer.it was my very first time witnessing a vowing ceremony in a church.and i was pretty scared to step into the church.istigfar banyak banyak sey.



a very simple wedding.no fuss.i wish malay weddings are of no fuss.but of course,it would be different and unculturally felt but who cares about culture.culture doesnt influence religion.

the bride with the father.

vows!i always watched this on tv but is the first time i hear and see it.

two word.loves it.

m,k and h.rf and another m had a thing with cameras that day!

hawa.

after the wedding and everything,we girls went to shopping!!hahaha,i bought a dress again though after trying at home,i looked like some pregnant girl.who cares.anyway,i had fun girls.thanks for the time.

Last Tuesday-

Critique.it was okay i guess.the group critique quite sucked.it felt like boys vs girls thing.lecturers(6 men)vs 4(timid girls).we couldn't say anything.we didnt defend our own ideas and we allowed that men to laugh at our product!how could i allow that to happen!i was afraid that i might say the wrong things and ruined everything so that was why.at least we had the idea.we had the concept and that's crucial.

Comes individual,it was okay i guess.made one or two jokes(that worked and made the lecturers smile or gave a laugh or two).and made a sarcastic remark to this guy cause arrgh,i couldn't stand him.i am starting to have a thing with men who wants to show off how much knowledge or information they have and they start to blabber about it,not in a humble,parting knowledge way.

alright i am done.this is quite a long post.

xoxo.goodnight.

you are contented with what you have.you accept and believe in fate.you didn't expect more of others,including me.you are not greedy.you are not selfish.you always look on the positive side of everything.you are patient even when i'm at my most bitchy behaviour.you remind yourself that you love me even when you are angry/disappointed at me.

i wish i didn't expect more.

fireworks @vivo saturday night-
the most unexpected night.if we're meant to see each other then we're meant to see each other.

so..i have 4 weeks of holiday.
what am i gonna do?

end of term 3 for me.

and i should be celebrating or having fun but where i am now?

critique session this tuesday and i am feeling good about it.
elaine's wedding this friday and i am abosolutely looking forward for it.
having a pack weekend next week so this weekend will make up for the next weekend.

ciao people.

i hate standing in the way

submission is tomorrow.nothing's new.same old.
last minute work,last minute print.but we'll get through it someway,somehow.

anyway,just wanna say that i miss a lot of people.my babes,leha lala fatin,please meet up soon okay?i feel like doing another outing for the class but we'll see how.would love to meet the guys and have a laughing marathon.that would be so so good.and and a pot of shisha would be even better cause is been a long time..

insyaAllah meeting the cousins this saturday.fizza dah bis a level so lets enjoy babe!since my very dear dear friend will be out having fun in the sun,this would be a great oppportunity to get away from him.hahahahah.no lah.so cousins,be ready to share and tell.and kinah,if you can come please do come.

it's 1245 am and i just realised is raining over here.

the burden of the last project has not been lifted up cause..
THEY LAUNCHED ANOTHER BLOODY MASSIVE PROJECT!
a huge one,4 modules included.and we have to design a space for someone.interesting,really but i might just fall into another deep stress-hole.

anyway,besides that,today i talked to a south african women for my cross comm module.it was intriguing,her opinions about singaporeans though almost half of what she was talking,i can't understand.singlish is rude to her and she said the customer service here sucks!hahaha.

okay back to my project.two more submissions and i am done for this term!

ALAS, THE LAST PROJECT IS DONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
too tired,too exhausted.

the whole week,i have been going home late.we had a week to buy materials,construct and print a1 board for the presentation.it was a hell of a week,i am so glad is over.so damn glad.friday i stayed in school till 10plus.i was being bitchy,ignorant and cooperative cause of some reasons.i am really really sorry kat ham and ruifen.thanks for being patience with me.

studio:


someone said people who draws,design anything related, work with mess.and i am a neat freak. so how?


fragmented.


saturday,had a very chilling evening at starbucks fusionpolis.the place is practically empty and we got free food!one after another.hahah,thanks starbucks dude.headed to holland v for the very first time,yeah i know shut up.and of course a day would not end with an arguement.hahaha.well,is part of the package.can't wait for next saturday.5 more months baby.
i love you.Always will.Always have.

haha,ignore my unfriendly faces.well if you dont have canon eos cameras,make use of the people that have it.

School has been extremely exhausting and the next two days will be more exhausting than ever cause we're rushing for time and submission is next monday.boohoo.

Nothing much to talk about.i just want to spend my entire day watching pride and prejudice and reading!! but i don't have any to myself this week,even weekend.

okay,i do not want to blog about how great my life has been now that i have bf blah blah blah..
but last saturday was special.i wouldn't forget about it.though if i could do it all over again,i would change certain things.and i'll pray to God that this will be constant even though i knew what i am doing is wrong and sometimes sinful.just let me be happy as for now.let me have my share of experience.let me have enough of my life,which i hope is soon.

anyway,15 bucks gone to the project!!!!!!!!
save me from this misery,the only thing i hate about design is,it is not money-free!!!imagine how many dresses i could get from spending all my money on design!!!i better get B or something!

i'm all smiles today.

it's weekend baby!!!!!

more on marc jakob(according to hafiz.hahaha!!),watching a lot like love(cause i can't find greys anatomy season 2!argh),spending time with K, shopping(though i am broke we'll see how) sleep if i ever manage to and halaqah.

school is not about throwing your hands in the air.

school update:
my media's with obsession with weight thingy sucked.i don't know half of what i was talking about.i realised,i can do a good job in writing but i sucked at speaking standard english.

another new project coming up!is quite interesting.and i can't wait to tell them what i have in my mind now,this INSTANT.but we got like a week to do it?CRAZY!!

personal update:
halaqah just left me speechless.sometimes,i just feel like i had enough of duniawi but truthly,most of the time,i havent had enough.and i should know what i am living for.ukhrawi.

a whole new level.

i am spending my saturday night doing on media's obssession with weight and marc jacobs.can design get any interesting?honestly,i think yes.

and i just made a a huge colossal mistake.crunch time mas.

Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.

This was what we sang when we're on the way back.M,RF and H.hahaha,one guy turned and looked at us when we're figuring the lyrics.hahah,if not because of the awesome girlfriends,yes includes K and Q, i would taken the step.

Anyway,this week has all together been exhausting and stressful.My mind is messed up and i am not trying to blame PMS and i need to rest and watch Mean Girls this weekend.But i need to talk to another K so meet up for two straight days to get my mind at peace.give me peace please!and i wish his atm card would work cause i am definitely craving for mashed potato at breeks.hahahaha.

oh oh,i can't wait to start on my project. MARC JACOBS!
and and, my baked LEMON MERINQUE!reminds me of bree's lemon merinque!

just one news,
breaks my heart.

and i have never ever feel like i need to be there for someone so much in my life.
everything happens for a reason.someday,i pray that everything gonna be fine.just remember that i love you and i really do.

that's it for this week!and next week will be a whole different thing.more assignments.you know i realised,there isnt one day,one day i come back home from school doing absolutely nothing.there is always something,for me for us to do.

i can't wait to meet K tomorrow and wear my new skirt.hahahah,random.i can't wait to pour my heart content to him.hai,having a bbf in camp is so tough.the past month has taught me so much. to learn is to experience pain and disappointments.there's always two side of things,the bad and the good.i take as much postiveness as i can and learned that if i want this to work,i have to face more of the bad.hahah,like as if we're together for 3,4 years.and and,this is the only phase in life where actions do really really really speak louder than the words.

alright have a good weekends everyone.

i'll spend my time juggling schoolwork and love.

i know i am stress when the only thing i think about is my assignments and i would never put it aside until i finished doing it so.

i know i am stress when i have the sudden urge to buy a big bar of chocolate(the last time i did that was o levels!).

i know i am stress when my mind doesn't make sense and i am thinking negatively....

alright,the assignments are piling up and it seemed that i am not coping it well this time around.and is not the semester project yet.i know why.the other things(beside school)on my mind is also taking its space in my brain.i can't think straight today.

things got better when i had gems.my module is about accents and slangs.i LOVE the module cause of the awesome lecturer and the loud,open minded responsive people like me!i love the part where we tried to do the SPG accent and fiona and me remembered about the noose.babarella!and we waved like SPG at the end of the class to this expat guy(he was a guest in our class).hahaha.i think if i ever cant find a job that suits me,i might be an english teacher but of course,i need to brush up a lot on my english!

and things seemed better at night when i started my cad drawing.i am on track now so relaxed a bit.i get too tense up when i am not on track.

enough bout school!can't wait for friday!

today truth hurts.

weekend has been okay i guess?nothing out of ordinary.okay maybe one part.i has been the doing the same thing that i am afraid i'll get bored of this eventually.it is a scary thought.i shall change my mindset.damn,how can i be so negative right.i'm sorry.

anyway sunday,i went to yus's open house.lala and I were famished at that time.so satu2 nasfu ba aliff be ye.hahaha.seriously.we had such a good time laughing about monyet,me laughing like i caught an asthma and about ayam kat bibir.i miss my secondary school friends so much.sometimes i wish i would come to my class and see those familiar faces instead of the ones in my current class.and not that i don't love my foursome.

and and on sunday,i purchased myself a skirt!!my first ever!alright no big deal but heck.i am so going to bangkok when i turned 21 so i can buy many cheap dresses and skirts.

and today,just sucks.wondered about so many things.and i did a bitch move.like i always do when i am not satisfied.